By the name of Allah the most benificient the most merciful...
I guest this is not a right time for me to blog because my final exam is just around the corner.. yeah this 21st of april.. but i dont know why, the nearer it comes the lazier i become.. damn.. i dont know why.. i need to tell someone but somehow i .. totally silenced..
humm a lot of things playing in my head right now.. friends..future..politics..family..studies..what i want to be.. what i want to achieve.. what kind of change that i want to make.. sometimes i felt so heavy thinking of this 'unnecessory' things... i guest (again) .. lots of guesting means that im not confident on what im doing right now.. is it necessary to think of those things?
last wednesday ayah came and we had dinner together at chinoz klcc... we arrive at chinoz quite early as i finished my class at 4.30 pm that day.. at there i can see many of working men dressing with complete working dress, neck tie, black shoes, pda on their hand talking and had a drink with their friends. ayah also dressed the same way they did.. he is so handsome in the working dress, blue stripes shirt with cuffling, he is a good looking man as he always does.
i dont know why, everytime i met him i felt very motivated, he always inspired me by telling stories about his friends that already get the title Dr. in front of their name, how they success in their life and how rich they are now. actually im quite stress and so lazy to study on that day.. i need an inspiration and a sparks to activate me back and bring me on the track. ayah is the only person which when i meet without having any conversation i will get inspired back. strange isnt it?? hehe
A month ago i received a sms from a person that i didn't know. at first she mentioned that she thought she was smsing with her cousin but then i tell her that i was not her cousin and she got a wrong number. Yes the sender is a female.though i told her that im not the one that she wanted to sms with, she keep messaging me and i dont have problem with it.. im having a semester holiday on that time so i have time to reply all the messages. we exchange photos and stories .. starting on that day she was like a person that is very near to me and after a few weeks we get coupled. can u imagine?? we havent meet n suddenly get coupled?? haha funny isnt it?? but actualy i didnt trust her at all (sorry if she is reading this) but its hard for me to trust someone which i never meet.. hehe dont trust girl huhu i have a mission to accomplish and i dont want anyone to interrupt it.. is getting coupled will interrupt my mission to be a doctor?? i can see a lot of my friends that have special person but yet able to focus on their studies. but im not that type of person. so i dont want to take risk by making a serious relationship till i finished my study. and i dont think in a very short period of time u can fall in love with ur deepest heart ..fuh.. actually it is hard for me because i am very easy-to-fall-in-love person.. haha but then when i have that kind of feeling i will put it away from my mind and get more closer to my friends so that i can forget about the feeling... hum~ i still contacting her but not everyday since i am quite busy with studies and things..
By the way I just downloaded The Official - Reality Rock n Roll album from a http://mp3.taktau.me.uk/. It is one of my favourite skinhead band. The first time i listened to the album when i was in the matric.i had searching it for quite a long time and finally i found it on the site. the site also provides various albums and songs to be downloaded.
do u ever encountered this before??mmmm when u listen to a song there is a memory that will come into your mind which sometimes might be related or might not related on the song that u r listening to.. then u will smile on urself and sumone might think that u r crazy.. ahaha i have a few of them and i listed below..
Oasis - wonderwall
humm this song reminds of my days in matriculation.. everytime i study at the library this song will be beside my eardrum huhu i can still remember the way i dressed, how hardworking i was on that day.. there was a night where i was walking to the library, a full moon arise, i did capture a photo of the moon on that night but everything lost when my laptop is infected by virus. damn. haha but it was really beautiful. there were no other stars and only the moon's gloom can b seen on the sky... :)
it was kay's cd that i borrowed to listen, since then i will remember of him everytime i listen to album, he is a good friend though we didnt hang out together much. a memory that i never forget on him is when i was at the rock the world concert alone, i met him and we went for head banging together to all the stages on the event. fuh it was so tiring, there was 3 stages so we have to rotate around so that we can go to all the stages. penat!
The acab - where has the bootboys gone
wow this is a very old song for me, i hav been listening to the song since i was studying in secondary school. i have a friend, sofil, and i can say that he is a very proud of skinhead of alor star. actually he did try to persuade me to join the skinhead group.. haha we were studying in a greatest religious school that time but somehow, i dont know how, this negative element able to enter his mentality and for me it did drag him to have a bad attitude, i dont have any idea what he is doing right now, i heard he dropped out from his study but since i left my school, i never contct him anymore. poor him.
The offside - malaysia ku
it was a night where sofil let me listen to this song through the internet. humm nice song..
Coldplay - fix you
somehow when i listened to this song, i felt that i want to be alone, i want to walk on the street alone where there is no car, no one on the street, the only thing is only light from the street lamp , which i feel like i want to get rid of everyone around me.. huh~ crazy
Coldplay - yellow
another song that remined me those matric days.
Aaliayah - i miss you
syamin asked me to find this song and she dedicated it to me.. humm everytime i listen to the song, it will remind me of her, every laugh and tears we had. so cute haha
Hanson - love song
this is a song i listened when suddenly i got crashed with my own best friend, hahaha syamin lah.. huh there was also another guy trying to attract her, asking her to go out in the evening, it was very painful when u see ur loved one going out with another person but not u. but it was my fault too, i didnt tell her the truth, haha but as i always did, i try to get rid of her and managed to do so. ;)
remind me of abg musab, he is doing medicine in australia now, i dont know if he still remember of me or not. i met him when i was form 1. he was form 3 on that time and he always help me coping on the new boarding school life there. during my school time, there will be a gathering from all forms of student, form 1 to form 5 a day before a long holiday came and before all the students back home. we will make a big circle inside the mosque and we need to shake hand on everybody according to the circle, that is the time where we will ask forgiveness and hope that we can see them again when the school is opened. and this song is played during the occasion. :( i missed my school
Hijjaz - dia kekasih Allah
the first slide show that i made during the school time, and i was the best slide show maker during that time haha perasan
Far east - antara kita
remember on my friends, yeh, pit gani, nuruddin, cipan and hidir
i hope we can hang around together again..
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