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2011-09-22T20:08:00.004+08:00

Psychiatry community project - 2010

The last week of O&G posting :)

2011-09-21T18:24:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah, currently ending my o&g posting, in the last weeks of the posting, lots of new experience, new mistakes, new knowledge, new anger to overcome, confidence and all, but its not enough if i only prepared the practical parts only, have to put my knowledge ahead too..

but i prefer peads more :)

its just 6 months before my final professional exam, and starting next week my friends from other faculty 4 years courses will be graduating. its a convo day fever again. only God knows how i really wanted to wear the red robe and graduate next year. hopefully everything will go smooth and fine.

(curi-curi tangkap je ni)

i hope it is not too late to wish all of you Selamat Hari Raya maaf zahir dan batin, Alhamdulillah i had a good raya this year, with family, teachers, friends from Maahad Mahmud, that is enough for me. Kubur tok je tak sempat pegi lagi di Melaka, nanti lah bile2 free week ends.

p/s - gambar diatas sekali tu gambar lame. rambut sekarang panjang sikit with spectacles.bye

Qiblat yang sama.

2011-08-14T13:25:00.003+08:00

Ya Sallim Sallimna Sallim Sallim Dinana

Ada yang hitam, ada yang putih..Zahirnya Dia menciptakan kita berbeza
Namun batinnya kita dikurnia akal fikiran yang lengkap sempurna
Walau berbeza kasta budaya, hanya amalan pada-Nya yang utama
Kita mewarisi Al-Quran suci sebagai panduan tuk hidup sejahtera

Seringkali iman akan diuji bak layar dihembus laut gelora
Dalam mengejar kehidupan di sana, jangan alpa meredah kabus dunia

Walau pandangan jauh berbeza, tak bermakna ada salah ada benar
Pada akhirnya kita semua sujud ke arah satu qiblat yang sama

Semulia insan adalah yang menghampiri-Nya
Moga ditempatkan dengan yang bertaqwa

Tak mungkin manusia yang punya nafsu bisa terlari walau secebis dosa
Apa yang mampu kejar pahala, biarlah yang Esa menghitungkannya
Buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih tak guna merintih menyesal bersedih
Khalifah bumi semua bersaudara untuk menghambakan diri kepada-Nya

Kadangkala kesabaran dicabar tiang utuh teguh bisa kan runtuh
Sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit, inikan pula sesama saudara

Walau pandangan jauh berbeza, tak bermakna ada salah ada benar
Pada akhirnya kita semua sujud ke arah satu qiblat yang sama

Semulia insan adalah yang menghampiri-Nya
Moga ditempatkan dengan yang bertaqwa

MY SCHOOLDAYS: 'Get married, start a family and become a doctor'

2011-07-13T00:59:00.000+08:00

MY SCHOOLDAYS: 'Get married, start a family and become a doctor'

Whiteer

2011-06-18T00:31:00.001+08:00

kalau ada cincin silver cun , mesti lagi cun,

nampak cam pendek sket kat situ,

tapi tak pe hensem hahaha (perasan)

nak cincin~ arghhh

bubye.. in teluk intan for paeds posting, final year is so hectic.

Sigh

2011-05-18T14:26:00.002+08:00

Eh mcm mane ko bleh duduk dalam eh?

Korang ni takde system merit kan?

Ape jawatan yg ko pernah ade dulu?

Ape aktiviti yg ko buat waktu kt UNPAD dulu?

Waktu kt UNPAD dulu ade buat aktiviti ni tak?

Bdak ni dpt jawatan tu mesti sbb die TWP.

Bla..bla..bla……

Pernah berbual dgn seorang student UKM waktu awal2 masuk dulu.

S :ak waktu preklinikal byk kene resit paper (nada kecewa)

I :Pasal ape? (nada takde perasaan)

S :Ak sibuk ngan aktiviti2 persatuan/kolej..nk kumpul merit supaye dpt duduk dalam (nada bangge)

I : …. (speechless dan cube cari jalan tukar tajuk)

I want you to know and realize that they had struggled and competed among themselves, busy collecting merits just to stay in KTDI. Not just simply saying “I wanna stay in”- like I did.

I am now regretting my years in UNPAD for not actively involved in the society. Not because I don’t have the answers for all of the above questions, but for not gaining as much priceless experiences that I should have.

Those who are still in UNPAD, please do as much as you can. Don’t you ever miss the chance or else you’ll regret-just like me.

Those who are lucky enough to stay here in KTDI, please show to them that you are capable of doing things and actively involved in many activities that is held by the college/faculty. Grab as many opportunity as you can.

If you do not know how to do things, learn. I’ve grown up much from a person who does not know at all in doing things, into a person who can do and contribute for something now. Admire a leader and learn to become like one. I am definitely not a good example, but this proves we all can evolve, if we want. Those who are already master in doing things, just keep up the good work.

To me, the most important thing is that you do things because you are willing to do it, not for the sake of merits or to be acknowledged by others.

But don’t get too busy with the activities until you lost your tract to study medicine. Stay focus in your study. Set up your mind “My aim is to pass every clinical year”. My supervisor was a neuro surgeon, Mr T. He advised the students; “Study to pass the exam, don’t study to treat the patients”. Well it might sounds irrational at first. But what is the point if you study to treat the patients but you cannot pass the exam and cannot become a doctor? Does it make sense now? You can agree or disagree with the advice, for sure.

Those who have troublesome in study, don’t give up. You have been chosen by Allah s.w.t to be here in this profession. Do you believe that? The journey to become a doctor is not easy, along the way we all might have difficulties. But never let that difficulties stop your journey. Take all of the difficulties and transform them into challenges. And take that challenges as motivations to make you a stronger and a better person. Do you believe that positive mind set will deliver positive attitude? So learn, learn and learn. Have faith in Him.

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I can guarantee you, if you are asked to perform any physical examinations, you will not be able to do it. In UNPAD, the way we learn to perform physical examination is organ-based. Here in UKM, they learn by system-based. What I really mean is that they have astandardized-organized-step on how to perform a specific physical examination. I suggest you guys to buy a small book at Kak Ros which is called “Aids To Clinical Examination by UNIMAS” that cost you RM1.00. This is a simplified step on how to do physical examination. The details of it you’ll need to read Tally.

You’ll have trouble to use certain terminologies that are not used in UKM. For example, Shuffner, USG, Leopord Manuever, etc…and certain steps in physical examination that is not being practiced in UKM, eg; in UKM, you do not need to put another hand below the abdomen to palpate the liver, and there is no such thing percussion of the heart. Etc etc…

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You cannot get away from people talking and labeling you. It might seem like they are discriminating you as TWPs.

You might feel inferior to them. You might feel that you do not deserve to be their friends. I sometimes think they are saying “I’m a 4.00 flat student, and you?” ---

I was once, scolded a UKM student in front of my group members because he discriminating the UKM and the non-UKM students in front of our supervisor. The room went silent for 45 minutes and nobody dares to talk to me. Well, you might come to one point until you cannot handle your anger anymore and accidentally let it burst out loud in the public. (Probably because I’m a hot tempered person) *sigh*

I hope that this does not happen to you.

I sometimes speculated that certain lecturers are under estimating the TWPs. The lecturersmight have doubt about your English/your knowledge/your capabilty just because you studied in Indonesia. I want you to prove that you are not what they think!

Prof Z once said; “when you are in the clinical years, everybody starts at the ‘square one’”. We’ll start all over again no matter how excellent you are previously because you are entering entirely a new different world.

We are all the same! Never let others turn you down!

We are all brilliant students. So let’s do brilliant things.

Good luck to all of us!

TWPs is a minor community that will dominate the world!

Best wishes,

, TWP06

p/s: these are just my personal opinion and experience. Other seniors might have different point of view.

Im very dissapointed after what we have done and try to make the faculty to unite. this is so unprofesional. i still remember how we made preparation on welcoming them, even i was very happy to get a new collegue with experience in other people country, but it returned with disapointment.

Melayu melayu melayu.

Moga kita dapat pengajaran dari segalanya.

haha

2011-04-25T16:29:00.000+08:00

Demi masa

2011-04-16T23:07:00.003+08:00

والعصر

Hi.. Short post hehe a lot to tell actually but i need a good timeto make a new post.
These r actually my collection of watches.. Some are given by frens some from my parents and some i got it from the market.

From the top is Fossil which is given from one of my precious fren.. But the relationshp didnt last long however the watch did remind me of how kind and supportive she was when we were fren. Thank you. It has a japan movement and leather strip.
The second one is a Guest Collection watch. It is a gift during my 21st birthday from ibu. With chrono and swiss movement. it also has a bracelet strip.

The third one is quite special to me as it is a very old watch. I just bought it from a guy selling antique things. Peboda in russion means victory. It also a russion movement which happens around 1950s. Peboda usually worn by russion army. Hopefully didnt get nitemare of them.it has a manual engine which have to wind it to keep it moving.just like old days.

The fourth one is a Patek Phillipe replica. It has an automatic movement from japan. I got it from lelong.com for less then Rm100. and it still functioning well. Hopefully to an original one before i get to be specialist :)
The second last is a BUM watch given from a special fren. It has arabic dial, day and date. It uses battery to operate. I havent chge d battery yet. Its also has a chinese day. Hopefully i can get to speak n write in chinese in future haha
The last one is a swatch irony. Its actually to replace my fav swatch that was missing. However lately it doesnt seems to keep on time. I dont know why. Maybe the battery need to be replced.

Im looking forward for more watches fr my collection. Any watch will do. As a gift will b better hahahaha.
Err my next watch will be tissot touch. Fall in love with it since form 5. But dont have enough money to buy. Doa cepat2 la bley dpt kan tissot touch ameeen. Cepat la houseman haha

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I miss You

2011-03-23T19:08:00.001+08:00

Negeri Kedah pada awal abad 20 mula terkenal sebagai tempat perkembangan Agama Islam yang subur selepas pudarnya pengaruh Hindu-Buddha. Hal ini amat ketara sekali terutama pada masa pemerintahan Sultan Ab. Hamid Halim Syah di mana munculnya beberapa orang tokoh ulama seperti Hj. Wan Sulaiman yang telah mendirikan Madrasah Hamidiah pada tahun 1920.

Madrasah yang dinamakan mengambil sempena nama Sultan Abd. Hamid Halim Syah itu telah berkembang pesat sebagai pusat pembelajaran Agama Islam dan Bahasa Arab di kawasan Utara Semenanjung dan telah berjaya melahirkan ramai guru agama yang amat diperlukan pada waktu itu.

Perkembangan pesat ini memerlukan sebuah sekolah lain bagi menampung pertambahan bilangan pelajar di samping memberi pelajaran di peringkat yang lebih tinggi lagi daripada setakat darjah lima yang diajar di Madrasah Hamidiah. Di atas daya usaha YM Tengku Mahmud Ibni Almarhum Sultan Ahmad Tajuddin yang menjadi Pemangku Raja pada masa itu, sebuah sekolah baru yang lebih sempurna dan lengkap telah didirikan pada tahun 1936.

Sekolah yang terletak di Simpang Kuala, Alor Setar ini kemudiannya dikenali sebagai Al-Maahadil Mahmud atau Maktab Mahmud mengambil sempena nama Pemangku Raja YM Tengku Mahmud.

Maktab ini ditadbirkan oleh satu Jawatankuasa Penasihat yang dilantik dengan perkenan Sultan Kedah. Menteri Besar biasanya menjadi Pengerusi Jawatankuasa Penasihat itu dan Guru Besar Maktab sebagai Setiausaha. Jawatankuasa dilantik daripada golongan ulama dan Sheikul Islam dan kuasa pentadbirannya terletak di bawah kuasa pejabat Hal Ehwal Agama Islam Kedah.

Maktab Mahmud sebagai sebuah sekolah Agama yang ulung itu sudah pasti memerlukan sumber kewangan yang kukuh bagi mengurusnya. Pada peringkat awal penubuhannya, maktab ini dibiayai oleh Jabatan Zakat Negeri Kedah. Selain zakat, maktab juga mempunyai tanahnya sendiri yang didermakan kepadanya oleh beberapa orang dermawan tempatan yang berjumlah kira-kira 83 ekar tanah yang diwakafkan pada maktab. Melalui sumber-sumber inilah juga pihak maktab dapat menambahkan sumber kewangannya bagi membiayai pelajar-pelajar yang dihantar melanjutkan pelajaran ke Timur Tengah.

Kemasukan ke maktab ini juga agak berlainan dengan sekolah-sekolah lain. Pelajar-pelajar yang ingin memasuki Maktab Mahmud perlu mengisi satu borang khas yang dikeluarkan oleh pihak Maktab. Syarat utama untuk memohon memasuki maktab ini, pelajar-pelajar mestilah tidak kurang daripada 13½ tahun umurnya dan mestilah lulus darjah 5 atau 6 Sekolah Kebangsaan atau Jenis Kebangsaan dan boleh membaca Al-Quran. Walaupun mencukupi syarat-syarat tersebut calon-calon yang memohon memasuki maktab ini juga akan ditemuduga oleh Jawatankuasa Pemilihan bagi menentukan seseorang calon itu berjaya atau gagal untuk memasuki maktab ini.

Maktab ini juga agak berlainan dengan sekolah-sekolah lain dalam beberapa hal. Waktu belajarnya dari jam 8.00 pagi hingga 12.45 tengahari. Pelajar-pelajar belajar dalam 6 hari seminggu dengan hari Jumaat sahaja mereka cuti. Pada peringkat awal maktab ini, pelajar diajar dalam Bahasa Pengantar Arab sahaja dan mata pelajarannya juga tentang Agama Islam dan Bahasa Arab. Hal ini bersesuaian dengan matlamat maktab ini yang mahu menyumbangkan ilmu pengetahuan Islam pada peringkat yang lebih tinggi lagi.

Walau bagaimana pun sejak tahun 1962 maktab telah berubah berikutan perubahan dasar pelajaran negeri dan maktab mula memperkenalkan mata pelajaran akademik yang diajar menerusi Pengantar Bahasa Melayu yang membolehkan pelajar-pelajar menduduki Sijil Rendah Pelajaran (SRP), sekarang Penilaian Menengah Rendah (PMR) dan Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM). Ini memberi peluang pada pelajar-pelajar lepasan Maktab Mahmud untuk berkhidmat dalam pentadbiran awam.

Selain itu, Maktab Mahmud juga dari semenjak ianya dibuka sehingga tahun 1967 telah mewajibkan semua pelajar tahun akhir menduduki satu peperiksaan khas yang dikenali sebagai Sijil Maktab Mahmud. Sijil ini diakui oleh Kerajaan Negeri Kedah, Universiti Azhar, Mesir dan beberapa buah Universiti lagi di Timur Tengah. Satu keistimewaan bagi mereka yang memiliki Sijil Maktab Mahmud ini ialah mereka dibenarkan masuk terus ke Universiti di Timur Tengah tanpa menduduki kelas persediaan terutama pada mereka yang mengambil bidang Perundangan Islam, Bahasa Arab dan Kesusasteraan Arab. Ini membuktikan bahawa tahap Pengajian Islam dan Bahasa Arab lepasan Maktab Mahmud begitu baik dan diakui di peringkat antarabangsa.

Sejak ditubuhkan Maktab Mahmud telah banyak berubah sesuai dengan perkembangan dasar pelajaran di mana pelajar-pelajarnya belajar 2 bidang iaitu bidang agama dalam Pengantar Arab dan bidang akademik dalam Pengantar Melayu. Ini membolehkan pelajar-pelajar itu menduduki Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) dan Sijil Tinggi Persekolahan Malaysia (STPM) di samping sijil-sijil dalam bidang agama.

Daripada suatu segi ini amat menguntungkan kerana pelajar-pelajar boleh menguasai dua bidang sekaligus, agama dan akademik. Tetapi pelajar-pelajar juga terpaksa menumpukan sepenuh perhatian dan beban kerja yang lebih daripada sekolah biasa.

Walau bagaimana pun, memang tidak dapat dinafikan bahawa Maktab Mahmud telah berjaya melahirkan ramai tokoh yang berjiwa Islam terutama guru-guru agama dan pegawai-pegawai yang berkhidmat di Majlis Agama Islam serta badan-badan lain. Di antara mereka yang terkenal yang pernah mendapat didikan di Maktab Mahmud ini ialah Dr. Abd. Halim Ismail, Allahyarham Sheikh Mohsein Hj. Salleh dan Ustaz Mohd. Fadhil Noor iaitu pelajar pertama maktab ini yang mendapat pangkat pertama Sijil Kismul Ali dan lain-lain. Dan kini Maktab Mahmud masih teguh berdiri sebagai rumah ilmu yang telah banyak jasanya itu.

ARKIB NEGARA MALAYSIA

Satu ayat

2011-03-20T01:16:00.001+08:00

Ayat 111the one,
a dua i told u before..

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Jalanan terang

2011-02-14T10:45:00.001+08:00

Assalam..

Alhamdulillah da selamat sume exam.. Dalam beberapa hari exam ni beberapa insiden da jadik.. Yang agak lyn laa hehe

Exam kali ni aku takde komen.. Serius ak berharap agar kali ni xde bende yang tak elok jadi..harap lulus semua.. Ya Allah tolonglah..

Dalam kesibukan peperiksaan dapat pulak tahu yg teman ku kena dengue.. Risau nya aku bukan kepalang..

Bila disebut akan perihal manusia.. Rasa kasih itu xdpt dipisahkan.. Biar pon seorang doktor yg perlu menjaga sifat2 brofesional dgn patient nya..

Btol kata prof maniam " avoid treating ur family members or even good friends as u will be bias, will overtreated or undertreated them" like seriusly true!

Btw alhamdulillah everything went well lepas dia dpt kuar dr hosp.. I got nobody to talk to.. As i always be.. Keeping to myself.. Yes2 im learning to express more.. Hopefully blogin cud help me.

As exam finish ive to settle up few things on the theatre. Ive been selectd to be the director of one of this heater.. Preparing for a match at the end of february.. Its a match between all colleges in ukm.. Yeah ive been making myself busy with all the training stuff though i dont really knw how to conduct a theatre production.. I guess this is a good experience and opportunity to learn..

Then there was a weding of ibrahims sis.. At dewan perdana felda.. It was awesome as all the vips were there.. The bride was beutifull. The hall was big enough to accomodate about 900 people.. Fewhh.. And it was an awesome wedding.. With kopratasa performing ang singing few songs of my fav.. Really nice..wishing my wedding will be as nice as this one hihi gataii

So my parent hav been urging me asking me to be at home after exam which i cudnt.. I have to settle up things of my partner, go to wedding, theatre, lectures, hopefully they understand.. It has been a while since the last time i went back penang..

Will be back by this evening mayb after lectures.. Take care evryone..

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The reason

2011-02-01T15:23:00.001+08:00

Im having my final exam in less then 10 days.. Hopefully dear friends can pray fr the best of me.. Ill do my best.. I want to get into final year n grads badly..

7feb
Ent - opthtal- anaes

8feb
Psikiatri

9feb
Osce ent- opthtal - anaes

11feb
Psikiatri osce

Moga semua selamat..terima kasih

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3gs 2011

2011-01-09T07:38:00.002+08:00

TT

2010-12-03T18:31:00.000+08:00

Shooting stars *

2010-12-01T01:10:00.004+08:00

Comments

38 marks - colorectal surgeon.. huyoh

37 marks - a lot listed there, quite surprised as i just finished my Anes posting.. emergency med is there, orthopeadic and neurosurgery are also there.. dermatology?? pfft..

cardiology falls to 35?? where the heck cardio thoracic surgeon? daymn..

its just a survey.. what ever.. i think this survey is to put on believe on the medical student, to sparks an idea or a goal to the students so that they will have their pathway or journey ahead after finishing med school..

nobody knows how the futures like, who are we going to be in future, but we can plan and try, and ask from God, so that our futures will be beautiful, and we become who we want to be..

may God accepts our prayers.. ameen

dont be afraid to have a dream/goal.. think big!

Good night.. a start of psychiatric posting :)

Guitar Hero Zero

2010-11-28T15:31:00.001+08:00

sket lagi gua ganti AG jadi guitarist hujan. haha

Pandang depan!

2010-11-27T20:00:00.000+08:00

ehsan - fadhlibrapentah.blogspot.com

Death

2010-11-16T16:28:00.000+08:00

Do you often get confused in your daily life? when you don’t understand (which is not the same with confuse) what you see and you try to figure it out why?

My prof said that if you get confused in studies then it means that you are thinkng.. at certain point i agree with him.. but usually student that get so confuse, they just stop to think and go to sleep. heh

I try to figure out why on endo tracheal tube, we have to push the laryngoscope anteriorly without bending the hand(so that we didnt brake the patients teeth) to find the tube that lead to the tracheal.. simple answer right? i dont know. kidding actually i know. and after the arytenoid is found, the endo tracheal tube is directly inserted into the lumen.

i fail the first time i tried (to insert the endotracheal tube). but after i found the arytenoid, i found that it is easier then the first time i tried. the landmark is arytenoid.

I saw a dead body this evening. the body (upper part of the abdomen) has been butchered out by the doctor in Y shape. why Y shape? the Y shape started from two points at the shoulder and intercept at the xiphisternum, it then cutted down towards the umbilicus. Y because it will get easier to closed and sutured the incision back later. the head is also opened. cool rite hehe

then all the internal organ is taken out and measured. being weighed on weighing machine that we usually saw at the morning market, where people rushing to get a fresh meat or chicken for the hari raya rendang. after it has been measured, it is sliced into small portion, just like making the spagetti sauces. in about 1cm each. too small for the sauces i guest.

some of the sample is taken into the lab for investigation. as post motem is an art to get to know the causes of death of human being (partly). and yups the man died of having myocardial infarction where we can see some parts of his (sliced) heart was having this demarcated outline of dead and viable cells.

that is some part of medical student life’s. a very small portion of it. there a lot more stories, experiences, that will keep us to love, and appreciate life’s more.

and to be the one that appreciate the creation of God the most. Subhanallah.

Alhamdulillah it really made me thinking, a lot. a lot.

I saw a dead body this evening. lying naked on the steel bed. without having any blankets. its just a blue plastics covering the genitals part. an Indian. the peripherals were pale. it has been sutured back. the organ is being inserted back into the abdomen.

and being left out on the steel bed. i looked at him(it?). and think.

Allah Ι berfirman:

Dan bagi tiap-tiap umat ada ajal (yang telah ditetapkan); maka apabila datang ajalnya, tidak dapat mereka dikemudiankan walau sesaatpun, dan tidak dapat pula mereka didahulukan. (al-A’raf : 34)

Kamilah yang menentukan (dan menetapkan masa) kematian (tiap-tiap seorang) di antara kamu, dan Kami tidak sekali-kali dapat dikalahkan atau dilemahkan; (Surah al-Waqi’ah : Ayat 60)

it is amazing, as we can still living. walking, moving our limbs, kissing, touching. sensing things around us. and in just a blink, when we dead, we cant move. stop. like a THING. an OBJECT. non living object.

understand what m i trying to say? its hard to explain. it is beyond of our imagination.

people that talk, walk, fuck, yelling at people, cutting papers, suddenly stop. just stop. fucking STOP man.

and these are things that cant be understand by medicine, or sciences (fully).

the things that is called body and soul. where we can only search the answers only through the religion.

where we learn about God.

where we learn that He knows everything.

He created everything.

and He control everything.

life and death.

Subhanallah.. selamat hari raya aidil adha.

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2010-11-14T16:44:00.001+08:00

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Godfather

2010-11-14T16:28:00.002+08:00

Buzz buzz buzz

2010-11-13T22:14:00.001+08:00

comel kan?

haish cepat la dapat babyyyyy hahahaha

Agak agak ar weh

2010-11-13T00:57:00.005+08:00

Tetibe dapat msg dari sorang mamat nih..

Kalau tak geng2 gay ni sape lagi kan..

Okay I am a muslim and forbidden of having this kind of relationship..

dear readers might have different opinion or points that saying this as a healthy lifestyle, or their rights to choose or whatever.. i personally rejected this kind of relationship.. as it is Haram (forbidden) in my religion Islam..

i dont know whether other religion do support this kind of activities or not.. but i dont think any religion will do as this kind of activities really cause a lot of problems in our human societies..

people might think that if i didnt approved him as friend, i am a person that have bias on certain people, not open minded, discriminate people, that guy just want to be friends and whats the matter being a gay friend? he just said you are cute, doesnt mean he want to have sex with you.. its not having a relationship or what not right?

hmmm yeah but its me thinking that if me being their friend, then its sort of like giving them green light to do these kind of activities, like its okay for me to see them being gay.. like letting them playing with God's law for the sake of their friendship.. sorry i cant.

pada yang laki dok lengang lengok cam pompuan jadi pondan tu pon.. pikir2 la balik.. kena laknat beb.. jgn cabar Tuhan.. bahayee..

P/s - cuwak bodoh, actually da ada 2,3 camni before.. this is the latest.. what happened to our peoples these day huh! nak kena cepat2 kawen kot hehe

Tebabomm

2010-11-08T22:47:00.004+08:00

owh i went back to penang for 3 days last week during the deepavali public holidays, some of my mates get holidays started from wednesday until monday thefollowing week. but im in ophtal posting where we have very limited time to go to clinics and have teaching session so i still have to follow the clinics to fill up my log book untill thursday... and i dont have holidays on monday. no prob for that.so on thursday evening i went back to penang.. wah it was quite a long journey. ayah cudnt fetch me at the airport... so i have to take bus to go to the jetty, thanks to Rapid penang, from there i took a ferry to get to the butterworth (the mainland) so ayah waited me there and we went home together.

i didnt actually enjoy my holidays so much because i have to finish up my case write up, an assignment given by my doctor aka lecturer.. i really do not have chemistry on these case write up as i dont really like preparing it haha so most of the time ill be in front of laptop figuring out my case.. not so much on televisyen

or chating with ayah or ibu, hopefully they understand..
on saturday morning, ibu gave me some coupons for the canteen

day of my primary school. Sekolah Kebangsaan Permatang Bertam. i went there with shahnaz my youngest sister. it has been what? 10 years since i left the school.. i missed my primary school days as bad as i missed Maktab Mahmud. SKPB was just a kampung school, but i can say that most of us from that school get really good education.I still remember going to school with my blue shirt and black shoes and ties ( as i was a prefect back then) waiting for Pakcik van, Makcik Ina to go to school.. then waiting at the back of my school fences to stop those student that were late to school.. i cant imagine how did i look like that time haha mesti comel gile haha

my parent never let me riding bicycle to go to school. so they were

asking people to send and take me back home. at times i were really get irritated because all of my friend can go to school with bicycle while i cant. its not fair. hehe but actually i should be really thankful to my parents for treating me well. anak kesayangan? tak kot.. tak tak..

so i went to the canteen day.. surprisingly.. most of the teachers

still remembering me! i almost drop my tears away (yeay wateve) i say hi and chat a bit with them because they were busy with the students on selling things during the event.. i met cikgu rohani, ust. saadiah, cikgu shuhairi (really happy to see me) cikgu zarina, teacher zaini, pak cik saidon ( orang jaga koperasi pon kenal ) .. just bring back my old memories on them.. how naughty i was at school those days..

i walked around the school compound, a lot of changes has been made, i went back to my old classroom.. where i still remember, i have to stand up on the chair because i havent finish my english assignment.. love mrs Tan so much :(
At the new built open hall.. dulu it was just a tarred area where we will have our perhimpunan, and every weeks i will be rotating to do the announcement and asked student to make lines according their classes and sing lagu negaraku, lagu pulau pinang and lagu sekolah as i was one of the pengawas that time i was holding penolong ketua murid post huhu

On the way to rumah hantu.. why i havent have this during my time? i dont know.. bringing shahnaz to rumah hantu.. hehe really nice..btw that is my class during standard 6..trust me i have been on that bumbung jalan2 on the roof climbing down from that fences.. have to walk on the nail on that roof because it is the only place that attach to metal.. if not.. kedebamm la jawabnyaa and sometimes i throw peoples pencils on the roof and take it back again.. gile buas.. tapi happy kot that time haha skarang cam kotor ada botol2 takde org buangkan..
this is at he back of the school where we learn about kemahiran hidup.. i still remember ive been punished to wear like a ninja turtle (with an apron) and cabut rumput at the square area there by Cikgu Aziz.. siot betol haha because i was chatting with my friend i think.. haha

An exhibition by the dentist.. not so many student were there, but it was a nice exhibition, should be doing some games to attract more student to go there..
so on sunday i went back by firefly from penang airport to subang airport for an hour journey, this is my first time going back by firefly.. it is a small plane with only one entrance and exit door into the airplane.. quite nice, get served with cookies and drinks too.. but a bit expensive then airasia, the ticket can be as low as airasia if early booking is made..

some of the helis and small airplane that i wish to have in futures.. insyAllah.. hopefully will come true..

okay have to prepare for tomorrow clinics.. take care everyone.. have a good day :)

salam

Welcome to MacJournal!

2010-11-01T00:49:00.000+08:00

Salam..

im writing from MacJournal cracked apps just trying to test the software.

Good luck for those who will have exams next week.. all the best to you guys..

Take care of your health and good luck :)

Make up your mind.

2010-10-29T19:09:00.003+08:00

Sense

2010-10-24T12:36:00.000+08:00

When you have a sense of your own identity and a vision of where you want to go in your life, you then have the basis for reaching out to the world and going after your dreams for a better life.

Betul la kot kan hehe

The Patient History

2010-10-23T00:53:00.003+08:00

Salam..

i just realized that we are currently in october 2010. time flew very fast. like lightning.

and light travel faster then sound. thats why we can see lightning first and then heard the sound seconds later.. duhh

but currently we have bluetooth 3.0 which make the files transfer much faster the before.

my macbook pro currently using 4gig for the RAM.. it can be upgraded until 8gig which is the maximum number of the slot can handle... then it will be like real fast.. like really fast.

and it will be another 2 months to get into year 2011.

5 years since i left my secondary school.

i still miss my school. until now.

im not one of the top student there. i scored my PMR but didn't get good result on SPM and got maqbul for SMRA (sijil menengah rendah agama - a test for all the Al-Azhar subjects). we learn a lot. 21 subjects including SPM subjects and Al-Azhar subjects which includes Feqh, Tafseer, Hadith and all other arabic subjects. each of the class will be about half an hour each. every year the successful student will come from the student that staying at home. i don't know why. maybe their involvement with non academic things were less then us who is staying in the hostels. owh my school is semi-boarding school where some of us can stay outside. and im staying in the hostels mixing with a lot of other people which come mostly outside of the Kedah area.

and that is the academic side of the story. ada je lagi.. but..

the non academic side of story is much more interesting.

nanti lah rajin sket aku cite.. sebak dowh (over sgt~ haha)

chow

A blue while

2010-10-17T02:45:00.004+08:00

It has been a while since the last post (the one i wrote it myself). Currently im in ENT posting. ENT stands for ear nose and throat. it is an intersting posting i must say and a lot to cover it up on, especially on anatomy that has been left and learnt for quite sometime with PBL approach.

this semester ill be undergoing 4 postings, the first three is called Triad = ENT, Ophtal (about the eyes) and anestesiology (google it urself hehe) which need to be completed for 8 weeks.. and after that psychiatrc posting for another 8 weeks..

then my fourth year will be completed, but i need to reseat my paeds posting after the 2nd semester exam which means ill lost half of my holidays. but its okay maybe its meant to be like this.. to fall and walk up again and again. may be this is the way He wanted me to learn the life. i accept whatever it is. Alhamdulillah.

its already 3am.. and i cudnt doze of yet.. reflecting again and again and again. from the small circle of thoughts untill a bigger one of it.

in life as muslim, we have to built the internal strength of our own life alone. people may assist u on the process of the building it but u urself have to built it ur self. Iman. simple 4 alphabetical sentence. believe me it is not easy to built and have a great iman in yourself.

it doesnt come with only dua` but also your daily activities. in this medical field i realise that everyday, every single day in my course it is to prepare us a doctor that is safe and can be practise safely outside (after studying). starts from rounds, critical thinking on differential diagnosis, how on managing patient internally and externally, talking and clerking the patient, a human being, being professional, look smart, great on managing time and etc.. they wanted the daily activity of us during the medical student to be an activity of our future life. so that we didnt fumble in the future and can manage our patient perfectly. and be our routine as this profession is a lifetime commitment.

same with Iman, we have to culture it deep inside of our heart every single day of our life starts from now on and forever to prepare us the real world, and the afterlife. so having compulsary daily activities to strengthen it is a must. Reading the quran, specific surah on morning or evening, or finishing few pages daily, Mathurat, or any dua`, pray dhuha tahajjud or whatever sunat prayer every single day of our life is crucial to built this so called 'inner beauty'. it is not enough by only having daily 5 times of solah a day and yassin on friday night. it is not enough. i believe.

and i must say im indeed in a deep grave on my performance lately. im not the one i used to be last time. and so the inner part is gradually deteriorating its performance or in chronic condition. (haha) or what ever it is, i must say im not really satisfy with my current performance. i have to change and i need prayer to change. Ya Rabb maafkan aku. Alhamdulillah im still grateful in whatever condition He gave, and im not forgetting Him in any of my difficult or joyous time. hopefully this will last forever. as if i have nobody to be loved by, i know He will loves me, always.

Warkah seorang guru

2010-09-21T00:23:00.001+08:00

Salam Syawal,

Khusus buat:

· Anak-anak
yang bergelar pelajar perubatan ( di mana jua anda berada)

· Ibu dan ayah
kepada anak-anak di atas

Sedikit
pesanan ini dinukilkan oleh seorang yang pernah menjadi pelajar perubatan (
1986-1991), sudah bergelar doktor selama lebih 19 tahun, menjadi pakar O&G
dan pendidik kepada ribuan pelajar perubatan selama 13 tahun. Namun belum
berpeluang menjadi ibu kepada seorang pelajar perubatan lagi setakat ini.

Anak-anakku,

Kalian
sebenarnya bertuah dipilih Allah SWT mempelajari satu bidang yang amat besar
faedah dan manfaatnya buat manusia dan dunia. Apapun yang mendorong kalian
membuat keputusan menjadikan bidang ini pilihan, kalian sudah sampai di sini!
Betapa ramai rakan kalian yang mengidamkan kerusi yang kalian duduki sekarang
ini.

Harapnya,
dorongan itu bukanlah semata-mata mahu mencuba nasib, memenuhi hajat dan hasrat
kedua ibu bapa dan keluarga yang mahu seorang bergelar `Doktor’ dalam salasilah
keturunan, ataupun ingin sentiasa bersama dgn rakan karib lain yang kebetulan
juga mendapat tawaran yang sama!

Melihat
betapa berlumba-lumba kalian merebut tempat di sekolah perubatan, rasanya
seperti ada kempen ` Satu Keluarga Seorang Doktor’ lagaknya.

Jangan
kalian terkejut nanti – dengan realiti pengorbanan yang mesti kalian lalui.

Perubatan
adalah satu lapangan yang perlukan komitmen pembelajaran sepanjang hayat.
Kalian sendiri yang perlu mencetus keghairahan mahu menuntut ilmu, bukannya
hanya berharap dan bergantung sepenuhnya kepada tenaga pendidik yang menunjuk
ajar. Kalian akan mulai mendengar perkataan ` self-directed learning- SDL’,
student-centred education, life-long learning, community-based learning,
inter-professional learning dll.

Pengajar
kalian bukan hanya professor dan pensyarah perubatan, malahan yang bergelar
pesakit itulah yang paling banyak mengajar dan memberi tunjuk ajar. Para
jururawat adalah mentor yang paling berpengalaman dan perlu diberi
penghormatan.

Yang
paling utama, akhlak
kalian –
menjadi pembeza utama antara pengamal perubatan yang mulia dan doktor
yang angkuh. Bertuahlah bagi kalian yang sememangnya sudah berbekal
dgn didikan sempurna, penuh budi bahasa, tata tertib dan sopan santun yang
tinggi semenjak dari rumah lagi. Malanglah kalian yang serba kekurangan dalam
aspek ini, sekalipun kalian begitu cerdas mengumpul deretan `A+’ dalam
transkrip keputusan peperiksaan saban semester.

Untuk
para ibu dan ayah kepada anak-anak yang bergelar pelajar perubatan,

Mohon
dipastikan kalian sudah menyediakan anak-anak kalian dengan baik dan sempurna –
terutamanya dalam aspek rohaniah dan akhlaqiah mereka. Mereka akan menjadi
doktor perubatan – bukan calang-calang profesyen! Pastikan mereka menjadi
pengamal perubatan yang tawadhuk dan sentiasa berhubung erat dengn Rabb..
Selitkan doa yang tidak pernah kunjung padam setiap masa dan ketika, moga Allah
SWT memberi bimbinganNya buat anak-anak ini.

Sekiranya
kalianlah menjadi SEBAB utama anak-anak berada di sekolah perubatan hari ini,
sedangkan itu bukan keinginan dan minat mereka sendiri, bersedialah untuk
meminta maaf kepada mereka – terutamanya jika mereka akan berhadapan dgn
kesukaran dan keperitan memenuhi hajat dan cita-cita kalian itu. Sokong dan
dokonglah mereka sehingga ke akhir nanti – kerana cubaan dan dugaan yang perlu
anak-anak ini hadapi bukanlah setakat semasa dalam latihan sahaja, malahan yang
lebih mencabar adalah ketika terpikul di bahu mereka tanggungjawab dan amanah
yang berat apabila bergelar doktor nanti!

InsyaAllah,
kalian akan sentiasa dilindungi Allah SWT dari segala bencana selagi mana
penggantungan hanyalah kepada Allah semata-mata.

Dr.Har

Segala puji bagi Allah yang mencipta hati dan perasaan manusia.

2010-08-29T02:24:00.001+08:00

I wrote this for you.Yes you are.Kuala Lumpur Sentral--5 years ago,you were a decent stranger on the sidewalks,who struck me with a pretty smile on your face.You are most polite.

28082005-28082010.
I know our history is a full-loaded washing machine that went on spinning and spinning.Kejap-kejap gaduh.Lepas tu berdamai balik,gaduh balik.Allahu Rabb,we have been friends since last five years and still,i cant believe its been five years already.Yang pernah sama-sama struggle for spm back when everyone was still seventeen.Yang pernah sama-sama layan X-fresh fm setiap kali balik sekolah sebab nak dengar lagu Saiful.Yang akan buat wake up call at 4-5 am untuk tujuan-tujuan tertentu (tak perlu dinyatakan disini).Yang bila tiba ramadhan akan call "Nani bangkit soq" (first time kot dengar orang sebut 'bangkit' instead of bangun dan masa tu tobat la tak faham soq tu apa.Tapi jaga ego kann..bertuah la nak tanya 'soq' tu apa).Yang akan remind me untuk baca ma'thurat setiap pagi dan petang.Yang itu yang ini..banyak lah yang.

You stranger,
i know you know i don't easily make friends.I stay in box.I don't talk to people in random,i smile instead.I'm awkward when i first met someone.I do a lot of listening than talking.I hide feelings.I am not a sweet friendly girl on the first day we met.I come easy and handy with time and space.I am not the girl next door you see daily.

You stranger,
i need you to do the first move,the first step or i will just stand still and stare.That's how indeed everything started.You did the first move.You make me dance.You broke those walls.You make me easy.You,turned me into a ~~sweet~~ friendly girl on the first day we met.When we laugh together wonderful bonds of caring are forged.

You stranger,
i'd say,as i'd say,that in your beautiful round hazel eyes i had been staring into at times,there were hopes.There were affection.There where cherished moments.There were cares and there were dares.And soon before i realized it,i started to tell myself those great sacred secret words.

You stranger,
a stranger like you make me dance all night.With time distance and space,now that i miss you stranger.I will ALWAYS remember you.Because you changed me and you changed my life too.The moment you passionately told me about your dreams was the moment i dare to have a dream too.The moment you told be how passionate you to become a cardiologist was the moment i burst into tears and i challenged myself to become a successful lawyer.I secretly admire the dreams you have for the future.You are very determined young man,always craze for spirited-debate,as far as im concerned.

You stranger,
i knew i wouldn't forget you and so i went and let you blow my mind.Your sweet moon beam the smell of you in every single dream i dream i knew when we collided you're the one i have decided who's one of my kind.

But stranger,
sometimes i went silent.I knew you knew i'll always do that.And i knew that you'll always hate it whenever i did that.I think ive hurt someone unintentionally.Yes that is you.I'm sorry,stranger.
For disappointing you,for not doing my best,for not being all that i can be.I'm sorry for failing you.But most of all,i'm just sorry i failed myself.Im sorry if i hurt you in anyway.

And for you are no longer a stranger to me,
for no reason,i would like to thank you,who affects me in vary ways.You've taught me to widen the way i perceive something.Though i know there's no price to pay when you give and what you take,that's why it's easy to thank you.Thank you for you are so warm and kind,thank you for giving me a peace of mind.I love the feel of your caring touch,and your tender caress.Thank you so much.If only there are better words to express what i feel now,but thank you so much.

You,
i wonder if this is paying the price.Or it's part of what has been in store.I raise this glass of tears
for not knowing what i'm waiting for.Good things,they never last,well,at least.

You,
a little thank you says so much,and adds that special personal touch.It also lightens up ones day,in countless many little ways.For your very sincere special thought,and the gratitude that you have brought-this little verse is to let you see,i appreciated your thoughtfulness to me.Memories' essences.Lighting me up like what a lighter does to a candle.For that,happy friendship anniversary.And i miss you morphine.

And you will forever be in my prayers;
Allahumma inna nas aluka imanan kamila.

The Chosen One - Maher Zain

2010-08-06T12:24:00.000+08:00

Edifier

2010-07-31T16:51:00.005+08:00

Salam..

Apa khabar semua? Alhamdulillah sudah di minggu keempat posting Paediatric skarang ni.. posting kali ni sebenar nya agak sibuk.. banyak yang perlu di baca dan revise kembali sebab paeds ni macam medicine juga lah.. cuma nya budak2 punya sakit tak same dengan orang tua kan.. so have to learn new approach to the some of the diseases..

So hows my peads posting?? Alhamdulillah aku sangat suka posting ni.. masih lagi semangat ke ward dan berjumpa kanak2 dan adik2 yang kurang bernasib baik.. buku log aku masih belum berisi, minggu ke 6 dah kena hantar case write up.. masa terlalu pantas berlalu.. agak pelik bila melihat status rakan2 yang mana ingin kan hujung minggu datang dengan cepat walhal aku rasa tidak cukup masa untuk melaksanakan semua tugasan.. haish ke aku yang malas sangat?? haha

So kanak2? apa yang penting sangat mereka ini? sbelum mula merepek nak ingatkan diri sendiri yang sesungguhnya Islam itu satu cara hidup bukan sekadar nama dalam i.c .. seriusly aku seorang yang amat menyukai kanak2.. dari mengasuh, mendidik, bermain, mengurus kehidupan mereka.. amat amat amat suka... setiap kanak2 itu aku dapat lihat cahaya di wajah mereka.. cahaya yang aku rasa jika dijaga dengan baik akan terus bercahaya dengan lebih terang dan terus menyinari kehidupan ini. walaupun kadang2 budak tu takde la suka kat aku, itu normal, namun jika dicuba dan terus mencuba.. boleh la dapat main dengan dorang hehe..

Bila kita menjalani kehidupan seharian, Rasul lah ikutan kita, dari segi akhlak dan tingkah laku. bukan trend atau populariti bagi sesuatu masa. dan sunnah itu tidak terhad pada amalan zikir serta solat namun sehingga ke dalam tandas sudah Rasul ajar cara untuk buang air besar ke kecik ke.. complete kan Islam? cuma kadang2 kita kurang sedar dan peka.. Begitu juga kasih sayang Rasul dengan kanak2..

Hadis rasul dengan kanak2

No. 5610 Narrated Abu Huraira: Rasullullah kissed Al-Hasan bin Ali while Al-Aqra' bin Habis At-Tamim was sitting beside him. Al-Aqra said, "I have ten children and I have never kissed anyone of them," Rasullullah cast a look at him and said, "Whoever is not merciful to others will not be treated mercifully." Sahih Bukhari.

Kanak2 ini adalah generasi yang akan menganti kan kita.. yang merupakan tunas baru dalam agama kita.. aku masih ingat, tika Tok dan Tok Wan mengajar aku solat, membaca quran, cerita sirah nabawi, belum pon bertadika ketika itu, dan bila masuk sekolah, Alhamdulillah segala akhlak serta ajaran Tok amat berguna.. dari kecil di ajar takutkan siksaan neraka.. bila besar sudah tahu kita mana baik mana tidak nya... Rindu dengan tok..

And those who say, "Our Lord, grant us from among our wive

s and offspring comfort to our eyes and make us an example for the righteous." (25 :74)

Bila di ward paediatric.. seriously aku lihat setiap hari adalah PERTARUNGAN. pertarungan dengan takdir yang Allah taala kurniakan.. dan ada yang lihat itu adalah satu dugaan, ada juga yang lihat satu bala.. itu terserah pada yang menerima namun setiap kita punyai kepercayaan yang berbeza. Pertarungan macam mana?

bila mana ibu dan ayah tidak pulang dan menjaga anak mereka yang mempunyai cerebral palsy (google lah nak tau penyakit ape)...

anak mereka yang tidak cukup bulan,

anak mereka yang mempunyai masalah mental yang mana kakak nya baru meninggal di usia 12 tahun..

anak yang mempunyai masalah pendengaran..

anak2 yang perlu menjalani pembedahan billiary atresia..

menjaga anak2 yang tidak henti nangis kerana sakit selepas pembedahan masih lagi belum baik...

bila satu keluarga yang tidak begitu berpendapatan terbang dari Serawak ke Hospital Kuala Lumpur membawa anak mereka yang mempunyai masalah respiratory... malah banyak lagi..

namun aku dapat lihat kesabaran mereka amat tinggi.. yang kadang2 aku rasa jika aku ditempat mereka pasti aku juga terduduk. Ya Allah sungguh hebat dugaan mereka.. dugaan aku ini apa ada?? Maafkan aku ya Allah..

Dan ada sebahagian dari kawan2 aku yang cakap ‘rasa bagaikan tidak mahu anak’ kerana melihat semua ini. Agak kecewa dengan ayat itu. Sesungguhnya zuriat itu rezeki yang tak ternilai.. tidak kira lah mereka itu normal atau tidak.. ya kita susah di dunia.. namun yakin lah semua dari Allah dan kesabaran dalam menghadapi hidup dengan anak begini akan mendapat balasan yang tak tercapai oleh akal untuk memikirnya di akhirat kelak... Dan kita perlulah menjaga islam kita dan terus berdoa agar di kurniakan anak2 menjadi penyejuk mata dan bertakwa.

Cukup.

Graduation day ib dan iyas next week.. seriuosly aku taktau nak bagi apa hadiah. bukan banyak sgt duet.. tapi nak bagi haha.. takpelah tengok lah macam mana.. but i need to attend several of my friends graduation too.. aiman ngan zaid pon minggu depan juga.. harith pon dah grad.. dari notthingham uni...wah.. cepat betul masa berlalu.. ya Allah berikanlah kejayaan kepada mereka dan berikanlah kekuatan untuk aku untuk berjaya seperti mereka...minggu ni sume da sibuk nak tempah graduation robe dekat bangi.. huhu dan mintak2 minggu depan tak sibuk sangat.. it will be one of a great moment in their life.. and im just happy for them, eventhough i just can see them from far and my time is not there yet..will be just happy ..

Fuh emo lak.. haha

So ramadhan is just around the corner.. need a lot of preparation.. speaker dah ada ahah and need to survey which mosque nak pergi solat terawikh.. :)

thats all for now

selamat beramal semua

(peringatan pada diri sendiri juga - kan ni blog aku apsal nak kena ada line ni? haha)

Clash of the two

2010-07-15T22:41:00.008+08:00

I just confuse. a bit. the meaning of being yourself. i asked once to one of my ustaz during classes 5 years ago. ustaz, what if i didnt do whatever i did (good deeds) at school when i get home? am i being a hypocryte? did god allowed me to be like that? i just didnt feel the islamic environment if i went home. so i am blaming the environment instead of me myself being good. the ustaz answered that it is okay behaving like that because i am still in the process of training, learning on being a good person. yet he said that environment is important to create a consistent practice of islam. biah solehah.
sometimes when you want to be good the first step is trying to be good. try is the keyword there. and the interpretation of trying in order to get better is in other words is to pretend being a better person. does pretending being someone is not good? why cant we just be our self?

pretending is a thing that not all of us like. sort of hypocrite. i think pretending should be included into stages on becoming good. why? im not sure. before being a good person they will go certain stages (based on my observation). and these stages are differ from the background of education they get.
i asked a friend of mine from uia. they learn about dakwah and even take a paper on it. im sure they learn the methods of dakwah. before applying those methods dont you think that it is important to know the state of a person that were going to call for dakwah?

not all are like us. some of us have a very good basics of islam. some of us just learn during primary or secondary school. some of us just listen what is taught by our parents. some of us know islam from friends, usrah, books, google etc. and this is different from their educational background. people that learn from their parents (grandparents) so called informal education plus a formal education (learning in religious institution) since childhood about islam may have different understanding of islam. so difference level of background may also contribute on the understanding of the religion. this differences may need different kind of approach definitely.

but i also observed that not all that have proper islamic education turns out to be a good person. mereka lebih arif tentang agama namun kadang2 tidak bersuara. lebih teruk pon ada.

tetapi ada juga yang tidak mendapat pendedahan agama seawal mungkin ini lebih baik orang nya. yang belajar dan mula bergetar tubuh nya dengan islam di sekolah menengah, universiti. mereka ini aku lihat lebih agresif. tidak begitu arif namun praktis nya cukup baik.

and because of that i believe on hidayah from Him.
Bila menyebut perkataan lebih baik (a good person) what actually the meaning of being good? i shall say that there are two views on being good. first, being good in the perspective of us as human and another one is on the perspective of God. and of cos lah perspective tuhan tu yang that we have to look for. and that is also depends on the person educational background too.

being good is also cultured inside of us since we were young. basically those who have a great akhlak may be a good person. and here where the 'inner parts' come.

whatever it is and what level of education we are in right now is not the matter anymore as we can learn it slowly and starts to practicing the way that promoted by our Rasul and the Quran. For those who just started, just be consistent and keep on learning. and those who are called dai'e have to understand the field of dakwah before proceed and called the good deeds by understanding our targets background of education and practices.

bebelan merepek. nite.. NICU will ended soon and will be going to HKL starting next week.

i miss my school days..

p/s: ib dah jadi doctor. doctor gigi yg budak2 takut nak pegi tu haha. congratulations and good luck bro in life. n i have to work hard.. like really hard. damn korang sume da grad.

Teddy sweater merah

2010-06-25T12:05:00.008+08:00

Salam..

Huh it has been long since the last post i made.. i like to tell stories.. some of them about myself, some of them about other people, some of them about what i understand..

while waiting for Jumaat prayer, i just want to update to you guys bout what happened recently.. Alhamdulillah today is my last day posting in orthopeadics.. log book completed.. case write up also completed although last minute work out.. as usual (sigh)

orthopaedics is a very enjoyable posting.. i really love orthopaedics until i felt that i wanted to be an orthopaedic surgeon instead of cardiothoracic surgeon.. so after these 8 weeks of posting i shall say orthopaedic is a busy posting but you wouldn't get stress on the busy schedule..

above from that, my last program that i handled is also in this last week of orthopaedic posting.. i already found my weakness.. i can't handled two separate big problem at one time.. during 2 weeks before my program.. i already had shut down all my academic studies.. gile kan? like having holidays for 2 weeks.. i just attend my study group and get info through seminars and orthopaedic clinics.. n haven't open my book at all.. i even ignore what my lecturers said if i didnt attend rounds as i believe they will recognize me as i were there during their clinics.. case write up should be submitted on friday of my event week.. memang tak lah kan.. haha

mati kalau mak aku baca ni..

after a few reflections.. ive come into solutions of the problem. ive got to have a planner! as simple as that... what to do first and what to do second.. but my ego said.. no i dont need to plan.. just happy go lucky with my stuff and everything will be okay hahaha and i dont see this as my problem but more of obstacles.. i have to make my self good on handling few other things at once with success.. because you just don't handle only one problem at once in real life..

okay about my program.. i gave it B - for the achievement.. money was okay,

sponsor was ok, participants was okay, program was bit problem in the beginning but can cope up with it, organising committee was so so.. so overall B- haha and i always pray that my sacrifice on doing this event, hopefully will increase awareness of the people on prostate disease..

(from left with me : org biase, prof zul : uro surgeon , dato' tnc Mohd Razak : orthopeadic surgeon, Dato' lokman saim : pakar ENT)

Though i know my family will never support what i did or any event that i involve in.. i just believe one day with all of these things that i have done, will be beneficial for me..

ok lah thats it for now.. nanti bersambung bebelan..

take care everyone

Ku terkenang sebuah memori lalu..

2010-06-11T21:03:00.003+08:00

SEMPENA SEMBILAN TAHUN PEMERGIAN (JUN 2001- JUN 2010)

Oleh: Riduan Mohamad Nor.

" Islam sebagai satu Al-Din tidak dapat ditakfsirkan dengan fikiran manusia. Dalam mentafsirkan makna Islam itu kita wajib berpandukan kepada Al-Quran dan Al-Sunnah serta orang yang menghayati Al-Quran dan Al-Sunnah seperti para sahabat, Ulama-ulama dan juag para Tabi’in.

Kita tidak melihat dan memahami cara Islam membentuk satu peradaban kemanusian seperti yang digambarkan oleh setengah orang.

Islam juga bukanlah satu kebudayaan atau serpihan daripada kehidupan manusia, kalau kita melihat dan mengambil Islam dengan cara yang sedemikian, dapatlah diumpamakan seperti orang buta yang cuba mengenali seekor gajah.

Bila dipegangnya ekor gajah itu dikatakan gajah itu seperti tali, apabila dipegang kaki gajah itu dikatakannya gajah itu seperti tiang dan apabila terpegangnya telinga gajah itu dikatakan gajah itu seperti dinding .sedangkan tali, tiang dan dinding bukanlah gajah tetapi ia hanya sebahagian daripada anggota-anggota gajah itu.

( Ustaz Fadhil Nor: 1992)

Malaysia semenjak zaman disentuh angin sejahtera Islam sejak ratusan tahun dahulu, tidak pernah gagal untuk menampilkan ulama’’ dan pemikir Islam sehingga ada yang bermukim di Mekah untuk menyampaikan ilmu di Masjidil Haram.

Ulama’’ yang dilahirkan di Tanah Melayu ini bukan sahaja mampu mengajar kitab di masjid namun menjulang senjata untuk menentang penjajah kuffar. Antara ulama’’ ini ialah Tuan Guru Haji Hassan Bin Munas, Tuan Guru Haji Abdul Rahman Limbong, Ustaz Abu Bakar al Bakir dan ratusan ulama’yang lain.

Dengan merdekanya Tanah Melayu pada tahun 1957, pentas siasah negara ini menyaksikan pertarungan ideologi yang pelbagai samada kebangsaan Melayu, sosialisme, Islam dan sebagainya.

Pelbagai tokoh muncul dalam menyuarakan aspirasi perjuangan yang diperjuangkan, sebahagiannya mampu bertahan di pentas siasah dan ada yang tersungkur ditelan waktu. Salah seorang insan yang telah melakar nama dalam sejarah politik Islam negara ini ialah Dato’ Haji Fadzil Mohd Noor.

Dato’ Haji Fadzil Mohd Noor atau dengan gelaran yang sangat melekat dalam jiwa ummat Islam sehingga kini "Ustaz Fadzil’ merupakan seorang pemimpin dan tokoh politik yang dihormati dan disegani oleh semua lapisan masyarakat tempatan mahupun antarabangsa, ekoran daripada penampilan negarawan yang dimiliki oleh beliau.

Dengan sosok yang kurus, berbusana kemas dengan kancingan baju Melayu yang lengkap, dengan sorotan mata yang hening menggambarkan ketajaman berfikir, beliau memang dilahirkan sebagai pemimpin ummah.

Berbekalkan ilmu pengetahuan yang tinggi terutamanya ilmu-ilmu agama yang diperolehi ketika bertamu di bumi Mesir, beliau dipakejkan dengan pelbagai ilmu lain seperti sosial sains, ditambah dengan kuat membaca dan menelaah.

Ilmu-ilmu yang dikutip di universiti kehidupan ini meluaskan ufuk ilmu tokoh ulama’ ini. Perwatakan yang sederhana serta sentiasa berdamping dengan masyarakat, beliau adalah sebutir mutiara yang sangat berharga yang pernah dilahirkan oleh PAS dalam sejarahnya di pentas politik dakwah negara ini.

Musuh politik PAS sendiri meletakkan almarhum dengan markah yang tinggi bahkan masyarakat bukan Melayu turut mengkagumi sosok tubuh dengan postur yang sederhana ini. Almarhum menyeruak kehidupan masyarakat tanapa mengira penat lelah dan suka ‘mendengar’ masalah rakyat menyebabkan Ustaz Fadzil sentiasa dikenang dalam sisi putih.

Pakej kepimpinan yang ada pada beliau ini ditempa dalam proses pergulatan hidup yang panjang selain daripada anugerah ilahi kepada umat Islam negara ini, almarhum membesar dengan semangat cinta kepada ilmu, seterusnya meminati bidang dakwah dan politik semasa belajar di bangku menengah lagi.

Latar belakang keluarga

Dato’ Haji Fadzil @ Ali bin Mohd Noor atau lebih mesra dengan panggilan Ustaz Fadzil dilahirkan hasil perkongsian hidup antara Mohd Noor Abdul Hamid dan Hindun Haji Abdul Rahman. Beliau dilahirkan pada 13 Mac 1937 di Kampung Seberang Pumpung, kira-kira tiga kilometer dari bandar Alor Star, Kedah, beliau merupakan anak sulung daripada empat adik-beradik.

Takdir ilahi telah mencatatkan bahawa insan ini diuji dengan kehilangan ibubapa tercinta, kedua-dua ibu bapa meninggal dunia sewaktu beliau masih kecil lagi. Latar belakang keluarga sebelah ibu bapanya adalah dari kalangan keluarga yang berpegang teguh kepada ajaran Islam.

Moyang beliau iaitu Tuan Guru Haji Idris Al-Jarumi merupakan salah seorang ulama’ yang disegani berasal dari Wilayah Patani, Thailand dan seorang yang terkenal di Kedah. Wilayah yang sarat dengan pemukiman ilmu ini memunculkan ratusan pondok yang subur merendang dengan ilmu Islam.

Darah ulama’ pejuang telah mengalir dalam urat sendi darah Ustaz Fadzil, sehingga beliau adalah pemimpin yang tidak gentar dengan ugutan dan ancaman musuh dalam menyampaikan agama Allah.

Pendidikan

Memimpin masyarakat bukan sekadar menjadi insan yang mesra rakyat yang sekadar memenuhi jemputan kenduri kahwin tetapi mestilah dipakejkan dengan ilmu formal dan tidak formal. Almarhum merupakan seorang tokoh yang konsisten dalam menuntut ilmu, sentiasa menimba ilmu bagi menjadi pemimpin yang kredibel.

Sejarah awal pendidikan Ustaz Fadzil bermula sekitar tahun 1946. Waktu itu beliau mengikuti pendidikan awal di Sekolah Melayu Derga, Alor Star sehingga tahun 1949. Kemudian menyambung pelajaran peringkat menengah di sebuah sekolah yang berpengaruh di Kedah yang telah melahirkan ribuan alim ulama’ iaitu Maktab Mahmud sehingga tahun 1958 sebelum meneruskan pengajian tinggi di tempat yang sama sehingga tahun 1962.

Anak muda ini berjiwa besar dan sentiasa kehausan ilmu, beliau bercita-cita besar untuk belajar jauh dari tanahair iaitu di Timur Tengah. Pada tahun 1963 beliau menyambung pelajaran ke seberang laut dengan mengikuti pengajian di Universiti Al-Azhar di Mesir (sebuah institusi pendidikan yang paling berpotensi dan berprestij dalam dunia Islam) dengan mendapat biasiswa kerajaan negeri Kedah.

Di Universiti Al-Azhar, beliau mengambil jurusan Perundangan Islam (Syariah) dan menamatkan pengajiannya pada tahun 1967 dengan memperoleh Ijazah Sarjana Muda dalam lapangan tersebut.

Beliau bukan sahaja mendapatkan ilmu daripada dewan kuliah di Al-Azhar tetapi juga menggali mutiara ilmu daripada ulama’-ulama’ Mesir untuk memantapkan ilmu beliau sebagai bekalan dakwah untuk pulang menabur kebaktian di tanahair.

Perkahwinan

Ustaz Fadzil mendirikan rumah tangga dengan sepupunya Siti Khadijah Ibrahim pada tahun 1963. Isteri beliau merupakan bekas pelajar Sekolah Menengah Agama Farbish Bakar, Alor Star, Kedah. Kemudian setelah berkahwin, menemankan almarhum belajar di Al-Azhar.

Perkahwinan mereka yang sangat bahagia dalam kesibukan belajar dan berjuang telah membuahkan kurniaan lapan orang anak iaitu Huda, Ammar, Aiman, Muna’izzah, Muhammad Faiz, Salwa, Ahmad Fauwaz dan Ahmad Anas. Beliau bukan sahaja berjaya sebagai ahli politik malah merupakan ketua keluarga yang mithali dalam mendidik anak-anaknya dengan penuh kasih sayang dan bertanggungjawab. Sebahagian anak-anaknya juga terlibat dalam perjuangan Islam seperti Muna’izzah dan menantu beliau Sabki Yusuf.

Bakat Kepimpinan

Potret kehidupan yang digores selama kehidupan telah menyaksikan bakat kepimpinan yang tinggi teradun dalam diri almarhum. Bakat kepimpinan beliau mulai terserlah sejak di bangku sekolah terutamanya di Maktab Mahmud, di mana beliau memiliki kebolehan berpidato dan mewakili sekolah dalam pertandingan syarahan dan bahas.

Keistimewaan yang ada pada beliau boleh berhujah secara spontan dan berkemahiran tinggi dalam ilmu mantiq. Pada tahun 1967, sewaktu di Al-Azhar, beliau pernah memegang jawatan Setiausaha dan Timbalan Presiden dalam Persatuan Melayu Republik Arab Mesir (PMRAM).

Berada di Mesir ketika negara itu diterkam hebat oleh Isreal dalam perang Arab Israel pada tahun 1967, di zaman Gamal Naseer. Beliau juga menjadi saksi bagaimana zalimnya regim Mesir terhadap pejuang-pejuang Islam di negara tersebut.

Universiti al Azhar pula tidak sunyi daripada kegiatan Islam yang memberikan pengalaman yang sangat berharga kepada ustaz Fadhil. ( Universiti tersebut masih mempunyai kebebasan kala itu ).

Orange and Red and Black

2010-05-15T17:02:00.007+08:00

Alhamdulillah

Setelah beberapa drama dapat di tonton.. ak da masuk 4th year.. Paper reseat aritu agak kaw juga soalan dia dan ramai dari batch ak sangkut... syukur sangat2 ak lepas dan dapat masuk 4th year..

Sory ak tutup kejap blog.. proses renovation.. cantek da sket kali ni.. kat atas2 ni ada link2 ak tak edit lagi.. baca2 lah eh eheh

so cerita hari ambek result agak dramatik.. seperti yang da ak tulis sebelum ni, paper ak hari tu ari Isnin dan Selasa last...

Isnin tu paper pagi 2 bahagian dan petang satu bahagian untuk O&G.. paper berat buat semua dalam satu hari.. huh gile penat hari tu.. tapi tak boleh rileks lagi sebab Selasa esok nye ada satu lagi paper Medicine (short case)..

Dan satu kejadian tak diingini terjadi time paper o&g.. time pagi.. kan ada 2 bahagian, satu bahagian tu paper objektif.. paper objektif tu pulak ada 2

bahagian.A dan B. tiap2 bahagian ada 15 soalan.so ada 30 soalan semuanya..

so ak dpt peringatan awal yg kata paper ak tu semua 30 minit.. dan bila semua orang jawab paper tu.. ak pon selak satu persatu.. dengan serius nye ak bace.. setiap bahagian die tulis kat kertas tu diperuntukan masa 30 minit...so bahagian A dan B semuanya 1 jam.. ini IKUT KERTAS TU TULIS..

sekali lepas 30 minit loceng berbunyi! ak macam ' Aphal loceng bunyi awal sangat?' sebelum tu pulak takde la lecturer ckp mcm alert ' lagi 10 minit untuk masa tamat' tibe2 je masa abes... damn!!!!!

then ak teringat balik yg tadi die cakap masa jawab hanya 3o minit!!! ak ada half lagi soalan tak jawab!!! gile babeng... syukur sebab bahagian A ak habis dalam 20 minit.. lagi sepuluh minit ak jawab dalam 5/6 soalan kat bahagian B. so ak ada 10 soalan lagi tak sempat baca dan jawab!!!!

gile kan?? ak time tu da gelabah biawak dah..ak maen tanda je dulu 10 soalan tu.. dan time org bangun utk submit paper.. baru ak bace soalan dan padam and tick jwpn yg betol..dengan kelajuan F1.. tapi tak sempat.. dalam 3,4 soalan tetibe ada lecturer bunyi.. 'Hey! what are u doing?? are u changing the answers??'' owh amat lah siot time tu.. ak stop dan ak pangel die.. then ak explain...

'Dr.. actually i was wrong about the time given just now, u said it was 30 minutes quests.. but in here it stated 1hour paper?? and no correction made??' then ak explain semua.. tapi dia macam tak puas ati lagi.. dia pangel sorang lagi dr. dan Alhamdulillah dr. tu except explanation ak.. gile ape ak bw court ley menang kot.. kat kertas tulis 1 jam.. takde pembetulan lak tu.. mmg lahanat juga laa.. tp ak sedar yg ak pon takley wat pape.. terus je la submit paper dengan soalan dalam 8soalan yg tak tau soalan dia apa dan jawapan dia ak belasah.. huh~

ak geram sebab ak tak dpt jawab soalan tu.. study da kaw dah sekali tak ley jwb.. memang amat menyirap..

dan seterusnya ak jawab esei question selepas 15minit rehat.. budak2 da ushar ak pelik dah.. apehal shamil tu kuar lambat kena marah ngan doctor lak..

haha ak maintain je sbb next paper ada lagi n i have to score this fckin esei paper supaya dapat cover paper tadi.. dan Alhamdulillah esey okay for me.. tapi ak masih tak confident ak ley pass.. sbb in medic every marks count.. rendah 1.0 pon ley fail.. takdak kasi can punya..

then petang tu ak jwb paper OSCE o&g and okay juga.. and lastly esok nye Selase paper medicine..

lepas je paper medicine ak terus tepiki paper o&g ak tu.. seriusly ak amat amat amat risau dan dah siap prepare utk ape yg akan terjadi.. bilik pon ak tak pindah lagi in case la ape2 jadi.. mmg siot lah.. then terus ak balik penang..

kat umah ak story lah kat parent.. mcm biasa ayah dah buat muka mcm nak kena slamdunk haha ibu cam ckp okay nye ley dia rasa ak boleh lepas.. ak pulak!??? hummm senyap je.. ak layan cuti yg tak seberapa sebab Jumaat tu da kuar result.. ak tak contact sesape.. sori Naim tak contact hang.. seriusly dlm keadaan merbahaya haha..

then Jumaat tu satu family nak balik kl pulak.. so sampai kl dlm sebelum Jumaat, penat dorang suruh ak drive dari penang ke kl.. huh sampai je ak mcm nak balik cheras.. tapi solat jumaat n lunch ngan parent dulu kat restoran Minang ni.. ak makan da sikit da ha gile risau result.. then ak balik cheras..

on the way g cheras then ak dpt call dari Temoh ' Congratz ko lepas' ak macam... errrrr... Alhamdulillah!!! hahah time tu jem pulak jalan.. ak da lompat2 dlm kelisa and terus call parent ak.. then hafiz msg.. ak lepas.. syukur sangat2.. happy gile kot.. haha then ak tanye yang lain mcm mana.. hafiz reply lambat.. then ak call.. and i received bad news for few of my friends.. dalam zikir Alhamdulillah ak.. ak senyap kejap.. n tetibe sedih.. sebab 2,3 rakan rapat ak time reseat aritu tak lepas.. sedih kot.. ak pon taktau nak ckp ape ngan mereka.. ak mmg harap mereka tabah..segala percaturan Allah tu ada habuan dia.. yakin! mmg susah nak hadapi.. ntah lah.. tapi ak serius tak syok sgt la pastu.. happy campur sedih. 22 orang dari batch ak kena repeat tahun.. mmg ak semangat batch sket so mmg lah lagi sedih..

tapi sebenarnya time ak down dulu tu ak da pikir da.. if ak reseat.. makna nya ak akan belajar lagi medicine o&g surgery yg merupakan posting penting masa final year nanti.. yg aku amek balik 3 minggu ni pon da bnyk bagi ak pengajaran.. ini kan buat balik setahun lagi.. ak rasa amat bermanfaat.. mmg la taknak kan.. tapi for future ak rase so much worth it.. harap sahabat2 ak faham..

tu lah detik2 ak dapat result hari tu.. amat bersyukur.. mmg setiap hari before dpt result ak mmg ada aje tag line yang macam suruh ak bersabar... mcm aritu ak balik je dari paper o&g.. time ak masih lagi teringat2 tentang soalan2 ak tak jawab tu.. ak terdengar ayat quran tentang tawakal.. 'dan serahkanlah segalanya pada Allah, sesungguhnya Allah lah tempat kamu bertawakal'..bacaan Misyari dari ipod ak.. tetibe je kot! ak cam.. ok takpe study medicne..

bila bukak facebook pulak ada lagi tag line pasal tawakal..

dan bila ak bukak blog abg shah.. pon tulis pasal tawakal.. katakan dia quote dari abg zaim ' tawakal pada Allah bukan tawakal pada usaha' pergh terasa kot.. terus ak cool.. dan rilek je.. tak tertekan sgt... tapi ak manusia biasa yang mmg lemah.. kadang2 tu down juga tapi ingat balik...buat ak lebih bersabar..

Alhamdulillah.. sekarang da 3 minggu dalam 4th year.. ak start ngan posting Orthopedic.. pasal tulang2 patah2 tecabut tulang semua belajar dalam posting ni.. jadi group leader lagi.. ak sorang je lak tu laki.. malu pon ada gak tapi kena perform la kan utk menjaga nama baik lelaki ni hahaha

dan ak da masuk bilik baru.. bilik ni tingkat 2 aje.. syukur bilik ni sejuk je kalau time panas terik tengahari pon.. seronok jugak lah syukur Alhamdulillah..

terima kasih rakan2 yang mendoakan.. akan terus ku berusaha insyAllah hingga ke akhir garisan penamat.. doa hampa semua mmg pendokong usaha ak untuk berjaya.. terima kasih..

Nanti ak cerita posting2 time 4th year ni pulak kay.. sibuk jugak lah sebenarnya dan semester ni pon ak tak amek jawatan dah.. ak amek pengarah PAC tu aje.. yang lain tak nak amek tau dah.. ak nak enjoy 4th year ak dan hidup sebagai medical student dan kuatkan segalanya untuk final year nanti.. pergh gile semangat haha 2 3 minggu je ni.. :) hehe

owh program ni 18 dan 20 June.. doakan segala berjalan lancar.. to all always b happy as it will attract good things ' law of attraction'

Take care

Salam

owh n syukur juga ayah bagi laptop baru Alhamdulillah..

dan ak rase nak kaetkan gak ngan law of attraction.. sebab ape tau? sebab i never came across to have a macbook now, cause i think i will have it when i grad nanti or somewhere in future.. but i always wanted to have it, like since 2nd year, i took a brochure about macbook and i paste it on my study desk.. everyday i see it and wish (doa) i can have it.. Alhamdulillah.. Allah makbul kan.. syukur..

The doctors MD,UKM and MBBS,UM

2010-05-04T12:26:00.007+08:00

KETIKA kerajaan sedang meningkatkan usaha memujuk doktor warga Malaysia di luar negara kembali bekerja di hospital tempatan melalui pelbagai insentif, ramai graduan fakulti perubatan Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM) dan Universiti Malaya (UM) melarikan diri untuk bekerja di Singapura sejurus lulus peperiksaan akhir tahun mereka.

Perkara ini terjadi sejak lima tahun lalu selepas Majlis Perubatan Singapura mengiktiraf ijazah perubatan dari kedua-dua universiti itu.

Tahun ini, jumlah graduan perubatan yang berhasrat bekerja di Singapura semakin ramai. Doktor muda berkenaan meminta kerja di hospital Singapura sejurus mendapat sijil sementara mereka daripada dekan dan serta-merta ditawar kerja sebagai doktor pelatih di hospital negara itu.

Majlis Perubatan Singapura tidak memerlukan ijazah asli yang hanya diberi universiti ketika konvokesyen kerana kebanyakan hospital di sana kekurangan doktor.

Seramai 20 daripada 209 pelajar fakulti perubatan UKM yang lulus peperiksaan akhir baru-baru ini pada 26 Mac lalu menerima tawaran sebagai doktor pelatih dan kini sedang bersedia meninggalkan negara ini.

Ramai lagi graduan dari fakulti perubatan UM sedang mencari rezeki di Singapura. Dijangkakan 80 graduan akan meninggalkan negara ini untuk bekerja di hospital Singapura.

Sebahagian besar daripada mereka tidak akan pulang bekerja di Malaysia. Kebanyakan doktor muda berkenaan menerima biasiswa kerajaan sepanjang lima tahun pengajian perubatan.

Kosmo berape aribulan ntah.

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and this was replied by one of a doctor from Malaysia..

I read an interesting article today about a few prominent figures addressing their concern over the increasing UKM and UM medical graduates who have left the country to continue their medical practice overseas.

After reading the news for 3 times, I called a very close friend, an MD (UKM) graduate to ask his opinion on how the news might have affected him. He has been working in Singapore for more than a decade as a Consultant Surgeon with a certain sub-specialty

"Why be a slave in your own country, when you are a king in another?" He replied.

Indeed, if anybody would want to find a reason why all of us left, either after housemanship, after being a specialist, or even after sub specializing, and now, even prior to doing housemanship, they need not look at our payslip, or the wealth that we have gained overseas, but only to the Medical System that has been rotting in the ignorance and politic-based stupidity that Malaysia has been well-known for (in the medical field).

I have served the system for nearly 2 decades of my career, waiting for it to improve for so long, and only finding myself in despair, quitting with a 24-hour notice and serving abroad. The system is, in my opinion, keeping doctors, since the beginning of their career as House Officers to the end of it, in the lowermost priority. When I was working there, doctors are so ill-treated, while the nurses and the medical assistants are overpowering us.

I still remember the days when I was doing seeing patients and rounds as an MO, while the staff nurses would mind their own business, having breakfast in the pantry, or having gossip chats at their own leisure. My House Officers would then have to do merely all the labour-work, up to the extent of setting intravenous drips, and serving medications. If I am to expect the nurses, my patients would have been dead, or the work would have been too slowly or incompletely done.

When I was a House Officer, I had to run down 4-5 floors just to review a blood investigation of a dying dengue patient. The ward staff would either be nowhere around, or will say that he is busy (busier than the doctor?) or the answer I got at that time:

"Doktor nak cepat, doktor turun sendirilah, gaji doktor lagi banyak dari saya"

Even when I was a Specialist, the staff nurses had to be called again and again just to make sure the management plan for the patient would be done. I was already used to answers from them:

“I’m busy with something else"

“My shift is already over"

...it was routine for me.

The Medical Assistants were worse. They would hide behind their so-called boss, the Head of Medical Assistant. They feel hiding behind him would make them not under our jurisdiction, that we have no power to instruct them in managing the patient, that they have power to manage own their own. I've seen them giving medications not as we prescribed, performing procedures without our knowledge, as if they are the actual "Doctors". They are in their own world, and we have to do their job, taking blood, labelling samples, and even cleaning gadgets from the procedures that we have done.

Oh, but the ministry loves this group. They even let them run a clinic now, instead of upgrading the clinics already run by doctors. The government feels that the MAs are very important and should never be ill-treated by those big bad doctors. One time when I was a District Hospital Medical Officer, I was conducting a delivery of a baby. An MA insisted that I remove my car which was block-parking his car. I answered through the phone that I was busy.

He came to the labor room and yelled "Semua orang pun sibuk jugak, macamlah doktor seorang yang sibuk!”

It is insulting that an MA or a staff nurse claims that they are BUSY, as busy as a doctor? As a Malaysian Doctor, I have even worked for 72 hours straight. I have experienced working until my 6 month old daughter did not recognize me at the end of the week.

Is that how busy they are? I am very sure that they are so busy, that they can only spend 2 hours at the nearby Mamak stall, or can only leave at 5:10 PM instead of 5, or can only have 1 hour of lunch.

The management staffs are worse. I have to beg and plead so that I can get my on-call claims, of RM25 per 48 hours of work. While sitting in an air-conditioned office, they will at their own leisure, process my call claims so that I will receive them by the next decade.

The state health or Hospital Director would just give another inspirational talk (of bollocks) on team effort and beauty of teamwork.

That is how Malaysian doctors are treated in the government sector: without respect, without dignity and without significance. Why?

It is because we are bound by ethics to try our best to save lives, despite how ill-treated we are. We hardly have time to complaint because we are too busy or tired, and we would rather spend the precious time resting or seeing our loved ones. The burden of trying to save lives is on our shoulders alone. No MAs or Staff nurses would shoulder it with us. They have their own bosses: the Sisters, Matrons, or Head of MAs, which job description is to ensure that the big bad doctors will not ask their underlings to do extra work.

This is how the Malaysian Ministry of Health have treated their doctors. I am very sure that in each and every doctor, there is a slowly-burning patience in serving the Malaysian people, which will eventually fade and cause them to surrender to serving a place that treats them better.

A few colleagues who graduated from UK choose to serve there:

"The pay is more, and we get the respect we deserve"

Another works in Brunei:

“Here the staff nurses respect Malaysian doctors, and they are very co-operative" (He ended up marrying one)

A few are consultants in Singapore (working with me):

"Here we are treated well, we spearhead the management, and every else do their work to the best of their capabilities".

A few even enjoys working in Indonesia:

“The work-load is horrible since there are a lot of patients, but we are well respected by every hospital personnel" (They have migrated there for nearly a decade)

I am sure that people will see doctors as power-hungry individuals who want to be the boss in the hospital. Trust me, after having graduated 6-7 years of medical school, earning a DEGREE, and subsequently MASTERS, and SUBSPECIALITY, you would expect a degree of respect and being considered important. We are trying our best to improve patient's quality of life, or making sure he lives another day. Is it too much to ask from the system that we are important?

I find that Malaysia is the only country that is making doctors' lives miserable and treated like rubbish. It was never about the pay in the first place. It is about the treatment we are getting and the false political-based promises. Do you know that the so-called circular about doctors can have the day off after working 24 hours straight released JULY 2009 is not yet implemented? Do you know that the raise of UD 41 to 44 does not involve every doctor in the government service?

We are waiting for improvement. We have waited a long time when we were working in the system. Somewhere along the line we decided to leave and wait outside the system. Until the system changes, we will continue to work overseas, in countries which are appreciative of us. Trust me, Malaysian-graduate doctors are considered highly skilful and competent in neighbouring countries, and the 15 % brain drain is more significant than you think.

We will return when the system prioritize us and gives us the quality of life we deserve.

If it stays the same, Malaysian Hospitals would end up having Staff nurses and Medical Assistants as "Doctors", and we would have to send patients to Indonesia for an appendicectomy.

Hear our voice. We hardly speak, but will usually fade away from conflict (and fly to another place).

Cahaya

2010-04-04T14:32:00.006+08:00

Tak pernah sesaat daku meragui
apa yang telah daku temui
slama ini,

Tak pernah sesaat daku menyesali,apa yang telah aku nikmati,
apa ku alami,

slagi hayat di kandung badan,

Takkan ku menyerah kalah,
walau mimpi ku musnah,
harapan ku hancur,
sayapku patah,

kan ku pancarkan cahaya,
seperti pelita ke srata dunia,
yang gelap gelita

sehingga hembusan nafas
yang terakhir.

tak pernah sesaat ku mencurigai,
apa yg telah aku kecapi,
stakat ini,

tiba saatnya kan ku tangisi,
pada yang pergi, takkan kembali
Kembali lagi,

Slagi jasadku belum terkubur!

Slagi tubuhku, belum ditimpa uzur!
pantang datuk nenek moyangku,
Berundur!

Akan Ku Pancar Cahaya Seperti Pelita,
Ke Srata Dunia,
Seperti Cahaya…….

iyas dah balik semalam.. tolong sikit buat2 sibuk angkat barang.. n dia dah tinggalkan ktdi..will start working next 2 months..da jadi doctor dah pon.. kejap gile kan mase berlalu.. aply di hospital pulau pinang katanya. wah sudah bekerjaya.

yups sungguh pantas masa berlalu.. igt lagi time dia 3rd year aku 1st year.. jumpa buddy di hukm.. n iyas bw satria stylo dia.. skang dah pakai honda city kot.. kalah Gen 2 haha aku doakan agar dia berjaya dan terus sukses.. jgn lupa aku kat sini dah la.. doa kan aku..

i can say he is the best buddy and friend around me since i came to ukm.. i learn a lot of friendship from him and ib. after a very long time i dont have any close friends except from maahad and matrics.. i almost forgot the meaning of friendship.. i mean the TRULY one..

thanks dan moga sukses selalu..

p.s. exam reseat 26th April 2010 nih.. doakan aku.. thanks.

Cool converstions on hijab :)

2010-03-31T12:24:00.002+08:00

"I'm so tired"

"Tired of what?"

"Of all these people judging me."

"Who judged you?"

"Like that woman, every time I sit with her, she
tells me to wear hijab."

"Oh, hijab and music! The mother of all topics!"

"Yeah! I listen to music without hijab. haha!"

"Maybe she was just giving you advice."

"I don't need her advice. I know my religion. Can't
she mind her own business?"

"Maybe you misunderstood. She was just being
nice."

"Keeping out of my business, that would be
nice..."

"But it's her duty to encourage you do to good."

"Trust me. That was no encouragement. And what
do you mean 'good'?"

"Well, wearing hijab, that would be a good thing to
do."

"Says who?"

"It's in the Qur'an, isn't it?"

"Yes. She did quote me something."

"She said Surah an-Nur, and other places of the
Qur'an."

"Yes, but it's not a big sin anyway. Helping people
and praying is more important."

"True. But big things start with small things."

"That's a good point, but what you wear is not
important. What's important is to have a good
healthy heart."

"What you wear is not important?"

"That's what I said."

"Then why do you spend an hour every morning
fixing up?"

"What do you mean?"

"You spend money on cosmetics, not to mention
all the time you spend on fixing your hair and low-
carb dieting."

"So?"

"So, your appearance IS important."

"No. I said wearing hijab is not an important thing
in religion."

"If it's not an important thing in religion, why is it

mentioned in the Holy Qur'an?"

"You know I can't follow all that's in Qur'an."

"You mean God tells you something to do, you
disobey and then it's OK?"

"Yes. God is forgiving."

"God is forgiving to those who repent and do not
repeat their mistakes."

"Says who?" <>"Says the same book that tells
you to cover."

"But I don't like hijab, it limits my freedom."

"But the lotions, lipsticks, mascara and other
cosmetics set you free?! What's your definition of
freedom anyway?"

"Freedom is in doing whatever you like to do."

"No. Freedom is in doing the right thing, not in
doing whatever we wish to do."

"Look! I've seen so many people who don't wear
hijab and are nice people, and so many who wear
hijab and are bad people."

"So what? There are people who are nice to you
but are alcoholic. Should we all be alcoholics?
You made a stupid point."

"I don't want to be an extremist or a fanatic. I'm OK
the way I am without hijab."

"Then you are a secular fanatic. An extremist in
disobeying God."

"You don't get it, if I wear hijab, who would marry
me?!"

"So all these people with hijab never get
married?!"

"Okay! Wha t if I get married and my husband
doesn't l i ke it? And wants me to remove it?"

"What if your husband wants you to go out with
him on a bank robbery?!"

"That's irrelevant, bank robbery is a crime."

"Disobeying your Creator is not a crime?"

"But then who would hire me?"

"A company that respects people for who they
are."

"Not after 9-11"

"Yes. After 9-11. Don't you know about Hanan
who just got into med school? And the other one,
what was her name, the girl who always wore a
white hijab.ummm."

"Yasmeen?"

"Yes. Yasmeen. She just finished her MBA and is
now interning for GE."

"Why do you reduce religion to a piece of cloth
anyway?"

"Why do you reduce womanhood to high heals
and lipstick colours?"

"You didn't answer my question."

"In fact, I did. Hijab is not just a piece of cloth.
It is
obeying God in a difficult environment. It is
courage, faith in action, and true womanhood. But
your short sleeves, tight pants."

"That's called 'fashion', you live in a cave or
something? First of all, hijab was founded by men
who wanted to control women."

"Really? I did not know men could control women
by hijab."

"Yes. That's what it is."

"What about the women who fight their husbands
to wear hijab? And women in France who are
forced to remove their hijab by men? What do you
say about that?"

"Well, that's different."

"What difference? The woman who asked you to
wear hijab. she was a woman, right?"

"Right, but."

"But fashions that are designed and promoted by
male-dominated corporations, set you free? Men
have no control on exposing women and using
them as a commodity?! Give me a break!"

"Wait, let me finish, I was saying."

"Saying what? You think that men control women
by hijab?"

"Yes."

"Specifically how?"

"By te lling women how and what to wear,
dummy!"

"Doesn't TV, magazines and movies tell you what
t o wear, and how to be 'attractive'?"

"Of course, it's fashion."

"Isn't that control? Pressuring you to wear what
they want you to wear?"

Silence

"Not just controlling you, but also controlling the
market."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean, you are told to look skinny and anorexic
like that woman on the cover of the magazine, by
men who design those magazines and sell those
products."

"I don't get it. What does hijab have to do with
products."

"It has everything to do with that. Don't you see?
Hijab is a threat to consumerism, women who
spend billions of dollars to look skinny and live by
standards of fashion designed by men.and then
here is Islam, saying trash all that nonsense and
focus on your soul, not on your looks, and do not
worry what men think of your looks."

"Like I don't have to buy hijab? Isn't hijab a
product?"

"Yes, it is. It is a product that sets you free from
male-dominated consumer ism ."

"Stop lecturing me! I WILL NOT WEAR HIJAB! It
is awkward, outdated, and totally not suitable for
this societ y ... Moreover, I am only 20 and too
young to wear hijab!"

"Fine. Say that to your Lord, when you face Him
on Judgment Day."

"Fine."

"Fine."

Silence

"Shut up and I don't want to hear more about hijab
niqab schmijab Punjab !"

Silence.

She stared at the mirror, tired of arguing with
herself all this time.

Successful enough, she managed to shut the
voices in her head, with her own opinions
triumphant in victory on the matter, and a final
modern decision accepted by the society,
rejected by the Faith:

Yes to curls or blowed dried hair, no to hijab

*http://islamintel.blogspot.com/2010/01/cool-conversation-on-hijab.html

Sorry aiman tak dpt p makan satey.. tetibe muncul ayah aku dari pulau pinang di kolej aku.. terpakse la kan hehe nanti la kay p skali lagi..

salam

N253562

2010-03-25T16:58:00.003+08:00

kinda cool.. cuti panjang sket tak pe la.. ni dok reseat mana ada cuti..

boo. loser.

Doa aku ya rakan2.. another 4 weeks .. gile nak buat post tiap minggu ke ape..
Iyas da abes profesional exam.. tingal ib la pulak lepas ni.. aiman dan zaid pon da nak grad taun ni.. wah semua kawan2 da abes belajar.. n im stucking here with medicine n o&g lagi.. sucks..

Minta maaf bukan tak nak hang out tapi masa tak mengizinkan.. nanti lah ye..

Owh goodluck pada rakan2 uia yg nak exam.. rakan2 2nd year yg nak exam.. rakan2 sains kesihatan yg nak exam.. semua rakan2 seluruh dunia yg mana ada exam.. buat betul2..

Gambar di atas buat Hidir, Hanani, Shauqi, Syahid Ibrahim, Nabil Abd. Rani, Dayana Zakaria, Aiman Nasir, Yufie Hani, Popo, Bobo, Hafiz Badruzaman, dan pada sapa2 yang nak menjadi lawyer (syariah ka civil ka).. jgn pekena duit orang byk sgt nanti haha.. ramai kawan lawyer patut ar ckp pon nak serupa lawyer..piirah.

gambar Ayah call to the bar.. n beloved Tok ujung kanan sekali ... Tok takley dtg la bila aku grad nanti :( cmane je ni..hmm

He had his days.. ill have mine :) insyAllah..

sape2 nak bagi hadiah tie.. nak tie color mcm gmbr di atas.. tie tu hilang lah :( ..

take care everyone.salam.

Live KL or wateve.

2010-03-19T21:50:00.002+08:00

Baru seminggu .. i have like another 5 weeks to go..

Just bit tired..

I dont club. Just not cool enough. Poyo lahanat.

Bye.

I am legend.

2010-03-08T19:50:00.005+08:00

My name is Shamil Suhaimi. I am a survivor living in Kolej Tun Dr. Ismail. I am broadcasting on all AM frequencies. I will be at the South Street Seaport everyday at mid-day, when the sun is highest in the sky. If you are out there... if anyone is out there... I can provide food, I can provide shelter, I can provide security. If there's anybody out there... anybody... please. You are not alone.

Salam..

Apa khabar semua? hehe just want to update u guys with my recent news..

i havent go back home yet since after the exam untill the result came out. Alhamdulillah i passd one paper and i failed another one paper. how sad. yups really dissapointed with my achievement. it seems like there is no improvement in me. i faild the medical posting. malu ja hang ni.

so i have to repeat back my posting for obstetric and gyneacology posting and the internal medicine posting. they gv me another 3 weeks for medical and another 3 weeks of o&g posting to revise back all the subjects. and one simultaneous exam will be held at the end of the 6th weeks. Alhamdulillah it is just 2 postings, if 3 then i have to repeat the whole year again. pergh gile. but these 2 papers are enough to make me mad fr another 6 weeks and i am just like ' telur di hujung tanduk' right now cause i cant afford fail these 2 papers again or else ill have to repeat the whole 3rd year one more time. Nauzubillah.

then i went back home for like 3 days. and enjoy the breezes of penang. mmg layan lah. layan hamediyah ape sikit. as usual ayah will ask all sort of questions about the exams, the results, the repeaters like he wanted to calculate the probability that i can pass the exam. i dont know lawyers like to count too hehe frankly speaking im a bit down but not so much because im holding on Him so tightly. i know whatever happens there will always a reason behind it. so i took it positively. being not so down but more on reflecting myself for what ive done this past few month and trying to analyse back my weakness put me to a clear vision on passing these two papers.

yups failure is not an option for some of us and it is also inevitable. what we can do is to try the best. as hard. as smart. as hard. and as hard as we can so that failure is not part of us. i think ive not trying as hard as i can be. maybe.

after all God is where u should hold on to. in what ever condition ur in. in sad, in happy, in wealthy, in poverty, up, down, whatever LAH org malaysia cakap tu.. n never stop asking from Him fr the best of u. because He certainly knows evrything on you.. ur ego ur stubborn..ur sins. like everything.

at times, u listen and get what He wanted u to listen. i dont know, i just felt it. like when listening on to the radio. or watching tv. or reading other peoples facebook status or reading the quran. that nothing to do with u. but when u read their lines or listen to what they said or open the translation. it will came across to a line where it is like fitted accordingly to you. seperti Dia mahu menegur kamu. yups that is definitely what i felt.

Mungkin ini erti sabar. jadi biarlah senyuman mengukir dibibir :)
I hope i will get through all these with success.i really need to get into 4th year.ya Allah tolong lah. permudahkan lah. and do pray for my best too dear friends. thank you.

"Praise be to Allah, who hath guided us to this (felicity): never could we have found guidance, had it not been for the guidance of Allah. indeed it was the truth, that the apostles of our Lord brought unto us." Al-A'raf:43

p/s : placebo perform gile gempak nak mampos.. drummer terbaek.lagu non-stop. byk lagu ley singalong. puas hati lah senang citer.

10th floor

2010-03-04T02:32:00.004+08:00

Salam..

Alhamdulillah.. exam dah abes.. ntah la ok ke tak.. aku masih lagi risau.. dah kata tawakal risau ape lagi kan? hehe sedar la sikit diri tu sape.. sbb tu la rase risau lagi walaupun tawakal..

Medicines OBA paper was quite tough.. KFQ and OSCE were rather on moderate level. all i can say is that, in medicine anything, ANYTHING can happen. sometimes u think u can do the paper well but that is the paper that ull fail.. sucks rite.. humm ak da sikit2 nak adapt dah ngan environment ni hehe
So cuti nak buat ape sebenar nye? ntah pon tak tau.. rehat. ak nak rehat. nak duduk tak bergerak. senyap je. mcm panda. style gak kot.

baru2 ni ak rase mcm ak ni agak pelik. ak suka kan variasi, tapi kadang2 ak stick pada sesuatu benda tu mcm tak nak ubah2. contoh banyak jugak la.. mcm kalau minum teh o ais. ak order teh o ais je tiap2 kali minum ke makan kat luar ke nasib kfc takde teh o ais, kalau tak situ pon ak order teh o ais. kat madam kwann pon ak order teh o ais.
kalau ngan hidir dulu ak ingat lagi, sebelum kayuh perahu, pekena Kopi Larat.. haha ada bran?

kalau mkn berger tu, berger tu la ak order dari dulu smpai sekarang. nak order berger laen mcm malas pon ade, rase mcm berger yg ak order tu sedap lagi pon ade. takpe la.. janji kenyang kan.

kalau pakai seluar pulak. seluar tu je la ak nak pakai, kalau nak pegi beli seluar baru, ibu ke ayah ke sape2 nak belanje, seluar yg same juga aku pilih nanti. pelik lah. baju mcm takde la sgt. tapi kalau itam putih, itam putih je la baju ak.

bentuk jam pon same, kalau boleh nak jam tu aje.. dua tiga pon takpe, boleh tuka2 hari pakai jam laen2 haha..

hari tu tgk cerita dekat bilik Pulut (one of my batchmate) cerita THE FOURTH KIND.. die mcm cerita alien2 la lebey kurang.. kena culik ngan makhluk asing.. die nye trigger.. semua org mcm ada hallucination pasal burung hantu yg bertenggek kat tingkap bilik dorang. tapi sebenarnye menda tu bukan burung hantu, tapi mcm alien nye jelmaan la konon. ak rasa tu jin lah.. mcm ada sorang laki ni nampak burung hantu, orang perempuan satu lagi pon nampak burung hantu yg sama..

tapi ada kaitan ke habit ak ni dengan mcm cerita the fourth kind ni?

macam takde je..

takut gak..

takde lah aku rase..
ak rase ak just loyal je kat sesuatu menda tu.. or seseorang tu.. (gile ayat player) haha

dah lah..hehe

sebenar nak ilangkan risau ni.. gila kau susah dowh soalan OBA medicine.. ape mende la dorang tanye susah2 geram ak.. JKM pon ley tahan putak belit jugak!! aish.. takpelah.
result kuar 10th March ni or 9th March.. aku pon da confuse mane satu.. :( doa la weh.. ak taknak refer paper dah.. penat dowh

yang mane tengah cuti tu jage diri.. yg dok strugle belajar tu belajar betol2.. jgn dok maen je.. nanti exam susah baru padan muke hehe

salam

p/s - ak mmg rase anwar tak liwat saiful.

Perutusan Exam Final Semester 2 Tahun 3

2010-02-16T20:34:00.004+08:00

Salam..

Berikan ku sebaris kata

Untuk ku susuri jalan gelita

Mentera keramat kata pujangga

Azimat yang bermakna

Di depan simpang bercabang tiga

Tak tahu mana satu arahnya

Kanan kiri manusia berdusta

Mungkir pada yang Esa

Mungkin ku bukan watak utama

Dalam pentas lakonan dunia

Bimbang juga ku turut sama

Pastinya aku yang binasa

Berikan aku pedoman

Arah mana jalan kehidupan

Untukku teruskan pengembaraan

Tak rebah dan tak tersalah langkah

Tunjukkan aku kawan

Simpang mana arah kejayaan

Timur, utara juga selatan

Atau arah matahari terbenam

"Bersama menyusuri jalan

Para rasul nabi junjungan

Menuju ke puncak gemilang terbilang

Iman di dada mengiring langkah"

__________________________________________________________

22 hb Februari 2010

2.00pm - 4.45pm Perubatan Dalaman 1, PPD

23 Februari 2010

9.00am - 12.15pm Perubatan dan Masyarakat III,PPD

24 Februari 2010

9.ooam - 1.00 pm OSCE (klinikal) Perubatan Dalaman 1

1 Mac 2010

OSCE Perubatan Dalaman 1

2 Mac 2010

OSCE Perubatan dan Masyarakat III, PPD

OSCE= objective structure clinical examination

__________________________________________________________

Ada beberapa orang doctor yg motivate aku dalam posting kali ni.. Dr Rohaizat dari JKM, Prof Shahrir dari Internal Medicine, Prof Roslan dari Internal Medicine, perlu berusaha untuk tidak mengecewakan mereka.

“Dan Tuhanmu berfirman : Berdoalah kamu kepada-Ku, nescaya akan Ku-perkenankan bagimu. Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang enggan untuk beribadah kepada-Ku pasti akan masuk neraka dalam keadaan hina-dina.” {Al-Ghaafir (40) : 60}

Doa lah ape patut..

Pada rakan seperjuangan aku.. buat yang terbaik.. habis maut lah biar berdarah hidung (over plak haha)

Gudluck semua..

Thanks :) Salam

Tetibe mane ntah gambar ni datang.. publish aje la

2010-02-07T23:16:00.005+08:00

+Safety first+

2010-02-04T23:03:00.004+08:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Lagu lama tetibe tingat nak dengar balik.. emo gile lagu ahaha currently using Winamp again selepas lama sedih dengan pencapaian winamp yg agak lembap..

Long case with prof oteh yg bz tak tau lagi bila dia nak buat test... argh tension2

exam in 3 weeks time.. in preparation mode.. doa lah ye aku pass sume exam2 ni.. nak naek taun 4 huhu

selamat berjaga diri ya sahabat2 diluar sana..
n for those who will also have a short case, long case, mid semester exam, or any test involving ur academic perfrmnce.. good luck.. do the best..

:) salam

Apa ni?

2010-01-30T14:44:00.003+08:00

aku malas lah nak komen lebih2..
semua da baligh keluar darah tiap2 bulan, mimpi basah2..
kalau nak buat sesuatu pikir dulu boleh?
aku panas sket sebab ni da kait dengan ajaran agama aku..
punya la dok promote agar tutup aurat bagi lengkap.. mai2 hampa buat macam ni..

bukan tak boleh bersuara.. mahasiswa patut bersuara..
bukan tak boleh join demonstrasi ke ape.. (aku join xpe pulak haha tapi bukan dalam uni la kan) kata berkumpul secara aman..

TAPI yang perempuan kena la igt batasan.. satgi kata Islam tindas perempuan pulak.. jaga adab di mana pon.. hampa tu senang kena fitnah..bukan sahaja fitnah pada diri saja.. ni dah tahap fitnah agama sendiri..

bila dah jadi camni aku tak tau hukum perempuan menghadiri tempat2 macam ni dah.. Hidir Al Hafiz apa hukum dia? satgi kata aku buat hukum sendiri lak.. doctor boleh bawa keluar ubat saja..

Jaga akhlak.. nasihat pada diri aku juga..

kata bawa suara mahasiswa, suara keramat, tapi mcm ni punya akhlak takdak sapa mau dengar suara hampa la..

aku nak membebel panjang juga, satu pasal streets riot ni, satu pasal didikan agama dari bawah.. tapi mmg panjang sket.. malas lagi skang ni..

ingat bukan agama kita yang menjaga kita tapi biar kita yang menjaga agama kita...

salam..

Khabar rival kita

2010-01-29T01:56:00.002+08:00

Pro-Aspirasi kuasai semula UM
KUALA LUMPUR, 28 Jan: Kumpulan Pro Mahasiswa (Pro-M) Universiti Malaya gagal mempertahan kerusi mereka untuk mendapat majoriti dalam Majlis Pimpinan Pelajar (MPP) apabila tewas di tangan kumpulan Pro-Aspirasi.

Dalam keputusan yang diumum lewat petang tadi, Pro-M hanya mendapat 17 kerusi berbanding Pro Aspirasi atau Penggerak, 21 kerusi, manakala bebas pula berjaya memperoleh 3 kerusi.

Keputusan itu sekaligus menyaksikan Pro-Aspirasi kembali merampas MPP kampus itu setelah dimenangi Pro-M pada pilihan raya kampus tahun lalu.

Pengumuman keputusan petang tadi dibuat Naib Canselor Prof Datuk Ghauth Jasmon di Dewan Tunku Canselor (DTC) dihadapan penyokong kedua-dua kumpulan.

Pro-M bagaimanapun mengemukan beberapa bantahan sewaktu tempoh bantahan dan rayuan dibuka selepas pengumuman dibuat.

Antara bantahan tersebut termasuklah berkait gangguan sistem undian beberapa jam dan mengganggu sekurang-kurangnya keputusan di tiga kolej.

Kejadian itu menyebabkan Pro-M meragui keputusan yang diumumkan.

Pihak pengurusan pilihanraya bagaimanapun memberitahu hanya akan menjelaskan berkaitan bantahan itu esok.

D

Pada tahun lalu, Pro-M memperoleh 19 kerusi manakala Penggerak mandapat 20 kerusi.

Bagaimanapun Pro-M berjaya membentuk kabinet MPP apabila dua calon bebas yang menang menyatakan sokongan kepada kumpulan mereka.

Tahun in merupaka kali pertama sistem undian elektronik, e-undi dilaksanakan di kampus tersebut.

Ianya bagaimanapun ditentang hebat khususnya kumpulan Pro-M yang mendakwa sistem tersebut terdedah kepada manipulasi dan penyelewengan.

Penyokong masing-masing dilihat mula membanjiri DTC seawal jam 5.30 petang sejurus waktu pengundian tamat.

Kedua-dua kumpulan mereka diasingkan sebelah menyebelah tempat duduk bahagian atas dewan dengan dikawal pasukan keselamatan universiti.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Kerusi Fakulti Perubatan tahun 3,4,5 telah dimenangi oleh Farih Najihah dan kerusi tahun 1 dan 2 oleh Adik Pompuan (tak kenal) daripada pro-M .. tahniah kepada beliau iaitu Fareh yg merupakan geng study group aku juga :) hehe moga membawa perubahan.. insyAllah doa aku agar urusan beliau dipermudahkan.

.khabarnya UKM aspirasi memenangi 20 kerusi dan pro-M memenangi 15 kerusi.. bagus lah dah boleh bentuk kerajaan.. moga membawa perubahan pada UKM juga.. all the best dan tahniah yang menang. yang tak menang bukan bererti reformasi anda terhenti di situ.. teruskan perjuangan.. moga dengan ini terbentuk mahasiswa intelek kritikal dan berkebolehan..
salam

Maaf mood PRK lagi haha

2010-01-26T00:17:00.003+08:00

Genap 6 tahun pihak ASPIRASI memegang tampuk pemerintahan PMUKM. Pelbagai akriviti dan program telah dinjurkan oleh Pihak PMUKM pimpinan Aspirasi dalam usaha menjaga kebajikan dan menonjolkan CITRA dan ASPIRASI Mahasiswa dan UKM. Walau bagaimanapun pihak PMUKM pimpinan Aspirasi sering disoal dan dituduh oleh pihak-pihak yang tidak bertanggungjawab tentang sumbangan dan kebajikan yang dilakukan sepanjang sesi 2008/2009 yang lepas. Pihak Aspirasi dengan sukacita hendak maklumkan bahawa, pihak kami bukan terdiri dikalangan pelajar-pelajar yang mengikut resmi ayam, bertelur sebiji riuh sekampung. Walau bagaimanapun disenaraikan tentang sebahagian aktiviti program yang dianjur dan dilaksanakan oleh PMUKM pimpinan Aspirasi

Tahun 2009

(Aktiviti Kebajikan Mahasiswa/i)

9 Feb. - Lawatan Kebajikan PMUKM ke

Kolej Tun Syed Nasir, UKM bertemu

pengurusan Kolej. (Permasalahan Kolej)

7 Feb.- Pra-Majlis Perundingan Pemimpin

Pelajar Kebangsaan (MPPK)

6-9 Mac-Majlis Penghargaan AJK Pesta

Konvokesyen UKM.

26 Mac - Mesyuarat bersama Jaksa-Jaksa Kolej

Kediaman UKM. (Kemudahan Kolej)

31 Mac - Mesyuarat bersama Persatuan Mahasiswa

Fakulti-Fakulti UKM.

1 April - Seminar Isu Palestin

7 April - Mesyuarat Bersama Persatuan Anak

Negeri.

7-9 April - Mesyuarat Penggubalan Akta

Tatatertip Pelajar.

9 April - Mesyuarat bersama Urusetia HEPA

UKM.

16 April - Solat Hajat dan Bacaan Yassin

sempena menghadapi peperiksaan.

17 April - Perjumpaan bersama Timb. Menteri

Pengajian Tinggi.

23 April - Lawatan Muhibbah ke Pusat

Perindustrian dan Pemulihan Bangi.

8 Jun - Majlis Perundingan Pemimpin

Pelajar Kebangsaan (MPPK).

8 Julai - Mesyuarat Bersama Jabatan

Bendahari UKM.

13 Julai - Perjumpaan bersama TNC HEPA

dan Penasihat-penasihat Persatuan

Pelajar.

16 Julai - Mesyuarat Bersama Unit Kenderaan

UKM. (Kemudahan Bas untuk

kegiatan Persatuan Pelajar)

17 Julai - Mesyuarat bersama Jabatan

Pengurusan Pembangunan UKM.

17 Julai - Mesyuarat bersama Pusat

Pembangunan Pelajar (PPP) (Isu

SPKG)

20 Julai - Mesyuarat bersama Unit Keselamatan

UKM, Wisma Aman. (Isu Saman dan

Kecurian di UKM)

23 Julai- Sesi pertemuan Excp PMUKM

6 ogos bersama Exco-exco Jaksa Kolej.

27 Julai - Mesyuarat bersama Jabatan

Perkhidmatan Pelajar (JPPel).

7 Ogos - Mesyuarat Bersama Naib Canselor

12 Ogos - Sesi Dialog TNC HEPA bersama

Mahasiswa Istimewa UKM

26 Ogos - Mesyuarat Kebajikan Ketua Kelab

Tiong Hwa Kolej-kolej Kediaman.

(Program dan Aktiviti PMUKM Tahun 2009)

22 Jan - Karnival Ang Pow UKM 2009

15 Feb - Antologi Cerpen dan Sajak Bahasa

Tamil ke-12 UKM.

22 Feb - Kem Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar

Tiong Hwa Kebangsaan.

26 Feb - International Conference About

Youth and Terrorism

28 Feb - Karnival Kesihatan, Kesenian dan

Kebudayaan Kuala Lumpur (4KL).

6 Feb - Kursus Pengurusan Organisasi MPP

Pelajar IPTA 2009.

21 Mac - Kursus Asas MS ISO 9001:2008

3 April - Lawatan Bersamamu Sahabat UKM

2009.

12 April - Pertandingan Memancing dengan

kerjasama Persatuan Anggota

Keselamatan UKM.

14 April - Bengkel Keselamatan Jalanraya

UKM

17 April - Karnival Komuniti Lestari UKM

2009.

15 Mei - Konvensyen Majlis Perwakilan

Pelajar IPTA Kebangsaan 2009

22 Mei - Persidangan Sukan IPTA UKM 2009.

30 Mei - Hari Masyarakat Sihat Pesta

Konvokesyen ke 37, UKM.

3 Jun - Student Leadership Convention 2009

5 Jun - Program Silang Budaya dengan

kerjasama Pertubuhan Wanita

Kebangsaan (NCWO)

25 Jun - Majlis lawatan Rasmi DYMM Yang

Di-Pertua Besar Negeri Sembilan ,,

Canselor UKM.

28 Jun - Minggu Mesra Pelajar sesi 2009/2010

3 Julai - Kursus Pemantapan Organisasi

Chainese Community of Student

Committee UKM 2009.

21 Julai - Lawatan Muhibbah Inter-U ke

Universiti Pendidikan Sultan Idris

(UPSI).

25 Julai - Hari Intraksi bersama Pelajar Tahun

Satu Tiong Hua UKM.

3 Ogos - Karnival Konvo ICT, Pesta

Konvokesyen Ke 37, UKM.

13 Ogos - Bersama Komuniti Nelayan 2009

15 Ogos - Majlis Konvokesyen UKM

10 Sep - Majlis berbuka Puasa dan Majlis

Kesyukuran sempena Kemerdekaan

UKM.

11 Sept - Karnival Tanglung UKM 2009

20 Sept - Pesta Buku UKM 2009

4 Sept - Majlis Makan Malam Alumni

UKM.

18 Okt. - Pelancaran Sahabat Satu Malaysia

Dis - Kempen Kebajikan ke

Rumah Anak Yatim dan

Warga Emas.

Kepada warga UKM yang di hormati, ini adalah sebahagian daripada Aktiviti dan Program PMUKM Pimpinan Aspirasi sepanjang tahun .2009. Pada sudut pandangan PMUKM pimpinan Aspirasi tidak perlu menghebohkan semua perkara yang dilaksanakan, namun paling penting pada pelaksanaan dan penganjuran ialah kesan atau manfaat yang diperolehi oleh pihak pelajar semua. Tidak perlu mengetuk TIN KOSONG, walaupun bunyinya kuat namun di dalamnya kosong. Setakat 3 atau 4 orang berjumpa dengan mana-mana pegawai dan mengambil gambar petanda perjuangan bukanlah menjadi amalan PMUKM pimpinan ASPIRASI. Pada prinsip Aspirasi lebih mementingkan hasil dan manfaat yang diperolehi oleh mahasiswa itu lebih penting dari meraih populariti murahan.

Pihak kami bukanlah berhasrat menyenaraikan semua aktiviti untuk tujuan menunjuk-nunjuk tetapi terpanggil untuk berbuat demikian untuk mempertahankan pelbagai tuduhan dan fitnah kononya PMUKM pimpinan Aspirasi yang lepas tidak melakukan apa-apa untuk mahasiswa.

Pantun nasihat untuk Depaaa..

Pergi ketanjung menjual bayam

Dayung terlepas sampan terapung

Jangan diikut resmi ayam

Bertelur sebiji riuh sekampung

Pantun untuk Semua

Anak Merpati disambar helang

Terbang ke titidi tengah huma

Harimau mati meninggalkan belang

Manusia mati meninggalkan nama

taken from laman Apirasi-UKM

doa aku long case minggu depan.. sorry Hidir Al Hafiz kalau aku ciwi sket.. jangan marah naaa~ hehe nanti kita pi kayak ngan asyraf fauzan.. hehe doa aku exam lagi 3 minggu ni.. takut2.. lately banyak pulak nak kena baca buku..

salam..

Accusations :)

2010-01-25T01:57:00.002+08:00

1. i have been accused. pity me. hehe

2. it is about my previous post on Mari Berubah. as i readily know that i will get an attention of certain readers ( finally my blog have a reader! hehe) by making the post.

3. and my blog has been posted on the wall of my friend's facebook. as this came from a friend so i took it as a criticism. where i should improve and do reflection on myself.

4. he asked for what the changed for as GM which under my beloved friend and brother, Wan Nuruddin had successfully organized few programmes that has been uttered by GM times to times as a HUGE programmes. huhu

5. i really appreaciate the works and programmes that been brought up by MPP Wan.. He is such a nice and good person. but in my opinion such programmes that organised by GM such as Bengkel Salat Untuk Pesakit, which i did attend the programmes, pengurusan kewangan and aku terima nikahnya is too far an easy programmes for PMUKM. it can be organised under certain club. and i am very curious why it didnt organised by our Surau KTDI or JAKSA or sumtin. it is more apropriate and i can say more suitable as PMUKM should see in broader view (in this case just specific only to certain religion and people) which not localized only to muslim and i can say that it only attracts the muslim but not the non muslim and produce better programmes which can involve all the people. but after all they did produce programmes which i dont.

6. if i am part of GM if la.. which i dont think i will.. i will organise and inter religion discussion. between christians and islams. i think that is most important. recently we heard that there are a lot of problems giving rise to inter religion tense. and by having this kind of programmes will put all the people be it islam, christian and budism on understanding each other. ingat. celebrate the diversity. and this will attracts all other people to have a listen on what actually Islam is and one of a way of dakwah. isnt it? kalau betol2 nak dakwah la.. tapi kalau politik semata tak payah la..

6. i always see things in broader view (self claim statement okay hehe) i dont do any programmes.. but instill the ideas of having inter- university programmes in my juniors trough programmes from other club. that is one of my manifesto after all. if PMUKM under me yet to produce programmes i should think twice as this will burden all my juniors. 2nd and 1st year as they have to join colleges KTSN programmes in order to collect merit to get a room in college. there are a LOT of programmes involving PERSIAP and AMSA.. more more programe will just create tense for them. ive been in pre clinical years before and undergone trauma on handling many programmes with a study burden which tracking me from time to time. and that made me feel that i dont want to create any programmes but instill the idea of my manifesto by programmes organised by other club.

7. but im very sure ASPIRASI team like Miezah, Azmeer, and Helmi did very good programmes but yet not all medical student could join as they are limited by their study burdens. it is not their fault after all.

8. okay i am sucks on politics actually. because i can see that politics need to sell ur goods to other people. i dont sell or tell other people what the good things i did. as it is forbidden for me. and that is why ive been accused to not making any contribution to my beloved voters. i just wanted to ask. who is the JAKSA head of KTSN now? isnt he from our medical faculty? and i can say there is no problem on penempatan di KTSN tahun ini. ramai yang boleh tinggal di kolej. im not sure how many percent. better ask him straight forward. but better during my time where only few of us qualified to stay in college.

9. as PMUKM i would like to make it clear that u have to work for the people and also for the faculty and college. as KTSN problems are settled by my fellow friends in KTSN, i tried very hard to settle problems in KTDI which i dont have to mention what. but it is really difficult. i will ask the next successor to help if ASPIRASI win. huhu. i also try to settle any problems related to the faculty and as in my previous post i mentioned that i only help them to bring any matters to the higher authority. but it seems that they could settled it with the help of our beloved TDA.

9. btw my friend also stated about the MoU. i agreed the most. very helpful as it helps to organised all the clubs and coordinate things together. but it is just a continues job held by PMUKM before which is very sure an ASPIRASI.

10. yet the point i want to bring here is people dont see what u did. they just know how to accuse. but as accusation from friends made it into a clear criticism. i thanks him/her very much.

11. lastly why we have to change???

kita nantikan
Gelombang Biru
minggu depan :) heheh over plak aku..

owh btw the news about UIA Aspirasi menang tu.. i took it from MStar.. u can check the link..bukan dengar2.. im sorry if i was wrong.. takyah la cakap aku tipu.. huduh sgat aih kalau aku menipu hehe..

take care every one selamat mengundi..

sedikit gula2 dari Shohib Arrumi..

SEORANG ahli hikmah berkata: Sifat orang yang mengenali Allah ada enam:
1.Jika ia ingat kepada Allah ia berbangga;
2.Jika ingat kepada dirinya, ia merendah diri;
3.Jika ia melihat ayat Allah (al-Quran) ia mengambil iktibar;
4.Jika ingin bermaksiat, ia menahan diri;
5.Jika ingat kemaafan Allah ia gembira dan
6.Jika ingat dosanya, ia terus memohon keampunan Allah.

Seorang ahli hikmah lain ketika ditanya: “Apakah tanda taubat diterima Allah?
Jawabnya, ada empat tanda iaitu:
1.Putus hubungan dengan kawan yang tidak baik (jahat) dan bersahabat dengan orang salih;
2.Menghentikan maksiat sebaliknya rajin melakukan perintah Allah;
3.Hilang rasa kesenangan dunia di hatinya, lalu selalu ingat kesusahan di akhirat

salam..

Mari berubah!

2010-01-23T21:14:00.002+08:00

Calon Pro-Aspirasi Kuasai Pilihan Raya UIA

Oleh AU YEONG HOW

PETALING JAYA: Calon-calon Pro-Aspirasi menguasai pilihan raya kampus Universiti Islam Antarabangsa Malaysia (UIAM) bagi sesi pemilihan 2009/2010 semalam.

Di kampus Gombak, 13 calon kumpulan berkenaan menang berbanding tiga calon Pro-Mahasiswa.

Sementara di kampus Kuantan, kumpulan tersebut memenangi satu kerusi, Bebas (dua) manakala lapan lagi belum dapat ditentukan kedudukannya kerana masalah tertentu.

Timbalan Rektor Hal Ehwal Pelajar UIAM, Profesor Dr Nik Ahmad Kamal Nik Mahmod berkata, tiga kuliyyah diisytiharkan menang tanpa bertanding.

Menurutnya, kuliyyah berkenaan ialah Kuliyyah Undang-Undang dan Kuliyyah Seni Bina di kampus Gombak manakala Kuliyyah Pergigian di Kuantan.

Katanya, ini bermakna secara keseluruhan, terdapat 18 kerusi dipertandingkan di kampus Gombak sementara di kampus Kuantan, 11 kerusi.

"Daripada 29 kerusi di kampus Gombak, 18 yang dipertandingkan. Yang lain menang tanpa bertanding.

"Ada empat kerusi pelajar-pelajar antarabangsa yang tidak dipertandingkan. Di Gombak, ada 10 kerusi daripada lima fakulti," katanya kepada mStar Online di sini hari ini.

Sebanyak 6,938 pelajar atau 59 peratus mengundi daripada 11,760 yang layak bagi pilihan raya kali ini. Undi rosak pula sebanyak 115.

Sementara itu, Nik Ahmad berkata, lapan kerusi dipertandingkan di empat fakulti.

"Dua kerusi (Kuliyyah Pergigian) dan satu kerusi antarabangsa juga tidak dipertandingkan," ujarnya.

Mengulas mengenai kejayaan calon Pro-Aspirasi dalam pilihan raya kampus kali ini, Nik Ahmad Kamal berkata, pihak universiti tidak mengiktiraf kejayaan mana-mana gabungan kerana itu adalah persepsi para pelajar.

Jelas beliau, secara realiti, UIAM tidak mengiktiraf anggota gabungan mana-mana pihak kerana semua calon yang bertanding dilihat memperjuangkan kebajikan para pelajar.

Taken from MStar

Tahniah kepada Muhammad Shauqi Bin Suhaimi kerana telah memenangi kerusi fakulti perundangan UIA..

KTDI bila lagi??? fakulti perubatan perlukan perubahan!Undi Pro - Aspirasi.. jangan lagi ditipu oleh GM..

The end of 2009

2010-01-05T00:06:00.005+08:00

1. Alhamdulillah we are already in 2010 with a new spirit and new goal. Currently im in medical posting. Busy with teaching and all i can say that i also fell in love with this posting. a lot patient to be clerk, new symptoms to be discovered, new physical examination can be practice. as usual a lot to be read.

2. it is now the time where i have to get over with all my co curricular works. close the book that ive started to jot all the journey about the life beside of being a medical student since 2008/2009 session. n now i am nobody.

3. starting with PMUKM. i really had a very memorable experience with them. i admit that i didnt give enough cooperation in PMUKM much. as busy coping with studies. but during my involvement, meeting with them, i really feel that the friendship bond is easily created.

4. as im making invlvment with them, there are really dedicated on performing their duties. as PMUKM and also as MPP. they understand my condition. the opposition keep claiming that us being the voice ONLY for universities and 'balaci' of the universities is clearly not true. they speak on behalf of the students. i can observe them doing their job perfectly and some of them even sacrifice their year of studies just to help to improve their faculty and student. and as i expected, most of them also are religious people.

5. that is what i also wanted to do. long ago. but i failed. as i am not the one that blaming others for my failures. i want to put that as my limitation of me myself being a medical student. where i think my degree in medical faculty of UKM is more important.

6. i would like to give my appreciation to my colleagues in PMUKM Aspirasi as you guys are understanding, though we were not always being together, but i can feel our power on voicing the students problem. bring all the problems to the Vice Chancellor on behalf of me as im busy in the hospital is really appreciated. i love you guys. thank you.

7. i am really sure that people will ask. what did shamil do to our faculty? we didnt even see him coming to KTSN. hehe. as usual these issues will be brought out by my juniors as apparently an opposition.

8. i dont have my own committee. that is my problem at first but Alhamdulillah i also been elected for Vice President of AMSA. and i can say all the ideas and things i wanted to do as PMUKM i had poured it inside the club. because we have such a good committee members.

9. As the opposition trying to make their programmes with the help of our medical faculty student council, i try to put my ideas trough other organisation. and Alhamdulillah. positive.

10. Through the club i proposed that we should have the intervarsity programmes. we should have more programes involving other university as to get our exposure to outside increase. to make people know UKM. know about UKM medical faculty students are all capable of everything not only in studies. And inter-varsity games is successfully held. i am very proud of them the organisers. East Asian Medical Conference also will be held in HUKM and being handled by us UKM student. it is not easy to compete with other countries to be the one that organise EAMSC. Alhamdulillah UKM medical student from Malaysia managed to get chance to handle this event. Thanks to my senior for fighting for us.

11. This year AMSA also managed to have exchange programmes with medical student from oversea. this is also not so easy programe to be organised as it involve different curriculum for different universities. we have to contact them only and make arrangement trough email. i can say that all of these are for the students. but i bet they didn't see all this.

11. as im not really help much in the students welfare but i certainly do understand that PERSIAP has try to improve and help the students through their programmes a lot. it is just the students cooperation needed. which i can see that they only know how to condemn but not to support. sometimes i did feel sad for their President as some programes organised by them not really get much involvement from student. on behalf of welfare i just can bring the unsolve problem such as from JAKSA to the higher authorities as i dont want to interfere with their works as both of the societies have different objectives and mission but also covering the welfare of the students.

12. as usual, people didnt judge you from the ideas. they want we ourself be the director of the program and so that we can claim it is our program. it is not so true though. it is just a perspective of most of the students. in a broader view it is like Dr. M implementation of development to Malaysia. it is his idea that we talk of.

12. the only thing that i cant help is for the nursing student. therefore i would like to apologies for not helping you guys much. i try to make involvment of the nursing students in each of my programes as much as i can. but as PERSIAP and AMSA only covering the medical students i cant do much. PPK is another society that face a lot of problem in making programmes and all. but i also proud of them that they also held the first International Nursing Conference here in HUKM. i heard that it was successful. i am sorry as i was too busy to help. but i did ask them to come to my 4KL programmes last time. at least i try to make them involve with the others.

13. and today is the last meeting with AMSA board. we were discussing on how to elect our new committee member and spread out the form. i really enjoy being in AMSA. i am not sure that i still can be in AMSA or not after this as i have been proposed by other authorities to be part of them. What ever it is i want AMSA to continue all the programmes that were held during 2008/2009 session as annual programmes.

14. with this i also want to make an apologise to all that i cant satisfied of. sorry for everything. thanks for all your cooperation.

gula-gula dari youtube :)

Lompat atau paut

2009-12-20T15:39:00.002+08:00

A university is made up of its students and its lecturers.

As a lecturer I am very proud of my students. When a student excel I rejoiced but when a student fail I weep and cry. However, I will be extremely inspired to see how my student handled both situation. The victorious student will still be humble like the paddy stalk and the failed student will learn to rise from the ashes like the proud phoenix. In this tough university both for students and lecturers alike, one needed each other.

In UKM the tests are meant to bring the best out of each student. The number of failures do not mean many but the quality of the failures outshine many. Let us not feel that this is a comparison with others but a standalone in its own right.

We must be proud and stand tall even when many are blowing terrible telltales around us. Blowing false news and demoralizing efforts across our minds. Senior people and junior people alike and some of us are actually believing and putting forth words that pierce the most sincere of teachers.

Remember my beloved students, how strong you handle the most darkest and gravest hour through the worst fire and storm will strengthened your hearts and loyalty to your university. Your mind must be strong and never turn nor falter. Never succumb to whispers of weakness and loss by your unseen or obvious enemies. Please unite and never, ever lose failth.

UKM will prevail, the university of the rakyat will prevail, U its student will prevail. Let others beware. We are coming and reaching for the heavens. Insya Allah.

Prof Mohd Shahrir Mohamed Said: Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia Medical Faculty: An Ode to its students.

i will do my best insyAllah
maaf tak sempat nak menaip panjang2, beberapa post da sekerat je tulis.. not in the mood..

take care everyone

Hikmah Kembara

2009-12-15T01:39:00.003+08:00

Di sini kau berdiri
berpijak di bumi
menjunjung langit yang luas
Pernahkah kau berfikir
alam penuh rahsia
anugerah yang maha esa

Berjalan,bermusafirlah
melihat kebesaran tuhan
yang diciptakan untuk
mereka yang berfikir
dan bersyukur di atas nikmat
dan kurnianya
nilai harganya,iman dan taqwa
bagi hamba yang setia

Tiada beza warna,kulit atau rupa
yang ada hanya insan yang lemah
dengan satu tujuan mencari keredhaan
dan berbudi di bumi tuhan

Fikirkanlah..dimana arah kita
Renungilah..hikmah kembara
menuju kasih
buktikan cinta kita..
kepadanya..
ini kembara kita

Berjalan dan bermusafirlah
untuk melihat kebesarannya
lantas berfikir dan bersyukur
diatas nikmat dan kurnianya
nilai harganya iman dan taqwa
bagi hamba yag setia

Post Hoc LSD

2009-12-14T06:50:00.006+08:00

Salam..

The JKM

Alhamdulillah dah habis posting JKM.. da masuk hari isnin.. bila suma orang p kerja.. ak plak dok bilik dekat Kolej Tun Dr. Ismail ni melepak2.. bukan apa.. tenang fikiran mungkin. melakar strategi untuk posting seterusnya. Medical Posting. posting yang mencabar dan banyak bacaan. huuhhh..

Kini ak merindu tg. karang pulak. Jika o&g posting paling bermakna bagi ak, JKM ni ak rasa posting paling memberi pengajaran erti bersosial. penuh pengajaran. di sana jalan tak sesak, udara nyaman, tak banyak masalah, petang2 boleh main, mlm2 makan bersama. rindu ketika tgl di asrama dulu.

first time masuk ke rumah sewa dulu kami reramai pergi memberli belah di Billion tg.karang. ak rasa tempat beli belah kedua terbesar lepas TESCO. jangan memain tg. karang ada TESCO woo. kat billion beli belah makanan, barang2 rumah, sabun baru, cermin baru, sikat pon ada yg baru nak beli. haha. sungguh mengingatkan ku zaman silam.

di JKM ni kami makan bersama, bbq bersama, main bersama, kayak bersama, kalut siapkan report sama2, kalut masuk kampung kuar kampung sama2, rindu lah yang lain. lepas posting JKM ni ak dapat rasa hubungan erat dengan rakan2 posting. TAK KIRA CINA INDIA MELAYU. tu yang paling ak banggakan. Alhamdulillah takdak crita curi tulang besar2 mcm bdk2 posting sblm ni. curi tulang sikit2 tu biasa lah. namun ak nampak mereka semua faham tujuan ke tg.karang ni.

perjalanan posting kali ni pon tidak seperti bdk2 Posting JKM yang dulu, yg dengarnya banyak rileks. hehe kami rileks dan kami enjoy bersama. terharu.

itu tugasan tak formal. tugasan formal pula banyak juga. di sini kami perlu siapkan beberapa report. basically kami di bhagikan kepada 3 kumpulan. 1- general survey 2-specific survey 3-intervention program.

general survey ni geng yang akan conduct survey kesihatan yang telah diberi siap sedia soalan2 surveynya. dorang ni akan mengetuai dlm conduct survey kesihatan di kampung. time ni lah kena amek blood pressure, tinggi, berat ape semua tu. kemudian akan dipersembahkan dengan data statistic. dan laporan. banyak jugaklah kan nak kena siapkan tu sebab populasi beribu riban jugak.

kedua specific survey. owh ak ketua untuk geng specific survey ni. macam biasa tugas ketua bahagikan dan organise. alhamdulillah specific survey kami dipuji doctor. tajuk yang dibawa ialah H1N1. survey ni perlu disiapkan dengan satu proposal dan soalan2 survey. kemudian masuk kampung tanya dorang dan sediakan data statistic bersama report untuk dihantar kepada doctor.

dan ketiga ialah geng intervention. dorang ni akan baca statistic analisis kami dan membuat program untuk meningkatkan pengetahuan tentang h1n1. penat juga lah kena pegi balik dari rumah ke rumah untuk bagi pendedahan secara manual. e.g cara basuh tangan e.t.c

selain dari tu, kat JKM ni kitorang dikehendaki mengikuti fieldwork dari jabatan kesihatan daerah, kelinik desa, kelinik kesihatan dan hospital tg. karang. ni sempoi gak sebab berjalan2 merata2 di tg. karang. jika di jabatan kesihatan derah kami dibawa mengikut unit2 yang ada di bawah jabatan tu. unit vektor (yg tangkap nyamuk aedes tu, bukan aedes je byk gile lg penyakit bawaan vektor, yang ni ak dpat pegi foging, amek slide darah filariasis), unit penyakit berjangkit (ak pergi sekolah check org kene conjuctivitis outbreak), unit makanan (blaja cmana nak amek sample makanan) , unit bakas (unit kawalan alam sekitar dan saliran air, yeke camni, tapi gi masuk kampung tgk tandas2, saliran2 yang dibuat agar alam sekitar terjaga) unit kawalan mutu air ( pegi box tangki air amek sample air, dengan ujian2 tertentu, ph lah and macam2 lagi)

di kelinik dan hospital ak dpt jumpe nurse2 comel (itu je ko tau kan shamil?) hehe takdelah.. ak dpt belajar organisasi di situ. penting bila jadi Medical Officer nanti sebab semuanya akan diarahkan oleh ak sendiri. kalau ak taktau maka tak tau nak suruh nurse tu or check kerja nurse tu nanti. best2 :)

Selain dari tu report2 yang perlu kitorang siapkan :-

- Journal critique
- Laporan Pejabat Kesihatan Daerah
- SOCSO case study
- Reproductive hazard study
- Family case study
- Walktrough survey (survey hazard di tempat kerja, kaetan dengan occupational injury la lebey kurang)
- Diet practikum (belajar diet, nilai2 kalori dalam makanan, diet recall and etc.)

dan lain2.. yg minor2 lagi.. ape2 pon best lah posting ni. good friends, good foods, everything good lah.. ak naik 5 kg kat sini. wah seronok nye.. hehehehe

Guys

Raya Haji

raya haji hari tu ak balik kejap. cuti 4 hari kot. seronok pulak dapat balik penang sbb da lame tak balik. Alhamdulillah hari raya tu sempat gi semayang raya. siot terbangun lambat haha. dan selamat lah seekor kibas di korban kan. pergh kibas tak mcm comel lak kan haha. daging kibas ni satu dia tak berbau mcm daging kambing biasa. so sedap lah.

so lepas dpt daging korban skali ibu suruh ak organise bbq. wah da la baru lepas bbq party kat tg.karang, kat umah bbq lagi? ok on je kan. kibas bakar lak sape tak goyang jack haha. dan ak buat marinade seniri atas resipi mak ngah.. byk gak lah kibas ak marinade, skali ngan ayam. sedap juga ak rasa2 tu huhu.

malam nya ak jemput rakan2 sekolah permatang bertam. ramai juga hadir walaupon lambat. tapi alhamdulillah habis semua. huuu lepas dari bbq tu pulak bdk2 tu ajak kuar. hmm ak pon nak kena balik ke tg. karang dah esok nye tu. dorang bw g karaoke.

perggghhh memang lah ak slalu karaoke suare cam david archuletta kan? erghh skali tesangkut time lagu salim.. hahaha hancus terus suara ak.. tapi seronok lah dpt beramai2 nyanyi. malam tu asyraf (student architect upm) anas (petro, utp) naim ( multimedia, cosmo) apaq (engine) fawaz (electronic) azri (engine usm) putra (electrical) da cam nak pecah bilik tu kot..

ape2 pon ak beterima kasih gak la sbb time tu pon dok serabut kepala ngan report2 melambak. harap kita kan kekal bersahabat. selamanya :)

Jumpa lagi :)

proEvents

2009-11-10T23:02:00.004+08:00

Dulu

Sekarang :)

tq dzura tlg amek pic ni.. menang pic of the month :P
brought to you by JKM
Jabatan Kesihatan Masyarakat
Fakulti Perubatan
Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia

maaf sedikit ciwi

Among the stars

2009-10-20T01:41:00.003+08:00

Salam..

Alhamdulillah semua dah berakhir,exam semester 1, posting surgery n o&g, cuti semester, result, bagai kitar hidup dlm dunia realiti ini, yang bermula pasti berakhir. bukan 'bagai' tapi satu kenyataan. yang mekar pasti layu, yg cantek bersih pasti kerepot kering, yang bernafas pasti terhenti. yang bermula pasti berakhir.

kini ak mula kan langkah baru dalam posting JKM. posting yg ak minat juga lah. Jabatan Kesihatan Masyarakat @ public health. dalam posting ini ak akan belajar mengenai disease dan juga manusia bukan dari konteks penyakit itu sahaja namun dalam menghentikan penyebaran penyakit kepada masyarakat dan manusia lain. hari ini adalah hari pertama. hari2 mendatang mungkin penuh cabaran. ramai yg labelkan ini posting yg menyeronokkan. macam satu percutian. ak pula tidak mahu ambil mudah dalam posting ni. doctor yg byk inspired ak ada dalam posting ni n i have to do the best supaya tidak mengecewakan dia.

minggu pertama posting ni di isi dengan syarahan2 dari pagi hingga petang. minggu depan kami akan di hantar ke kampung2. di sana perlu di adakan research dan juga pelbagai kempen kesihatan. menarik. ak terfikir mungkin personaliti ak yg suka bergaul dan berkawan ini menyebabkan ak tertarik dengan posting kali ini. posting yg melibatkan interaksi secara langsung dengan org ramai. orang kampung. orang awam.

bila sebut pasal guru feveret ni tersentuh ak dengan satu panggilan yg ak rasa sangat mulia. guru. di sekolah dulu pengajian di tingkatan satu adalah sebuah kitab yg berjudul 'taalim mutaalim toriq taalim' satu kitab nipis yg membincangkan tajuk yg sgt penting dalam menuntut ilmu. mengenai guru dan pelajar. di tingkatan satu kami di ajar mengenai adab dengan guru secara amat detail. bagaimana taraf nya guru, berkat nya belajar dan berguru.

ak amat terkesan dengan pembelajaran ini. sehingga kini jika ak ingin berbicara dengan seorang guru ak akan berdebar. ak percaya yg doa seorang guru amat mustajab. ak takut jika ak terbuat mereka marah dan terdetik di hati mereka perkara yg tidak baik pada ak. rasanya ak kini lebih berani nak tegur guru2 ku. jika dulu bertentang mata pon takut. tidak kira lah dia guru apa. namun guru yg memberi ak ilmu cukup ak sanjungi. ak bawa taraf mereka ini sedikit rendah dari ibu bapa ku sendiri. ak sayang mereka seperti ak sayang ibu bapa ku. jika berkata2 pasti suara ku sgt rendah. takut sgt tertinggi suara. seperti ak hormati ibu bapa ku. paling takut jika dimarahi. menyebabkan ak lebih suka berdiam diri bila berhadapan dengan mereka.

tapi kini segalanya laen. di lecture hall, di kelas2 tutorial student rilek je melunjur kaki kepada guru. bercakap dengan guru bagai kan kawan. bukan tak setuju tapi ntah.. hmmm buat diri ak juga yg kadang2 lupa.. jagalah adab dgn guru moga mendapat berkat dalam belajar :)

and yes.. i really appreciate for those who make teaching as their profession... and i have this strange jealous feeling to them.. pelik.. hehe i really enjoy teaching others.. when our friend tryin to search the way to get an answer and we are there to help them.. waahh like a doctor that can solve their patients probs..sort of relieve.. a relieve to help others..

though i have a mission to be a specialist.. why not a specialist and a lecturer?.. indah rasanya .. hehe and i have to complete my degree first.. it is a long way to go.. doa kan lah yee

sorry have to go now.. nanti sambung merepek..

Polycarbonate 2.13Ghz, 160GB

2009-09-13T15:23:00.004+08:00

Salam..

And the day has come again.. where everyone will b judge based on their knwledge and competency in their certain learning process..

not many of us have a chance to study in this so called learning institution in malaysia.. some will get scholar and study oversea, some have to fly abroad to search fr education.. some have to pay thousands, some dont even have a chance to step into school and have a proper learning process.. like those yg tgl pendalaman who still learn frm their ancestors to survive in this little world.. to survive in their own envormnt and life.. but we the one that is very lucky to get a chance to tap the keyboard bloging, press on screen phone without digits and even watch movies on a big screen.. what a fortunate life.. some might say that this is our own hard work our parents hard work so that we can achieve all these beautiful journey of our life.. but the reality is? it is all from Him the Almighty.

malaysia recently has been noble to b the most preferred study destination.. wow everyone from outside now wanted to have education in malysia.. syabas.. and after about 50 years there are still malaysian that dint knw how to read and calculate.. again those who lived in out-circuit .. but i shall say there were improvement in our education system.. which after years holding the government.. hmm ade la juga kan? hehe

pe gua melalut nih..

so my final exam will b about in two weeks time.. the pressure is not there yet.. and raya is always will be a good friend to it..

ive been asked by these frequent questions before raya like i always had before such as.. baju raya da beli blom? baju raya warne apa? raya mana tahun ni? da shopin baju raya belom? and all i can say is i dont know.. i just dont feel what i felt before.. the eagerness to celebrate raya..

yeah i havnt had my shopin raya yet though the list is quite long.. luckily my mum have prepared my baju melayu.. gile manje kan.. haha so this year i will celebrate my raya in Greenwood Gombak, going back to the concrete village.. while everybody else get to see coconut tree at their hometown, the life of kampung, sawah bendang, pelita, nasi kandar and all.. i can see KLCC during raya and might be spending the last night before raya at Danau Kota..

hmm it has changed a lot, life, family, friends, me myself, and it is expected.. u want it or not.. it will come someday.. where u have to stand alone without anyone helping u with a totally different envirment, but God made human to be flexible and adaptation towards this new enviromnt will push u to go on and continue with life..

so with this several days left before raya i would like to seek forgiveness frm all of u guys if my writing might hurts anyone, if my words did insult any of u, im just saying what i think is right.. n i certainly know that we r all difernce, we might have various opinions.. after all, thats made our life colorful rite? huhu and have a bless Hari Raya aidilfitri.. might this a week or two of ramadhan be filled with good deeds and amalan sunnah..

and please pray fr my best in this exam.. this will be my first exam in clinical years.. i have to do good to gain more confidence in continuing this journey.. i dont have anything to ask frm u guys other than that..

Thank you

Masih jauh

2009-09-11T01:12:00.002+08:00

Antara kita tiada rahsia
Susah dan senang tetap bersama
Terpatri namamu
Kau takkan kulupa

Sudah bertahun lama
Kita tidak lagi bersua
Hanya tinggal kenangan
Yang tak mungkin kita lupa

Kirimkan khabar selalu
Seiringan hembusan bayu
Sekadar pengubat rasa rindu dikalbu

Pantas masa berlalu
Meninggalkan kita semua
Tanpa disedari bertambahlah usia kita

Potret lama masih kusimpan
Kubingkaikan kenangan
Hingga terkadangku
Tersenyum sendirian

Oh perjalanan kita masih jauh
Jalanan berliku akan kita tempuh
Imbaslah kenangan semalam jadi azimat
Penguat semangat menempuh masa hadapan
Harapanku kau kan bahagia selalu

Padaku engkau penghibur duka
Pengubat hati resah kecewa
Dikala malamku kau bawa cahaya

Antara kita tiada rahsia
Susah dan senang tetap bersama
Terpatri namamu
Kau takkan kulupa

Perjalanan kita masih jauh
Jalanan berliku akan kita tempuh
Imbaslah kenangan semalam jadi azimat
Penguat semangat menempuh masa hadapan
Harapan ku kau kan bahagia selalu

Sematkanlah bingkisan rindu dikalbu

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Lagu ni pernah ak mainkan dalam slideshow masa penutup minggu penghayatan islam kat skolah dulu

semua exco2 ajk2 yg terdiri dr kawan2 dinaik kan satu2 gambar mereka..

satu memori indah..

kini semua dah membawa diri masing2 ke jalan sendiri.. apa2 pon ak harapkan yg terbaik buat mereka..

hari ni ak terduduk bila perkataan 'fail' dihambur tepat depan muka aku,

salah cuma kecil beri efek amat besar, gara2 fundal hight.. ape bodoh nye salah kan

sedih la juga.. panas pon ada

dalam taklimat exam, shortcase katanya di masukkan dalam markah osce

final exam = theory 35 + continues asestment 30 + osce 35 (shortcase + ujian)

ada peluang lagi insyAllah

joshua ada cerita tentang sorang doctor ni.. graduan ukm.. master ukm.. katanya die penah fail o&g time medical school.. start dari tu die bedendam dengan o&g..

dan kini seorang consultant bhgn o&g.. dan takde sape da yg akan fail kan die lagi..

n im fuckin will not ever give upmerepek skejap.. patut mate koko kot.. okay la cumel jugak

Ramadhan 2009

2009-08-22T13:36:00.001+08:00

Hari ni first ramadhan..

Hari Sabtu 22 august 2009...

Makna nya hari ni da start puasa...

dan start bukak puasa time maghrib..

hari ni indah, hujan turun, sejuk tak macam biasa,

orang kata bila malam lailatul qadar tu, esok nya hari akan teduh, sejuk,

sebab sayap2 malaikat berkibar2 dan semua naik kelangit balik,

tapi lailatul qadar, katanya 10 terakhir ramadhan, tiada siapa tahu

hari ini tenang, kosong, tiada masalah, study selesa, cuma malam ni lah on call,

hari ni juga tetibe rase sunyi, sepi, takde org kat kolej, sbb ak tak kuar bilik kot

tapi mmg ramai balik rumah a.k.a kampung, berbuka bersama keluarga mungkin, tapi kampung ak jauh pulak, nak balik yg dekat pon takdak keta,

family pon di penang sana, takdak family la kot kan

tapi kalau ak balik pon malam ni on call, cmane je kan

takpelah ak rasa hidup ini mmg patut begini, tak sekarang mungkin satu hari nanti,

tapi japgi shauqi nak datang amek pegi umah mak lang, berbuka di sana,

hmm ok la tu kot family juga, minta2 husna ada, tapi mesti rushing sebab mlm ni on call,

haiyoh..

hidup ni penuh dilemma kan

ini rasanya mematang kan kita, membuat kita lebih hebat dan berani dalam membuat keputusan

owh ya.. matang bukan hanya fikir akan bilangan anak masa depan nanti ya.. hehe

bila ramadhan menjelma ni, satu bulan mulia, selalunya ak bersedia,

tapi ntah dari smalam tak tido smpai satu hari, buat keputusan tido selepas isya`

case write up last minute nye pasal,

tapi lepas isya` first tarawikh bulan ramadhan dan ak tak tidor lagi dari smlam,

baring2 je lah kat tilam.. bangun da pukul 10 pagi hari ni,

starting tak brapa cantek ak kira ramadhan kali ni.

takpa ada masa lagi.. quran ada 30 juz, ramadhan ada 30 malam, lailatul qadar ada satu malam,

pandai2 la bahagi masa.

Selamat berpuasa semua, hidupkan sunnah, amalan sunat, solat malam, bersedekah, bacaan quran, di bulan ramadhan ni..

Shauqi da smpai..

Salam.. doa ak cemerlang ye..

Tag laila ~

2009-08-15T02:06:00.004+08:00

Alangkah baik sekiranya anda menulis 25 perkara yang orang tak tahu semasa kecil anda. Dihujung entri, anda harus memilih 5 orang untuk ditag. Anda amat bertuah jika ditag oleh saya sebab saya ingin tahu lebih lanjut tentang zaman comel anda dahulu.

1. dulu tadika omputeh.. telok molek kindergarten.. pastu masuk taska kat pajak song.. time tu da start ada gf woo haha budak tu cumel je.. pastu ada hari persembahan tadika.. ak menari ngan dia.. menari pakai step lagi.. kecik2 tak tau apa lagi hehehe dulu ada kawan baek pakma robin, asyraf ngan helmi.. skang sume da tak tau g mane..

2. Time darjah 3 ak ada jual sticker yang aku buat sendiri.. ak ukir kat atas ketas sticker pastu ak jual.. byk gile untung dpt time tu.. tapi cikgu azmar macam marah ak jual.. so ak pon stop heheh kecik2 da blaja menjual

3. time abes skolah arab ak terus pegi belakang kampung.. panjat pokok pinang smpai ke pucuk then lepak kat atas layan angin tiup..kekiri kenanan.. pastu hujan ak turun balik..dulu slalu main caplong.. gasing.. guli..terbey (lastik) layang, tengteng la.. panjat pokok la paling masyuk.. penah skali jatuh sebab nak lompat dari dahan ke dahan pokok janggus.. nasib tak patah.. tak benafas 2 minit gak ak menahan sakit haha sume game ade musim die.. so maen ikut musim la..

4. dulu malam2 tidor dgn tok.. pastu nanti tok cite pasal pak pandir sblm tido.. pastu cite time die dulu2.. tentera jepun la.. :( sedih nye teringat balik..

5. malam pon kena study.. meja study kat depan ruang tamu so ayah ley tgk ak study.. dulu kena baca buku kecik bahasa ingeris ngan hafal sifir smpai dapat tak dapat kene tibai gile lah tapi adik ar slalu kene haha.. buku2 inggeris kecik tu plak ada tajuk2 puss in boots lah.. jack n bean stalk lah.. cinderella lah.. cite2 inggeris yg budak2 dulu.. pastu kene bace peter n jane.. haha

6. tokwan slalu cite pasal nabi petang2 smpai ak terus terer hehe.. dia dulu ulama.. salah sorang pengasas sekolah arab Daeratul Maarifatul Wataniah Kepala Batas.. cita2 ak dulu pon nak jadi ustaz gak la mcm tok wan.. tp masuk maktab mahmud je mcm ikut line lain.. tok dulu smpai menangis seronok ak dpt masuk maktab mahmud.. tapi parent ak cam tak tau pon skolah tu skolah ape...

haha kalau tgk tv dulu tok wan slalu ckp jgn jadi mcm dorang2 ni nanti masuk neraka ak time kecik2 pon takut laa.. smpai laa skang..

7. time skolah dulu ak agak nakal, masa darjah 2 penah gaduh dengan sorang budak ni name izat adam.. die slalu minta duit kat ak.. ak pe lagi panas ar.. betumbuk depan kelas.. pastu tak puas ak ckp nak jumpa geng lwn geng kat padang skolah.. kitorang pon pegi la ramai2 betumbuk kat padang skolah pulak.. balik2 tu tgk2 rupanya izat adam tu sedara mara aku juga.. merepek betol.. kat skolah slalu gak pukul budak pompuan.. nabilah penah kena pukul haha pastu ak wat dunno.. cikgu azmar tanya ak tak jwb.. senyap jerk.. haha

8. suke wat keje merepek mmg dari kecik.. ak tuka tayar basikal satu besar satu kecik bukan ape just nak merasa naek moto besar.. hehehe ..pastu pernah gak bunuh anak ayam ngan pecahkan telur die tgk anak ayam baru nak idup.. pastu kantoi ngan jiran sebelah.. ak tak mengaku gak aku buat.. tapi ayah mmg tau laa

9. tulis FUCK kat pokok kelapa hahaha ini paling sengal.. ak ada jumpa tin cat ni.. then abang sedara ak ajar ak mencarut.. cakap fuck.. ak pon ngan sempoi nye tulis fuck kat pokok kelapa jiran ak.. pastu kantoi.. time raya kena marah gile lah.. terus takde mood raye time tuu

10. kokurikulum dulu penah jadi pengerusi pbsm.. blaja ikat2 anduh.. rajin gak p pustakaan.. bace buku penyiasat enyd blyton.. lawan gak ngan member sape bace paling banyak.. tapi takde la byk sgt ak bace..

11. time darjah 5 kawan ngan nik adli, azfar ngan sape ntah sorang lagi.. time tu time minat wrestling.. sume org ada nama samaran wrestler.. ak dorang pangel 'The Rock' dengan ayat 'do you ssssmmmmmmmmellllll what the rock! is cookin' hahahha

12. time free2 kat kelas slalu lawan chess ngan cikgu azmar... menang cikgu blanja minum air.. member terer time tu alip, acip terer gak maen chess kadang2 maen batu selambut, congkak ngan dorang, kad tepuk, lawan pemadam, tapi digimon ngan pokemon ar paling hardcore fever.. mmg sume training gile nye sblm maen haha

13. pernah main bola wakil skolah.. susah cari boot sbb kecik n comel sgt eheh pastu cikgu yang ajar bola tu cikgu aziz.. garang gile die ajar, die ajar subjek tanam2 pokok tu.. subjek ape ntah da tak igt..tapi ak pernah skali kena denda kena pakai apron terbalik pastu cabut pokok kat luar haha

14. ada study group ngan laila, nabila, fatin, hafizi kot.. alamk lupe lah.. tapi kawan smpai sekarang sume bejaye2.. petang2 buat latihan sblm upsr.. tapi nyembang je byk.. tp memori dan enjoy lah smpai pmr ngan spm pon kadang kami jmp study skali kan?

15. ak slalu tulis diary dlm bahasa inggeris.. mrs tan la yang suruh tules diary kalau nak terer english.. cikgu english ak yang terbaik prnah ak dpt.. smpai form3 ak tules diary dlm english.. ada la juga improve..skang da tules blog hehe

16. Sslalu ak mengaji quran kat rumah tok ngah.. kadang2 kalau tak pegi, mlm2 baca ngan tok or ibu.. kalau tak reti baca nanti ak akan menangis gile2 sbb tak reti.. geram tol kalau tak dpt bace lancar..

17. kat skolah dulu ada hutan mak minah.. ada rumah buruk blakang skolah.. takut woo nak pegi belakang tu buang sampah.. mesti kena ajak teman pegi buang sampah kat belakang tu.. eee

18. dulu sape jawab byk betol ujian math cikgu azmar dapat meja dok depan.. ak pon slalu ye cik laila dok depan hehe so slalu la meja tuka.. tiap kali tuka org, ak kacau org laen pulak yang duduk tepi ak hehe

19. pernah masuk pertandingan fesyen darjah brapa tak igt.. ak sendiri cadang kat ayah nak pakai baju macam farmer.. punya la p cari baju oshcosh bgosh.. haha smpai ke penang.. tapi tak menang.. sedih gile

20. time skolah arab petang2 ak slalu jd tekong nasyid.. nyanyi lagu brothers teman sejati ar selalu.. time tu suara sedap lagi.. ustaz rasyid ngan ustaz solehudin la yang ajar dulu.. slalu kena cubit perut sbb lari2 dlm kelas..

21. rambut ak dulu lurus gile dan belah tengah... jeles ngan adli sebab rambut dia lagi lawa dari ak.. tapi lagi jeles ngan remoih cikgu azman sbb rambut die mmg akan kekal dari awal smpai die balik keje.. smpai skarang pon ada lagi remoih die.. hehe

22. ak mule kenal ternet time skolah rendah lagi.. da mula maen coding2 mirc n buat laman web.. pastu kena tolong ibu tulis thesis untuk master die.. terus terer tekan keybord takyah tgk keybord pon laju je tules.. (hidung kembang (ak tak reti pon buat idung kembang)hehe)

23. dulu masuk tae kwon do.. terer gak laa p tournament ape.. tp kena berenti sebab balik je training slalu pukul adk.. haish

24. ayah slalu smbut besday ak sblm masuk asrama.. then bile masuk asrama da takde da.. dulu slalu p victoria station la sbb ak slalu mengidam spageti.. gile demand.. pastu dapat adiah.. huh mmg mak ayah kita byk berkorban untuk kita.. kadang2 kita ni je tak perasan dan masih lagi leka.. insaf

25. kat skolah ak pengawas time skolah rendah penolong ketua murid.. dapat 5a.. dapat masuk sekolah sains syed putra tapi tolak sebab nak masuk maktab mahmud ngan aiman n shaukhi... guru besar ngan member2 ramai tak setuju..tp ak rasa decision ini paling bermakna bg ak..

itu kot yang teringat wat mase posting yang sibuk ni..

till then

live life to the fullest :)

Jangan la nangis~

2009-07-23T13:56:00.005+08:00

Salam..

Huh da nak masuk minggu ke tiga dalam posting obstetric & gynecology ni. byk minggu lagi!! dan dalam minggu2 ni ak berharap ak dapat improve ak nye presentation. susah juga sbnr nye. hehe rimas tol

dalam posting kali ni agak banyak perkara yang perlu disiapkan dan dihantar pada masa die. haish posting ni di bahagi kepada beberapa ward.. ward hijau, oren, kuning ngan merah. satu ward dalam 15 org. so ak dapat ward hijau. setiap ward ada consultant dan jadual round mereka tersendiri. ward hijau adalah antara ward yang agak sibuk dan mempunyai consultant yang tegas. huh~ kurang nye senang dapat tekanan lah.. tapi lebih nya dapat belajar byk benda dalam ward hijau. huhu.. dan supervisor ak ialah prof shuhaila.. seorang graduan ukm dan juga master o&g ukm.. ak agak respect sket grad ukm ni so agak malu2 ngan die heheheh cacat~

dalam posting kali ni lagi byk menda yang perlu dicompletekan.. prof shuhaila ni org nye tegas tapi setakat ni ok lagi la.. cuma time ward round tetibe bengis semacam ngan anak2 buah dia.. tp bertempat gak dah mmg salah mmg kena marah la kan hehe menda2 yang perlu di completekan mcm observe deliveries, conduct deliveries, tgk abnormal deliveries, masuk operation theater, vaginal examination, case write up.. partogram ( graph menunjukan progression of labour) n ade lagi lah.. amek2 darah pasang branula n laen2 kerja ward..

pengalaman pertama ak di labour room agak menyentuh hati.. yups Dia maha pencipta yang menciptakan manusia dari setitis mani.. seekor sperma.. yang membentuk segumpal darah.. membentuk tulang benulang.. daging yg kemudian menyeliputi tulang2 dan akhirnya lahir seorang manusia yang punya segala panca indera yang hanya 9bulan yang terikat hanya pada satu tali pusat didalam perut ibu kemudian keluar dari lubang yg kecil mula bernafas pabila keluar dari perut ibu..menangis mula mengeluarkan suara..lalu terbuka liang2 paru2..bernafas di bumi Allah.. ya Allah.. subhanallah.. ak tak mampu mengungkap lebih..

ak dah menjalani beberapa on call.. on call posting ni tak mcm posting surgery.. oncall jam 7pm hingga 7am.. slamat mcm da slalu tak tido mlm2 hehe dan alhamdulillah dapat cope ngan midwife yang agak tidak mesra alam.. namun syukur ak takde krisis though ak cam kadang2 baran gak ngan dorang kan.. tapi nak wat cmane tempat org kan kena behave ar.. huhu..

ak dapat lihat betapa sakitnya ibu meneran keluar baby.. tiada rasa putus asa.. penuh usaha.. dapat juga ak lihat gembira nya seorang ibu bila anak nya dilahirkan.. rasa sakit, darah byk kuar tak langsung dihiraukan.. tidak lekang mata dari senyuman puas melihat baby die menangis..bila ayah mula mendukung dan mengazankan.. rasa resah tadi hilang dan terpancar senyuman gembira..terharu dowh haha..
( belajar stitching bahagian yg terkoyak)

ape2 pon posting ni mmg terbaek ar.. byk pengalaman manis walopon berapa minggu je..slalu je dengar baby2 nangis.. cumel gile.. hehe eh nak cite pe lagi eh.. hmmm nanti lah lagi crite

lately byk gak insiden jadi kat malaysia ni.. ngan anti - ISA nye.. ngan H1n1 nye.. macam2 lah.. korang jage lah diri ye.. ak plak mcm terlalu larut je dlm posting ni.. terase lame lak tak kuar merepek2 hehe nanti2 lah pas exam ke..

skang ak da kurang kan aktiviti kokurikulum ak rasa amanah pelajaran ak melebihi segala.. cukup lah setakat ni ak rasa...perlu concentrate lebih.. i want to be a good doctor.. n i will b.. insyAllah..korang doa2 kan lah ye..ak pon risau.. huhu

kak ziqah dapat baby baru.. smlm g melawat dorang.. seronok berkongsi cerita pengalaman dia sendiri di labour room hehe yeay dapat anak sedara lagi.. hehe tapi haziq (anak sdare faveret ak) takde lak smlm.. nanti lah g lagi.. hehe

Ramadhan da nak dekat.. debar gak rase nih.. kalau dulu balik dari umrah tiap2 malam ak tgk tarawikh di mekah dekat tv.. gemersik suara dari sane buat ak jadi rindu semacam.. dapat puase kat sane dlm seminggu je.. tu pon da tinggalkan memori dalam gile.. haish harap ada peluang pegi lagi.. bulan ramadhan jugak ingtkan ak zaman di maahad dulu.. takmau lah igt byk2.. :(

tetibe rindu Aiman ngan Hidir.. harap dorang sehat n berjaye..

salam..
p/s - tak suke org nangis2 baby nangis takpe :)

Doctors in the making

2009-07-19T17:56:00.000+08:00

By KAREN CHAPMAN

THE ultimate goal of medical education is to produce competent and ethical doctors. Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia has gone a step further by including personal and professional development as part of its medical degree.

FROM gynaecology to cardiology, medicine is a career with many choices.

But there’s more to being a doctor than diagnosing patients and treating their illnesses.

A doctor’s personal and professional development is just as important.

Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM) medical faculty dean and UKM medical centre director Prof Datuk Dr Lokman Saim said the ultimate goal of medical education is to produce competent, safe and ethical doctors.

»There’s more to being a doctor than diagnosing patients and treating their illnesses as a doctor’s personal and professional development is just as important«PROF LOKMAN

“The recent trend among medical schools is to put emphasis on students’ personal and professional development, and for this to be assessed.

“Traditionally, students who began their clinical training in their third year often acquired their ‘professionalism’ by observing their seniors and specialists who trained and imparted not only their knowledge, but values to them. However, there was no way of knowing if the students actually picked and practised their good habits,’’ he said.

In traditional medical education, students had lectures in areas such as anatomy, pharmacology and biochemistry and spent time in laboratories in the first three years.

In their third year (of the medical degree), they would be sent for their clinical postings to hospitals where they would obtain further training in diagnosing patients.

“This has been the tradition and it is during clinical postings that students are supervised by doctors. Apart from getting hands-on training, the students can also gauge and observe the manner in which their superiors conduct themselves before patients.

“This is also the time when they (students) too build their own character in terms of bedside manners and ethics, and in doing so, acquire a level of professionalism for themselves.”

Prof Lokman however pointed out that “professionalism’ in itself, could not be taught.

Communicating with patients like how to convey bad news, and whether to tell family members of a patient’s illness, were in the past learnt through apprenticeship or clinical postings.

“But in the actual practice of medicine, besides the knowledge and clinical skills, professionalism is very important as it makes a doctor ethical, courteous and able to communicate well with patients.

“All this while, these factors were not formalised in the curriculum, but the recent trend in medical education is to include issues of personal and professional development as part of the curriculum,” he added.

In short, they have to be included in the medical curriculum to ensure that future doctors would turn out to be both compassionate and knowledgeable professionals.

Doctors-to-be

The subject is called Personal and Professional Development (PPD) and is a part of UKM’s new five-year medical curriculum for students.

“PPD is emphasised in our new university curriculum as we have changed from the traditional curriculum to one which is more integrated and this is one of the subjects.

“University officials visited medical schools in Australia and the United Kingdom before reviewing the curriculum but the PPD and student camps are our own innovation,” he added.

Prof Lokman said this subject is taught throughout the five years of the medical degree, and is not limited to just one or two lectures on ethics or how to be a good doctor.

“We decided to add PPD in response to the demands of the society where we see many complaints regarding doctors, mainly due to ethical issues, doctors not being professional and most important is a problem with communication as some doctors don’t communicate.

“Very few problem cases are on inadequate skills or knowledge. Patients sue doctors because they don’t know how to communicate with them, not just in Malaysia but throughout the world,” he said.

The most common problem with some doctors is that they “see” patients but they do not say anything or look at them and just dispense the medicine, he added.

Since personality and professionalism are issues, it was decided that the medical curriculum at UKM should include them.

This is also the trend of medical education throughout the world, where personal and professional development are taught and assessed.

“If they have not passed the subject, they cannot graduate as doctors,” he said.

How PPD is taught

It is not just about lectures and notes for PPD but a mixture of learning styles.

There are several general concept lectures on ethics and professionalism but a person cannot change just by attending them, he added.

“The other method is to have small group discussions where they discuss real or simulated cases which involve ethical or personality issues.

“About 10 to 12 students will discuss the issue and come up with an opinion — again developing personality cannot be done in a big group,” he said, adding that the discussions are supervised by facilitators who are specialists.

Another method of teaching is to face simulated patient scenarios — where they are put in situations that would test their skills in dealing with a difficult patient, having to break bad news or how to explain procedures and obtaining consent for them from patients.

“This wasn’t taught previously, so some doctors could have explained the wrong thing or used very medical terms.

“We teach them how it should be done using layman terms,” he said.

Prof Lokman highlighted that camps to further emphasise students’ personal and professional development, are held three times during the five-year medical degree — in their first, third and fifth years of study. “Usually when students go camping, it is for leisure but this camp is part of the medical curriculum.

“They are gathered in a camp for four days with about 20 lecturers,” he said, adding that most activities are carried out in small groups of 10.

According to Prof Lokman, the objectives of these camps are to inculcate the spirit of working together as a team and leadership qualities.

The camps for first-year students are like a transition period as they prepare students to move from a school environment to one that houses doctors-in-the-making.

Besides seminars, there are also small group discussions on the importance of practising good values as well as the esssence and meaning of humanity, sincerity, kindness and love. At the first-year student camps, students also identify the attributes of good and bad doctors.

Fourth-year medical student Mohd Fadhli Mohd Fauzi said the camp is a good introduction to what life as a medical student is about.

“We learn about the different learning styles and time management too,” he said.

Mohd Fadhli who is also president of the medical student association, said the role plays during the camps are useful as they help with picking up skills.

“We are given a scenario and students will either act as patients and doctors so we can better understand what our patients go through,” he said.

Prof Lokman said selected movies which have legal and medico issues are also shown and students will then discuss them.

As an example, in the camp for first year students, the movie Patch Adams is shown — it is the story of Hunter “Patch” Adams (as portrayed by Robin Williams), a medical doctor who became famous for his unconventional approach to medicine.

But it is not all serious discussions as there is time for games and jungle trekking too.

Recalling one fun game, Mohd Fadhli said it was a telematch where groups of students had to dress in surgical scrubs and carry out activities — whoever was the fastest won the game.

“It was fun as we had to really work together till the end,” he added.

Another activity which Mohd Fadhli liked during the third year PPD camp was the white coat ceremony — when the facilitators gave them their white coats.

“It is a symbolic gesture as the third year is the first time we go to the hospital wards for our clinical postings,” he said.

Prof Lokman said other activities for the third-year student camps include the students demonstrating their abilities to work in a team and having sketches and role play.

“There are also small group discussions on confidentiality and the doctor-patient relationship,” he said.

At the third-year PPD camp, he said students discuss skills on keeping proper documentation for medico-legal records, death certificates, disease notification, sexual violence and child abuse.

There are also discussions on identifying misconduct and negligence in current medical practice.

“As an example, the students learn about medical certificates and the importance of not issuing them unethically,” said Prof Lokman.

Fifth-year medical student Farin Masra who has attended all three camps, feels they have helped her become a more holistic doctor in the making.

“The fifth-year student camp has also prepared me to become a houseman as I finish in eight months’ time,” she added.

Farin said the camps have also been useful as the facilitators themselves have shared what it is like to be practising doctors and the importance of balancing relationships with both patients and family.

Prof Lokman said feedback from students is that they enjoy the camps as it is a different environment from the university.

“These activities are all assessed. Facilitators give marks on students’ performance and participation.

“There are also mini tests and these marks are added up as a continuous assessment of how students are doing,” he added.

taken from the star July 19 2009

Aku Bangsa Malaysia

2009-07-09T13:05:00.008+08:00

Gadoh tells a story of a group of teenagers who fought each other along racial lines; a cycle of hatred and violence further escalated by their environment and school system.

What was to be a quick resolution to improve the school’s bad image, was taken as an opportunity for one teacher who believed that real change was possible. She ropes in the help of an old friend and reluctant maverick theater activist for this arduous task.

Is there hope amidst the cycle of discrimination that surrounds us? Watch Gadoh for their story, and what it may very well tell us about ourselves.

Antara scene yang masih terngiang-ngiang di minda ketika ini, adalah scene di mana guru teater mahu pelajar yang bergaduh tersebut meluahkan apa perasaan yang terpendam di hati mereka. Kenapa mereka perlu bergaduh sesama bangsa. Mengapa melayu perlu pukul Cina, Cina perlu pukul Melayu dan India sering dibelasah Melayu mahupun Cina.

Antara ayat-ayat panas di dalam cerita tersebut, berbunyi…

Kata seorang pelajar Melayu:
Saya paling tak suka orang cina. Diorang ingat diorang bagus. Pijak orang melayu.

Kata seorang pelajar Cina:
Orang melayu tak hormat orang cina punya. Kita terpaksa kerja kuat! Nak hidup! Nak belajar tinggi! Takde duit macamana nak berjaya?!!

Kata seorang pelajar melayu:
Orang cina makan b@b!! Pengotor! Berak tak pernah basuh!!

Kata seorang pelajar wanita:
Saya paling tak suka sekolah ni! Sebab sekolah ni bodoh! semua orang dalam sekolah ni bodoh! Tak kiralah, melayu ke, cina ke, india ke.. Semuanya bodoh!

Kata seorang remaja Cina:
Melayu bodoh! Belajar tak pandai pun boleh masuk Universiti.

Kata seorang remaja Cina:
Melayu suka komplen! Selalu cari salah orang lain! Salah sendiri tak nampak!

Kata seorang remaja Melayu:
Oi cina! lu jaga sikit lu punya mulut eh!! Lu menumpang je kat negara ini tau! Siapa yang suka cari gaduh!

Kata seorang pelajar India:
Saya benci diri saya sendiri sebab saya bagi orang lain buli saya. Sebab saya tak ramai. Saya tak kuat! Saya sebenarnya nak kawan dengan semua orang. Tapi orang lain sibuk nak cari gaduh. Saya tak berani!

Kata seorang remaja Cina:
Terlalu bangga dengan bangsa sendiri, tak habis-habis cari gaduh dengan bangsa lain.

Kata seorang remaja Cina:
Melayu takde otak!!

Kata seorang remaja melayu:
Bangun pagi tak mandi pagi. Badan bau busuk!

Nak tgk?? download cite ni kat Asscrewz.com trailer ada kat youtube.. search lah

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Pertama kali ak tonton cerita ini ialah bersama Iyas d urbanscape 2009 aritu.. amat berkesan movie indie ni kat ati ak.. satu cerita yg nyata dalam sesetengah kehidupan di Malaysia kita ni..

cerita ini membuka mata kepada sesetengah kita yg hidup dlm keadaan yg tiada masalah mengenai racism.. yg hidup dlm keadaan suka ria.. yg tidak pernah memikirkan tentang bangsa dan masa depan bangsa kita.. yg hanya hidup dalam satu sistem..

kita hidup dalam satu sistem yg takutkan racist.. kalau boleh tak nak cakap.. tak nak timbulkan dan tak nak fikir.. ini masalah kita bila tak berfikir kita tak faham.. dan dari situ mula lah masalah timbul.. namun cerita ini lebih terbuka dalam menyampaikan maklumat..

ak pula akui bahawa di universiti seperti kita racism ini amat nipis di kalangan kita.. kita di ajar bergaul dan memecah benteng antara bangsa2 yg ada.. oleh itu ak merasa universiti tempatan merupakan tempat dominasi pemikiran kita semua (UKM lah yee hehe) ..tidak seperti di bangku sekolah di mana sekolah mengikut jenis kebangsaan masih di dirikan.. sekolah cina.. skolah india.. sekolah melayu.. tak wajar.

cerita ini juga menyampaikan betapa guru itu penting dlm membawa pelajar2 berfikir di luar kotak.. berfikir lebih luas dan berdikari.. movie ini menceritakan akan korupsi yg berlaku di negara kita ni dengan begitu jelas..

dalam konteks kolej.. maaf ak ingin katakan yg movie ini telah mempersembahkan keadaan yg amat tepat dengan pengalaman ak bersama pentadbiran di kolej dulu.. mereka mahu apa yg mereka mahukan dan bukan yg kita ingin kan..

pening dengan nilai2 yg ak cuba bawa? tonton lah cerita ni dulu..

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Minggu depan ak start long case.. keadaan agak sibuk dengan persediaan.. long case ni kena present patient dan juga melakukan pemeriksaan fizikal pada pesakit di hadapan doctor... dan akan di tanya mengenai penyakit2 dia.. bagaimana nak manage dia.. huh pening gak.. case write up pon tak siap lagi.. wahh

skang pula sakit mate.. cmane ntah ley kena.. ada yg kata mengintai org mandii hahaha.. akak senior plak cakap yg mungkin lepas pegang patient tak basuh tangan n terus pegang mate.. hmmmm macam boley terima je reason tu...so menatang ni inflame kat mate.. effect kepale ak.. pening2.. mengantuk jerk.. da la ubat die kena letak bwh kelopak mate yg sakit tu.. perghh mmg nikmat ar kan?? haha Alhamdulillah syukur tak demam.. dua tiga ari ilang lah ni.. harap. tapi risau gak 2,3 ari tak g ward ni.. huh~

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Mood tgh nak balik penang jerk.. nape ntah.. tgk kedai hameediyah laa.. pantai laa.. tgk umah tok laa..tgk feri penang laa..tgk tandoori laa.. pergh gile nak balik penang.. nak g umah tok cik.. nak balik maahad.. selamat cuti tinggal brape hari je lagi..

haha agak emosi nampak.. mungkin effect inflamation mate nih.. arghh rimas..

k lah.. nanti gua menulis lagi,

Jap kenape ak kesah sgt negara ak ni?? sabda nabi ' hubbul waton minal iman' mencintai negara sebhagian dari iman .. charloww

Brahim's Kari Ayam dengan Ubi Kentang

2009-06-26T22:45:00.006+08:00

salam..

alhamdulillah sudah sebulan lebih ak di alam klinikal. dah habis minggu ke lima ak boleh katekan ak suke dan sangat teruja. penat tapi memuaskan. setiap minggu yg ak lalui ada saja pengalaman baru. ilmu baru. Ya Allah ilmu Mu mmg tidak bersempadan. Ak tunduk. Ak akui.

membentuk profesionalisme dalam pembelajaran dalam diri masing2 amat penting. bukan dalam bidang perubatan sahaja, ini termasuk bidang2 lain. sebelum rakan2 ku ke mesir dulu ak selalu pesan agar mereka belajar bersungguh2. sahabat2 ak di uia. rakan2 yg belajar di luar bidang yg ak pelajari. bukan kerna mencapai pointer yg tinggi2 sahaja namun pelajari dan hayati pelajaran yg di belajar.
jadilah seorang yg alim dalam bidang masing2. kerana kita akan saling bantu membantu untuk membina ummah satu masa nanti. membentuk rakyat yg mempunyai aspirasi dlm meningkatkan nama agama, bangsa dan negara.jadi mesti ada rasa tanggungjawab dalam pembelajaran setiap masa. tidak kira dalam bidang akauntan, guaman, ekonomi, ilmu agama, perlu ada rasa menguasai pelajaran yg kita ambil.

bukan apa, baru2 ni ak agak irritate bila org yg bukan dari aliran ilmu nya berkata2 bijak bagi aliran ilmu orang lain. (gile complex ayat hehe) tidak perlu bagi ak. ibarat seorang engineer memberi diagnosis dan preskripsi kan ubat bg pihak seorang doctor. mungkin engineer tu boleh google je name2 ubat namun tidak seperti seorang doctor yg memperskripsi kan ubat2an. ak tetap menunggu org yg sepatutnya berbicara namun senyap. kenape?

sebab org yg sepatutnya menyuarakan pendapat dan arif dalam bidang masing2 tidak dapat tampil. maka timbullah ilmu2 yg mungkin di google untuk dibahaskan. jd yg belajar ilmu agama.. ak harap tolong belajar sungguh2 sedalam yg mungkin.. ak nak blaja da mcm tak sempat.. :( .. sket2 ley la.. n always belajar agama melalui kitab dan berguru.. kalau sesat susah nanti

dah lah merepek ape ntah ak ni, sape paham paham lah haha

owh hidup dalam ward amat best. boleh cucuk2 org. boleh jalan2 dengan seronok sekali. kena cover bed. bercakap2 ngan org2 sakit. ak boleh rasakan ia larut dlm diri ak. taktau la kot ni posting surgery kan.. posting O&G (obstetric n gyneacology.. org sakit beranak) sakit sket ar..

so dalam posting sugery di ward ak ni ada beberapa perkara yg kena maintain di lakukan setiap ari. pembelajaran kami di bahagikan kepada beberapa bahagian. ward round, clinic, dan juga operation theater.

ward round ni kena la pusing2 dan melawat setiap katil pesakit bersama2 doctor. doctor lak ada houseman, medical officer (tinggi sket dari housemen) registrar (pelajar master), consultant (pakar). so dlm ward round ni slalu medical student la jadi mangse.. kena tny soalan2 yg spatutnya.. pelajar master pon kena tanya gak tapi soalan lagi susah la kan.. pengalaman kat sini ak dpt belajar buat physical examintn dari doc2 yg buat round..

di clinic plak ialah tempt pesakit2 baru nak g jumpe doc atas masalah2 yg dihadapi.. so kitorang kena clerk ( tanya soalan sakit ape, nape dtg) n present (cite balik kat doctor yg incharge) so situ ley blaja nak communicate ngan patient. kat sini gak doc akan buat procedure2 untuk check patient. ak nye pengalaman kat klinik best gak.. ak buat perectal examination (masuk jari tempat kuar najis nak check ada ketumbuhan ke pendarahan ke ape) dlm minggu kedua untuk beberapa kali... best2 hehe

kat operation theater (OT) lak.. ley observe doctor2 wat operation.. time tu ley la tanye soalan kat die.. ape die potong, nape die potong, kadang2 die tanye soalan kat kite.. ni urat ape.. mcm mane ley kene sakit ni.. sempoi.. dlm OT kene pakai baju OT yg cool sgt hehe.. ak slalu gak masuk dlm OT ni tgk org kene operate.. kadang2 patient yg kita clerk kat ward masuk OT, kalau kite masuk skali mcm lebih menyeluruh kita cover patient tu.. bukan takat sejarah kesihatan tapi mcm mana management die pon kite ley tau..

pastu pembelajaran dlm posting kali ni kitrang di beri supervisor.. dikalangan doctor2 lah.. dorang ni nanti akan buat kelas dlm satu jam untuk ajar... disini belajar tak mcm dulu.. kita yg decide nak blaja ape.. oleh itu kena ada planing lah nak blaja ape.. apa yg kita tak tau lagi.. dan kena hantar report patient kat dorang ni.. panggel 'case write up' so kena la siapkan n submit.. nanti die bagi markah.. (ini yg ak malas sket) hehe

bila ibu tanye ak cmane blaja.. ak tak tau nak jawab.. ak cube buat ayat cam kat bwh ni.. hehe try buat ayat2 poem mcm temoh atau khairun nisha haha

when u feel that u r made for it,
u just get diluted in it,
diffuse in ur own world,
trying to grab as much knwledge as u can
experience
u tend to forget d day,
days or night,
didnt care to eat,
though u knw ur knwledge not enough,
though u dont knw so many things,
though theres a probability u will fail
n u always b a piece of shit,
a joke for d superior,
u hear pain, u hear tears, but u still there,
watching, observing, trying to understand what is happening
patiently
because u just feel that u r made for it..

power tak ak buat? haha testing saja.. ak tak reti berkata2 manis sgt.. namun ak cuba hehehe ni lah yg ak rasa.. bila org tanye perasaan tu, ntah ak tak dpt gambarkan..tibe2 je mate berair.. gile.. hehe kalau ada sape2 yg ayat lagi power buat lah satu untuk ak..hehe nanti ak post kat sini.

dan ak harap semangat ak berkekalan. igt lagi tika berbual ngan ib. hidup dlm dunia perubatan mmg ada pasang surut. kadang2 down kadang2 semangat. tapi ape pon kene maintain. ak pon harap korang dpt doa ak yer agar tak pudar semngt ak dan dipermudahkan segale. dan inilah yg merisaukan ak.. takut jika ak takde semangat , boring dengan segala kerja ak.. taknakk...

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ak da tgk transforme.. di hari pertama die kuar.. perghh terbaek ar megan fox.. eh tetibe lak hahaha tapi best lah.. lompat2 terbang2 starscream..

n minggu ni da start bz ngan kemasukan pelajar perubatan baru.. sebagai PMUKM.. kena la kan buat lawatan n all.. mcm biase.. satu tanggungjawb..

sahabat2 ak di tahun dua pula result da kuar.. ramai yg sangkut gak.. n ada yg nak kuar dari faculty.. bukan ape.. bila sudah terpilih di jalan yg ditentukan Dia.. cubalah berusaha sedaya upaya.. sehabis mungkin.. ak ucapkan tahniah yg lulus tu.. dan tidak mengapa pada yg tak lepas tahniah tidak mengalah dalam perjuangan anda.. bangge ngan korang.. jgn mengalah..

shauqi penah cakap.. life is like playing golf.. its not who have the longest tee-off will win, but the first to reach the hole will (masuk ke ha ngan topik? hehe pandai la korang relate)

till then

p/s - hari ni lecturer Bio ak di Matrik baru meninggal dunia.. Faridah Binti Jabit.. alfatihah pada beliau.. michael jackson pon mati arini.. ramai lak kan org mati.. slalu igt mati.. diri dekat dengan Dia..

Risau Sedih

2009-06-16T00:33:00.008+08:00

Jenazah Dr. Fathi Yakan selamat dikebumikan

Jenazah Syeikh Dr Fathi Yakan pengasas Jamaah Islam (cawangan ikhwanul Muslimin) di lubnan telah selamat dikebumikan di bandar Tarablas selatan Lubnan selepas solat asar kelmarin (13 June 2009). Jenazah beliau telah diiringi secara rasmi dan manusia dalam keadaan kesedihan memenuhi masjid Tinal (tempat jenazah disembahyangkan).

Diantara yang yang mengiringi jenazah beliau adalah wakil Presiden syria, ketua dewan rakyat Nabih Barri, pimpinan HAMAS Sami Khatir yang mewakili ketua Biro Politik HAMAS Khalid Masy'al, pimpinan pergerakan Jihad Islami Abu Imad ar-Rifaie, timbalan setiausaha agung Jemaah Islam Ibrahim Misti dan wakil dari Hizbullah.

Syeikh Malik as-Syiar yang mengimamkan jenazah beliau telah berkata:

إن طرابلس مدينة العلم والعلماء، ومعها العالم الإسلامي بأسره تودع رجلاً من كبارها وعلمًا من أعلامها رائد الحركة الإسلامية ومؤسسها، من أفنى عمره وحياته في سبيل الدعوة إلى الله عز وجل

"Sesungguhnya Tarablas adalah bandar ilmu dan ulama. Seluruh dunia Islam telah mengucapkan selamat tinggal kepada seorang tokoh dan panji Umat Islam. Beliau juga adalah pelopor dan pengasas bagi Gerakan Islam yang telah menghabiskan kehidupannya untuk berdakwah kepada Allah."

Ulasan: Kehilangan ulama adalah satu musibah bagi Umat Islam dan tanda diangkatnya ilmu diakhir zaman. Hasan Basri berkata:

مَوْتُ العَالِمِ ثَلْمَةٌ فِي الإِسلامِ لاَ يَسُدُّهاَ مَا اخْتَلَفَ اللَّيْلُ وَالنَّهَارُ

"Matinya seorang alim adalah suatu lubang dalam Islam. Tidak akan dapat di tutup selama-lamnya." (Hr Darimi 329 dan Baihaqi dlm Syu'abul Iman 1719)

Rujukan: Ikhwanonline dan Mukhtasar Jami'u Bayanil ilmi wa Fadlih oleh Ibnu Abdul Bar.

Profil Dr Fathi Yakan

Dr Fathi Yakan ialah ulama dan pendakwah Islam yang terkemuka. Beliau dilahirkan di Tarablas pada tahun 1933 dan telah mendapat ijazah kedoktoran dalam pengajian Islam dan Bahasa Arab. Beliau telah terlibat dengan kerja-kerja Islam sejak tahun 50an dan telah menubuhkan Jamaah Islam pada awal 60an. Beliau telah menjawat ketua umum di dalam Jamaah Islam sehinggalah pada tahun 1992.

Pada tahun tersebut beliau telah bertanding dan telah memenangi kerusi parlimen. Beliau kekal sehinggalah pada tahun 1996. Di tahun-tahun kebelakangan ini beliau telah mengetuai jabhah Islami. Beliau telah mengambil peranan penting untuk menghentikan peperangan Mukhayyam Narul Barid di utara Lubnan diantara Tentera Lubnan dan Jamaah Fathul Islami pd tahun 2007.

Beliau telah banyak mengarang buku di antaranya Maza Ya'ni Intiami lil Islam, al-Mutasiqituna Fala Toriq Da'wah, Kaifu Nadwu lil Islam dan lain-lain yang melebihi 35 buah buku.

Sumber:
- http://dhanysarip.blogspot.com/2009/06/dr-fathi-yakan-meninggal-dunia.html
- http://akhisalman.blogspot.com/2009/06/berita-tentang-keadaan-fathi-yakan.html

Tahniah

2009-06-12T01:23:00.000+08:00

Y. Bhg. Tan Sri Datuk Prof. Dr. Sharifah Hapsah Syed Hasan Shahabuddin
( Naib Canselor UKM )

MPPUKM ingin mengucapkan tahniah kepada Naib Canselor UKM diatas pengurniaan pingat Panglima Setia Mahkota (PSM) oleh Yang di-Pertuan Agong Tuanku Mizan Zainal Abidin pada 6 Jun 2009 lalu yang membawa gelaran Tan Sri.

Semoga dengan pengurniaan ini akan memberi semangat baru kepada UKM untuk melakukan transformasi UKM menjelang 2015 nanti.

MPPUKM mengharapkan agar Tan Sri melaksanakan tugas, misi dan visi dengan penuh tekun dan lebih bersemangat demi survival UKM yang tercinta.

p/s: lambat lak wish.. huhu

Jentik jentik pecah

2009-06-03T18:33:00.005+08:00

Aku terbaca blog sahabat dari maahad dulu.. Shuhaimi.. seorang budak yg baek (ekeleh) haha dan amat kreatif.. ingat lagi masa dulu dia pernah siapkan sebuah replika bangunan sekolah dengan polistrin.. seorang pembuat gimik program yg paling sempoi pernah ak bekerja.. dan gimik2 kami ketika itu ak rasa tiada tanding lagi.. di ukm tak pernah lagi ak di kejutkan dengan gimik yg sempoi.. sorry lah ukm.. hehe

then baru2 ni ak terbaca yg dia telah menceburi bidang seni .. grafik,short film maker.. hmmm satu perubahan positif.. dan pernah memenangi beberapa anugerah.. walaupun bkn number satu tp ak rasa die ley g lebey jauh.. ak percaye.. (tetibe) hehe..

ni ak rase keje die kot.. ak doa dia dapat berjaye dan terus berjaye.. luck fren..

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sorry lah guys ak malas menulis panjang2 lah skang ni.. tunggu wekend kay..hehe (macam la ada org tunggu)

ak teringin nasi arab tapi mcm jauh.. kete iyas mcm malas lak nak drive.. huh~

chalorwss

Bernafas dalam air

2009-05-31T00:07:00.007+08:00

Salam..
wah agak lame tak bukak blog nih.. banyak sangat rasanya benda nak cerita.. since the last day i had my reseat exam till now..

Alhamdulillah i passed all the papers.. rasa seronok.. penat pon ada juga.. nak ucap terima kasih byk2 to those yang selalu doa n wish good luck aritu.. sory i cudnt reply most of u guys msg.. agak sibuk.. (ape yang sibuk pon taktau huhu) tapi betol la sibuk..

after exam i just hang out at the hostel.. waiting fr the result to come out.. seriously dalam keadaan risau. dont knw how to describe it.. where u believe that u can do but the negative thought seems to infiltrate and change what u believe.. the thoughts was like a war between two country.. fighting for their right to claim what shud b theirs.. there's been a risk. there always b a risk in every decision. every action. risk that u will won or lose. but during that time i always let the war to occur and let God to decide which country to win. i had try my best and thats it.

And on monday they announced all the result for reseaters. Alhamdulillah only one people from our batch cudn manage to get into third yr. i really feel sad fr him. like trying to feel what his life will b after this. having a faith in live is important. i used to be at the bottom before but life is full of unexpectance. like a cycle described by ib in one of his post. there is a day where u will b high till the last layer of the sky and theres also a day where u will b down below to the core of earth and the cycle will always keep on rolling.

i celebrated my post exam with my love one.. most of the reseaters went home. the dental studs still having exam during that time.. so most of the time i spent with myself preparing for a new life in ktdi.. packing things and everything.. thanks to iyas fr helping me transfring all my stuffs to ktdi.. it was very tiring

the next day all the new students is scheduled to have an orientation in ktdi for 3 days.. so there were intro session fr all the clubs in ktdi.. amsa, persiap, pmukm and their objectives, forums and small group discussion. a very good program i can say. we were also brought by our faci to visit departments, clinics and wards that will b our second home after this. most of the objectives is to prepare us in the clinical years. it was so interesting. as in my previous post, there are students twining of universitas padjajaran n ukm. they had 3 years fr their pre clinical years in unpad and have to finish another 3 years in ukm. so they are actually older 1 year then us.. but as being me who don't really believe in seniority, i just made friends with them hehe.. n i cud find some of them yg ley join perasap.. stylo la haha

after the 3 days of orientation, we had a camp in Besut Terengganu.. it took about 12 hours journey to be at Kem Bina Negara Besut. what a journey. we stayed there fr a week. its actually a collaboration between BTN n ukm medical faculty so the modules is mixed. basically it is a camp to prepare us for our clinical years.

the camp did leave a lot of memories to me. ive been a group leader. there was a lot of group activities discussing on medical etiquette, relationship between patient n doc, managing diversity, and lots more.

there was a session where we were discussing on personalities we have. there was a form that need to feel and self grading. then we had to tell 3 most highest grading on us and gave reason on it. i graded myself highest on altruism where u put other people interest more then urself, good looking and communication conduct.

the doctor asked me why did i put altruism as my highest grade? so i told them the story bout me involving myself with programmes, carnival, and get faild during my last semester. how i sacrifice my time on conducting and fulfil my responsibilities without thinking of my studies. for me when people trust u n give u a task.. u need to perform it well and put all ur effort on it. the basic is 'amanah'

the doctors were really interested on my stories one of them is a psychiatrist .. they asked the reason i made the decision, how i feel during that time, why i take the risk, and i freely told them everything. after i finished my stories. one of the doctor was like remember something and asked me ' So are you the one that hve been brought to meeting because of having too much co curricula activities and failed 3 papers? ' i was shocked and nodded slowly. The doctor stand up and aproachd me and give a hand shake. ' Tahniah kerana awak lepas semua dengan baik, im proud of u, tak sangka kamu dlm group saya' wahh iwas blushing n embarased because the whole group was looking at me but at the same time felt proud of myself. i just replied to him that i hope he can pray fr my best and become good doctor.

yes i always have an objective on taking these responsibilities.. ive always wanted to train myself so that i will b a good medical pract.. its not about name, its not about pangkat, its not about being famous not about being the best its about learning to b a good person in order to achieve my goal in being a good doctor. insyAllah

but i think what ive been trough is bit too much.. sakit dowh sume2 nak lalu ni.. though i have objective or goal i shud never do that again.. i think its a bit over.. patutnye ambil yang mana patut n cukup just to complete what i havent complete yet. yes u know ur self better. when u lack certain parts of ur self u have to find ways to improve ur self. but only certain parts not all.
be wise.

the 3rd day of the camp is the most memorable one. we had our subuh prayer at the sea shore. woke up at 3am and have a short kembara and stop by the sea. wudhu' with the sea water and imam by tawi. he read few lines from Surah Annur. it was so peaceful. i cud only hear the beautiful voices of him overlaping with the sound of the sea wave. Subhanallah. im so touched. till i didnt realize that sometin drop from the tip of my eyes.. we waited there till the sun arise.. i cud see the sky turning red and getting bright.. and hear the birds started chirping, a sign of another day is started. Alhamdulillah.

So the last day we were asked to submit out letter to ourselves. it is a letter addresed to urself when u have been in 5th year. during our 5th year, we will open the letters together and read what have we wrote during 3rd year. its sort of a time capsule (ye ke) or future letter. i found out it is a very good method in order to keep us on the track all trough this medical studies. yes.. ayah always thought me the power of visualization on the goal ive set. by writing the letter we unintended visualise what we will become in the future. our goal in the future. maybe ill make another post explaining this power of having goal and visualise it later.

the last not least is the ' White Coat Ceremony' it is a tradition or ritual where all the 2nd year students will be coated with white coat as a sign of transition from preclinical years into clinical years. ive always imagining this moment and Alhamdulillah ive gone trough it. Dr Azman cloaking me with the white coat and buttoned it for me. the session really inspired me to get into clinical years with confidence. during the ceremony Prof har on behalf of our parents asking all the lecturers to teach us.. sort of 'berguru' punye adat.. remembering me of all my teachers in maahad.. really miss them.. huh~

its already a week in surgery posting.. mayb ill tell my experience during first week of my clinical years later..

panjang nye entry ni..

till then

salam

Post Past Away

2009-05-10T17:19:00.010+08:00

Salam..

hmm rite now im stayin in hostel alone.. only few peoples left .. those dental students preparing fr their final exam.. yeah gud luck guys.. ib especially.. get rid of ur pc dude.. this is like the moment fr u.. its only a step ahead to achieve what u want most.. 5th yr and thats it..u will b a doctor..

yeah i found out that being a dentist is much more pleasure then being a medical doctors.. their clinics only open from 8 to 5.. have much time to play golf.. traveling .. n yet receive a good income.. and its suited u most dowh haha..

btw im not intend to write bout london yet.. i just dont feel like to have a long post .. tmrw my result will b anounced.. where it is like my everything.. when i said everything it means my carier as student leader, my friends, my goal, my life, my lecturers, my parents, ALL...

Ya Allah forgive me for what i did.. I really hope i can get trough this time.. I really want to get into 3rd year with all my friends.. i really hope all my friends can get trough together with me..

last friday, i went to perform my jumaat prayer at UIA.. i dunno why i just love to b at beautiful mosque.. where beautiful khat is engraved around the border of its mimbar.. where i cud c lots of other muslim perform solah.. where i cud hear the chirping of small birds flew through the gigantic windows of the mosque.. the echo of azan trough the small speaker scatterd above my head as the sound aproach all over the wall of the mosque.. it is relieving.. it is sort of peaceful feeling deeps inside which not always b there fr me.. being near to Him.. and see the arts of islam..

and a mufti from Bosnia gave the khutbah. it is so energetic. full of enthusiastic. he talked about the fundamental of islam. muslim today, they know a lot of islam. but never know how to apply it in their daily lifes.. and he said that this is the biggest problem that we are facing.. like an engineer who dont knw how to use his mathematical equation during experiment..

he told 4 fundamentals of islam that need to be acquired by muslim..

1st is knowledge..he started with the very common lines of surah Al-Alaq.. everyone knows that knowldge is very imprtant and he gave statistics on muslims country n non muslim country's graduates, university, the achievment but sadly it is not as good as non muslim's country.
Muslim must acquire knowledge in order to take back the world.. and he gave UIA as example a succesful islamic university. where we didnt only learn the thing that shud learn but also together with islamic fundamentals n understanding.

2nd is akhlak .. a basic yet most forgotten fundamntals .. Muhammad SAW is descended to us to improve our attitude(akhlak). Non muslim though they might not knowing about akhlak, they do have good attitudes.. attitudes against corruption. for being amanah, which is muslim had learn this since 7 can be seen in most of non muslim.

3rd is brotherhood.. muslim has to built and tighten relationship between each other. we cant win if we are not in jemaah. we have to be united. if we are alone then we will b nobody. he explaind the reason of why islam today is so weak. only one answer. because we are not one. yes we pray trough the same qibla, the same God, but we are not united. he told that we as human shud respect each other, the key to create good relationship and most muslim lack of this.

4th is continuity of Islamic knowldge.. the most important is the understanding where we as muslim has to keep on the continuity what has been brought by Rasul to all other people n ummah..dakwah

Take good care of urself keyh.. pray fr the best of me please... thank you very much..

i had an online quiz about my personalities.. hmmm most of it is true... n if u r a good friend of mine u might notice some of the personalities that ran on to me too..

Determined Realist (DR) Determined Realists like to bear responsibility and welcome challenges. They are stable, reliable persons. External contacts are very important to them; they mix well and are very active. They are excellent organisers and are very happy when things are done correctly and punctually; they can quickly react impatiently if others are not as conscientious, orderly and dutiful as they are. They prefer structured work which produces visible results quickly to abstract, long-drawn-out processes. Determined Realists have no problem with routine as long as it serves efficiency. However, they very much dislike unexpected and unpredictable occurrences which mess up their careful plans. Once they have committed themselves to a cause they do this with dedication and are willing to make considerable sacrifices for it.

Determined Realists do not avoid conflicts and criticism but face up to them and look for solutions. As they have a keen eye for the errors and shortcomings of others and are often quick at expressing criticism, they sometimes rub people up the wrong way especially when they lose their temper and jump to conclusions. Due to their marked sense of justice they are quickly willing to correct themselves and never take offence if someone speaks to them frankly. You do not have to seek hidden motives with them; you always know where you are. Determined Realists are often found in executive positions as they combine commitment, competence and the ability to assert themselves. In their spare time, they often also accept responsibility in clubs and other institutions.

Traditions rate highly with Determined Realists. They attend every family event and never forget a birthday or wedding anniversary. Family and friends are very important to them. With their open, communicative manner, they find it easy to get to know people and have a large circle of friends and acquaintances. They are never superficial, but reliable and loyal friends who are always there when they are needed. Determined Realists take their relationships very seriously - they dream of finding a partner for life. In a love relationship, they seek above all stability and loyalty and here, too, they are willing to invest a lot in a harmonious togetherness. Determined Realists master crises or difficult phases with composure; they would never think of breaking a promise given. As a partner, one can always rely on their support.

Works

As a Determined Realist, you are one of the extroverted personality types. You enjoy working in a team as a colleague or a team leader. Because you have an outgoing nature, you approach others easily and openly; working in solitude by yourself would be punishment for you. You know how to appreciate a harmonic working climate, but the relationship to your colleagues is not as important to you as to some of the other personality types. For you, the task always comes first and your colleagues and/or superiors are second. As long as everybody is working as disciplined and determined as you are, everything is just fine.

However, if you sense that the work is suffering from irrelevant disputes or private matters that have nothing to do with the job, you have no problem expressing your criticism, and making your team toe the line. It would never occur to you to sacrifice a good result in your work on the altar of personal moods, or in favor of a conflict free environment. On the other hand, you are one of the personality types who is best at handling criticism, and swallow negative feedback without brooding or sink into depression. Consequently, you also can hold your ground in professions where the climate is a little rougher and more competition oriented.

You are an excellent organizer, and a genius at planning and maintaining a workflow that is precise and on time. You enjoy dealing with details and facts, developing rules and guidelines, and establishing standards. Here, your natural sense for systematic and love of order prove to be advantageous; as well as your acute aptitude to see the most efficient of all possible approaches.

Love

Your personality type belongs to the most loyal and most faithful types. Even though you are able to fall in love head over heels if the stars are properly aligned, recklessness in dealing with your feelings, and those of others, is totally foreign to you. A relationship is a very important obligation for you. You take it very seriously, and give it a very important place in your life. You are not scared off with sentences like “until death does us part”; on the contrary.

Security, responsibility, and stability are very important to you, and you strive for a permanent personal relationship. For that reason, you are very comfortable in the established traditions such as marriage and family. Once you make a promise, one can be sure that you’ll do everything in your power to keep it, and this especially applies to matters of love. Especially in the “tough days” of a marriage, you turn out to be your partner’s invaluable harbor. You expect the same from him/her. Unfaithfulness and flightiness are going to hurt you more than most other types. Just remember that when the time comes to choose a partner, because not all personality types are as consistent as you need your partner to be.

Determined Realists like you are well grounded, and are much too sober and smart to think that in a long-term relationships, everything is going to be rosy. You are aware that highs and lows are a part of love and life, and difficult times are not going to make you unsure or discouraged. Instead of unending passion, trust, and a deep and continuing friendship between you and your partner are important to you because you know that these feelings are better suited to weather the turbulence of everyday life. Your contribution to the relationship primarily are continuity, and absolute devotion to your partner and your family. Your sense of purpose, and your need to take charge are also evident in the way you deal with your partner. You are probably the organizer, manage most of everyday life, and are in charge of your social contacts as a couple or family, as well. This does not mean that you want to be particularly dominating; you just have a pretty good notion of how things are supposed to work, and you just implement them without hesitation.

Adjectives which describe your type: extroverted, practical, logical, planning, direct, structured, conscientious, responsible-minded, self-confident, critical, honest, orderly, reliable, controlled, objective, able to concentrate, resolved, purposeful, communicative, with a sense of duty, tradition-conscious, stable, able to deal with conflicts, solution-oriented, relationship-oriented, efficient, impatient, warm-hearted, competition-oriented

i just want to know myself better.. so that i can use all the potentials in giving the best of me for my life.. peoples.. n Islam..

Salam

Bad cycle

2009-04-12T04:02:00.004+08:00

salam..

its just a short post updating what im doing rite now..
it has been a hard time for me in london.. excluding all the traveling, eating n accomdation huh i just faild 3 papers from my 2nd semester exam.. CNS GIT and endocrine ( the paper that im the only one fail of .. shyte)

huh~ it is a tough time fr me i guess.. ill update the traveling part later..

anyway Syukur i didnt fail all of the papers.. Alhamdulillah.. ill b back on 17th april and there will b about 3 weeks before the reseat paper.. hope there is enough time fr me to cover it all..

btw.. some people just dont have any senses on others.. i think that hv made the diff between good n evil.. someone with a very weak religous basis will do whatever they think they want to do n not what God askd them to do..

may all of us in the way where we will do what God asks us to do..

always b kind n help others.. world will b better place fr us (ayat doctor la konon haha) :)

salam..

happy anniversary

Backpacking (travel)

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This article is about low-cost travel with minimal luggage and frugal accommodations. For other uses, see Backpacking.

Backpacking is a term that has historically been used to denote a form of low-cost, independent international travel. Terms such as independent travel and/or budget travel are often used interchangeably with backpacking. The factors that traditionally differentiate backpacking from other forms of tourism include but are not limited to the following: use of public transport as a means of travel, preference of youth hostels to traditional hotels, length of the trip vs. conventional vacations, use of a backpack, an interest in meeting the locals as well as seeing the sights.

The definition of a backpacker has evolved as travelers from different cultures and regions participate and will continue to do so, preventing an air-tight definition. Recent research has found that, “...backpackers constituted a heterogeneous group with respect to the diversity of rationales and meanings attached to their travel experiences. ...They also displayed a common commitment to a non-institutionalised form of travel, which was central to their self-identification as backpackers” ^[1] Backpacking as a lifestyle and as a business has grown considerably in the 2000s^[2] as the commonplace of low-cost airlines,^[3] hostels or budget accommodation in many parts of the world, and digital communication and resources make planning, executing, and continuing a long-term backpacking trip easier than ever before.

resource : Wikipedia

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